welcome to the single club. hik hik hik.
anyway, for a warm up, i would like to share some linguistic joke i got from a language lecturer here. here goes
a linguistic professor was lecturing to his English class one day. "In English," he said, "A double negative forms a positive. In some languages, though, such as Russian, a double negative is still a negative. However, there is no language wherein a double positive can form a negative."
A voice from the back of the room pipep up, .............. "yeah, right."
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Monday, November 29, 2004
Perhaps...
Had some free time and read thru some entries of this blog and a few chubs’. Noticed that there still exists the concern that ‘chubs are sidelined’, ‘chubs are now a force to be reckoned with’, ‘chubs are now accepted’. Funny. Amusing. Coz it’s written by chubs. Coz chubs refer themselves as a different entity. It’s like there’re gays, there’re pengkids (read: lesbians) and then there’re chubs.
Perhaps I dunno what’s going on. Perhaps I dunno they did, and still do, suffer. Perhaps I dunno what being PLU, and Malaysian, and chub felt like. I thought those beliefs were so like 5 years ago. Perhaps it still exists. Perhaps coz I dunno what the general mainstream PLUs beliefs are. Perhaps coz I’m a chaser (then again, I’m too slim to be a chub, too chub to be a slim, and not enuff meat to be a cub, so what does that make me? A slub? Scub?). Then again, does it matter? Perhaps not.
Did my own observation (not long, probably only about 4 years) and seemed like: c4cs are a confident lot, and c4ss are reserved. In a society where first impression DOES count, then perhaps that’s not a surprise at all. And yeah, it’s a highly competitive society too. I also find c4ss dress smarter than c4cs. Then again, it’s just one man’s perception. Wanna argue?
Ok, so you’re being judged by your outer appearance. So what else is new? Still, deep down, it does feel like shit when you’re judged in 10secs. Now it does make sense why everyone dresses up to go to Kak Ara. But Gucci sunglasses and Manolo Blahnik boots at 12 midnite? Ok, so no boots, but you get the idea. My god-sister Maimunah, now called Madonna, sang “Rejection is the greatest aphrodisiac”. How true.
It’s cool that chubs have their own choice of attires. I’m still looking for a cafe where the chubs cook while wearing aprons, only. Hmm, wouldn’t that make me guilty of judging them from outer appearance? Hehehe… what the hell…
Playlist
Siti Nurhaliza – Cintakan Membawamu Kembali & Takkan Ada Cinta Yang Lain (been repeating this for the past 6mths, as good as if not better than by Dewa 19 or Reza or Titi DJ)
Dayang Nurfaizah – Kau Pergi Jua
Eka Deli – Cinta Ini
Alicia Keys – If I Ain’t Got You
Eva Cassidy – Fields of Gold
Perhaps I dunno what’s going on. Perhaps I dunno they did, and still do, suffer. Perhaps I dunno what being PLU, and Malaysian, and chub felt like. I thought those beliefs were so like 5 years ago. Perhaps it still exists. Perhaps coz I dunno what the general mainstream PLUs beliefs are. Perhaps coz I’m a chaser (then again, I’m too slim to be a chub, too chub to be a slim, and not enuff meat to be a cub, so what does that make me? A slub? Scub?). Then again, does it matter? Perhaps not.
Did my own observation (not long, probably only about 4 years) and seemed like: c4cs are a confident lot, and c4ss are reserved. In a society where first impression DOES count, then perhaps that’s not a surprise at all. And yeah, it’s a highly competitive society too. I also find c4ss dress smarter than c4cs. Then again, it’s just one man’s perception. Wanna argue?
Ok, so you’re being judged by your outer appearance. So what else is new? Still, deep down, it does feel like shit when you’re judged in 10secs. Now it does make sense why everyone dresses up to go to Kak Ara. But Gucci sunglasses and Manolo Blahnik boots at 12 midnite? Ok, so no boots, but you get the idea. My god-sister Maimunah, now called Madonna, sang “Rejection is the greatest aphrodisiac”. How true.
It’s cool that chubs have their own choice of attires. I’m still looking for a cafe where the chubs cook while wearing aprons, only. Hmm, wouldn’t that make me guilty of judging them from outer appearance? Hehehe… what the hell…
Playlist
Siti Nurhaliza – Cintakan Membawamu Kembali & Takkan Ada Cinta Yang Lain (been repeating this for the past 6mths, as good as if not better than by Dewa 19 or Reza or Titi DJ)
Dayang Nurfaizah – Kau Pergi Jua
Eka Deli – Cinta Ini
Alicia Keys – If I Ain’t Got You
Eva Cassidy – Fields of Gold
Saturday, October 16, 2004
funtastic friday night
good morning good evening and good night to everyone whose reading this blog ... heheh hows life goin for everyone ... mines getting better actually since the recent post breakup sessions. :) too all u who help and console and cared me back to my normal mood status i thank all of u with my greatest gratitude.
its friday im bored wat should i do ? online ?... moms gonna murder me when the bill comes(yeah i donthave streamx yet)its only 7pm ... and im already dead bored... called me ex to teman me to bleu for the 1st time ... and a few friends of ours of course and it was set... off we go.. and they actually planned to get me to a sauna for the 1st time too !! sentral hehehe here we go... bout 2 hours later we came back out was bout 10 something already( wat happened in there is another story LOL not for public viewing) came out all freshed out with an afterglow weeeeee heheh then off to dinner in jalan aloh.. there was this particular really cute daddy chub there serving the drinks cant help but to keep staring at him i mean all 4 of us which was kinda obvious... the guy came to us and ask us for our drinks we stared at him.... drooled ... stoned and fantasied all in less then 2 mins LOL hehehe yeah we had our dinner entertainment... HIM!! SO CUTE so so so cute hehe:) so after dinner walked to bleu anxious for my 1st time hehehe .. walk walk walk walk ..... tadaa bleu's staircase :) but its next to an arcade ... being a freaky gamer my self cant i was like"cant hold back... arcade pulling me in... arghhh" so off to the arcade for a game or 2 half and hour then come back out to bleu hehe went inside saw one of my friend G met his pals there and sorta introed me to then and was having my eyes on them *slurp* ... oops hehehe... went there lingered... kinda like the place really i mean u guys should give that place more attention man a little crowed is all it needs to make it great ... but since im the shy SOB there saw bob sani didnt dared to say hi and me pals was jumpin like monkeys on the dance floor just having fun ... me just listning to the music and stuff staring at the guys next table ... all u guys should know me im really shy hehehe so after all that chatting ands ff at the bar we went of fbout 1.45am went to the mamak and ate something had nice chatter with everyone ... forgot to ask number(stupid me) and we all went back happily and joyus heheh :)
now was the moral of the story ? dont be a shy idiot like me ... go get it or u'll be smackin ur self at the head feeling so stupid heheh :) enjoy guys ... hope to see some of u guys at bleu sometimes eh ? hehe
hugs
take care
its friday im bored wat should i do ? online ?... moms gonna murder me when the bill comes(yeah i donthave streamx yet)its only 7pm ... and im already dead bored... called me ex to teman me to bleu for the 1st time ... and a few friends of ours of course and it was set... off we go.. and they actually planned to get me to a sauna for the 1st time too !! sentral hehehe here we go... bout 2 hours later we came back out was bout 10 something already( wat happened in there is another story LOL not for public viewing) came out all freshed out with an afterglow weeeeee heheh then off to dinner in jalan aloh.. there was this particular really cute daddy chub there serving the drinks cant help but to keep staring at him i mean all 4 of us which was kinda obvious... the guy came to us and ask us for our drinks we stared at him.... drooled ... stoned and fantasied all in less then 2 mins LOL hehehe yeah we had our dinner entertainment... HIM!! SO CUTE so so so cute hehe:) so after dinner walked to bleu anxious for my 1st time hehehe .. walk walk walk walk ..... tadaa bleu's staircase :) but its next to an arcade ... being a freaky gamer my self cant i was like"cant hold back... arcade pulling me in... arghhh" so off to the arcade for a game or 2 half and hour then come back out to bleu hehe went inside saw one of my friend G met his pals there and sorta introed me to then and was having my eyes on them *slurp* ... oops hehehe... went there lingered... kinda like the place really i mean u guys should give that place more attention man a little crowed is all it needs to make it great ... but since im the shy SOB there saw bob sani didnt dared to say hi and me pals was jumpin like monkeys on the dance floor just having fun ... me just listning to the music and stuff staring at the guys next table ... all u guys should know me im really shy hehehe so after all that chatting ands ff at the bar we went of fbout 1.45am went to the mamak and ate something had nice chatter with everyone ... forgot to ask number(stupid me) and we all went back happily and joyus heheh :)
now was the moral of the story ? dont be a shy idiot like me ... go get it or u'll be smackin ur self at the head feeling so stupid heheh :) enjoy guys ... hope to see some of u guys at bleu sometimes eh ? hehe
hugs
take care
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Imaginary Short Chat
Me - "Why pick me? And why should I pick u?"
Chub - "U're different. I'm single and wasn't looking, until now."
"Ok, err... I'll take that as a compliment. How different is different? Who am I being benchmarked against?"
"We could talk with each other, I mean really talk. I don't have to explain what I said twice or something. I can't compare, each experience is different."
"Heheh, the same brainwave? I guess so. What are you looking for actually?"
"In early days, I go for looks. Reality kicks in when the chemistry's not there. Now I look for companion. Sex is not a priority anymore."
"Heheh, sex is probably an overrated subject. But it all depends, rite? For someone who don't get enuff, they'll want it. For those who could get it anytime they want, then they probably look for other stuffs. May I assume that that's your case?"
"...probably"
"...I guess it's just human nature yang tak pernah puas dan sentiasa nakkan leb ih."
"So what about u? What do u look for?"
"Hmmm, a friend, a mate, a partner, a consort, someone who'd run alongside with me, not in front, not at the back. I'mnot really looking, but that doesn't mean I'm not looking. Being too independent has its drawbacks. Now I have to find and, at extreme cases, create reasons why would I want to be involved with another person. Hehehe..."
"Have you found any?"
"Probably. But I dunno whether that's for real or just my own creation. Subconsiously, I would want to. There are things that used to bug me don't bug me nomore, and there are things that I used to push aside that I've started thinking about. Heheh, evolution process at work, I hope."
"...I've learnt a lot from past experience. I'd say I've done 'em all."
"...eeeerrr... ok, heheheheheh... so apa yang tinggal? And why would someone who has and tried everything would want to go thru it again?"
"Don't look at it that way. I look at it as a totally new experience."
"Well, I'm not slim, not a chub, not a cub, not stocky, not burly, not muscular. And I know u like slims. Heheh, perhaps I dun wanna define myself in a too-simple context. Ala2 everyone ni macam katak bawah tempurung, cuma saiz tempurung je berbeza dan aku akan diadili mengikut benchmark personal experience diaorg sendiri. That 'holier-than-thou' attitude yg buat aku rimas. So, why would u compromise your preference, and go for something not really suited to ur liking?"
"...becoz priority dah berubah. Aku dah cakap aku dah tak tgk rupa lagi, at least tu bukan priority. Aku kena fikir LTR, kalu ONS tu lain le. Hahahaha"
"Ahahahahahahahah... yea betull... Nak ngadap muka tiap2 hari tapi borak bosan je buat apa kan? Baik takyah jumpa lama2 utk lepak2 dll. Jumpa utk projek aja. Very specific reason and focused gitu. Hahahahahah... Ntahle... lain org lain selera... seronok lepak2 perati org ni... Hehehehhe"
"So...?"
Chub - "U're different. I'm single and wasn't looking, until now."
"Ok, err... I'll take that as a compliment. How different is different? Who am I being benchmarked against?"
"We could talk with each other, I mean really talk. I don't have to explain what I said twice or something. I can't compare, each experience is different."
"Heheh, the same brainwave? I guess so. What are you looking for actually?"
"In early days, I go for looks. Reality kicks in when the chemistry's not there. Now I look for companion. Sex is not a priority anymore."
"Heheh, sex is probably an overrated subject. But it all depends, rite? For someone who don't get enuff, they'll want it. For those who could get it anytime they want, then they probably look for other stuffs. May I assume that that's your case?"
"...probably"
"...I guess it's just human nature yang tak pernah puas dan sentiasa nakkan leb ih."
"So what about u? What do u look for?"
"Hmmm, a friend, a mate, a partner, a consort, someone who'd run alongside with me, not in front, not at the back. I'mnot really looking, but that doesn't mean I'm not looking. Being too independent has its drawbacks. Now I have to find and, at extreme cases, create reasons why would I want to be involved with another person. Hehehe..."
"Have you found any?"
"Probably. But I dunno whether that's for real or just my own creation. Subconsiously, I would want to. There are things that used to bug me don't bug me nomore, and there are things that I used to push aside that I've started thinking about. Heheh, evolution process at work, I hope."
"...I've learnt a lot from past experience. I'd say I've done 'em all."
"...eeeerrr... ok, heheheheheh... so apa yang tinggal? And why would someone who has and tried everything would want to go thru it again?"
"Don't look at it that way. I look at it as a totally new experience."
"Well, I'm not slim, not a chub, not a cub, not stocky, not burly, not muscular. And I know u like slims. Heheh, perhaps I dun wanna define myself in a too-simple context. Ala2 everyone ni macam katak bawah tempurung, cuma saiz tempurung je berbeza dan aku akan diadili mengikut benchmark personal experience diaorg sendiri. That 'holier-than-thou' attitude yg buat aku rimas. So, why would u compromise your preference, and go for something not really suited to ur liking?"
"...becoz priority dah berubah. Aku dah cakap aku dah tak tgk rupa lagi, at least tu bukan priority. Aku kena fikir LTR, kalu ONS tu lain le. Hahahaha"
"Ahahahahahahahah... yea betull... Nak ngadap muka tiap2 hari tapi borak bosan je buat apa kan? Baik takyah jumpa lama2 utk lepak2 dll. Jumpa utk projek aja. Very specific reason and focused gitu. Hahahahahah... Ntahle... lain org lain selera... seronok lepak2 perati org ni... Hehehehhe"
"So...?"
Saturday, October 02, 2004
crappy ending to a great relationship
crap,... there goes my happily ever after... my shortest relationship of my crappy life ... was really think it was gonna be a bomb... i mean how does everyone feel when they are so happy with their relationship.. all of a sudden u woke up from a noon nap and ur happy to see ur bf to msg ... and u open it ...he says he wants to end the relationship and reluctant to tell u the TRUE reason...
when u get meet him up to talk bout it ... he just gave u false reasons... when u bug him to tell u .. u gives u MORE false reasons... in the end everything was false... how would any of u feel.. to end a relationship in 21days... and not knowing the reason.
Yup... i cried for almost a week now still cant forget him... and without knowing a real reason... the most recent one i got was that he has hernia... and he is reluctant to continue with me cause he is afraid that i might get trouble taking care of him(really i dont mind taking care of him.. i really do love him) i know ive been an ass bout bugging him here and there ... but hey he yelled at me for no apperent reason too ... i was asking around for the crappy reason(yeah i know im annoying ... cause i really want to know ...) and he gave me another false reason saying"i already have a bf im just taking u for fun only" yeah i believed it ... i cried more. Then everyone said that his still single advertising in mychub channel... crap it was another lie...
i know bitching around for something is wrong ... but i ask everyone who is reading this ... would u like to know the reason that the person u really loved ..why he wants to break up?... doesnt it bug u... well it bugs me for sure
i really hope we can patch things up again... if only he would give me a chance... or at least let me know the true reason ... so i dont have to repeat my mistakes with my future relationships*sob* im actually tearing when im writing this blog...
yours truly
peeky
when u get meet him up to talk bout it ... he just gave u false reasons... when u bug him to tell u .. u gives u MORE false reasons... in the end everything was false... how would any of u feel.. to end a relationship in 21days... and not knowing the reason.
Yup... i cried for almost a week now still cant forget him... and without knowing a real reason... the most recent one i got was that he has hernia... and he is reluctant to continue with me cause he is afraid that i might get trouble taking care of him(really i dont mind taking care of him.. i really do love him) i know ive been an ass bout bugging him here and there ... but hey he yelled at me for no apperent reason too ... i was asking around for the crappy reason(yeah i know im annoying ... cause i really want to know ...) and he gave me another false reason saying"i already have a bf im just taking u for fun only" yeah i believed it ... i cried more. Then everyone said that his still single advertising in mychub channel... crap it was another lie...
i know bitching around for something is wrong ... but i ask everyone who is reading this ... would u like to know the reason that the person u really loved ..why he wants to break up?... doesnt it bug u... well it bugs me for sure
i really hope we can patch things up again... if only he would give me a chance... or at least let me know the true reason ... so i dont have to repeat my mistakes with my future relationships*sob* im actually tearing when im writing this blog...
yours truly
peeky
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Kg Baru.. Oh Kg Baru...
Beberapa minggu lepas, moks ngan abu pergi makan kat Kg Baru, KL. Kami baru sahaja balik dari Penang. Singgah sekejap hilangkan penat & letih memandu. Bila kami duduk dan memesan makanan. Moks terperasan la..didepan meja kami, adalah satu kumpulan abang-abang tengah makan. Salah seorang daripada mereka tu, sorang abang chubby bear yang sangat cute. Jadi, moks pun usha la. Saja je nak cuci mata. Iskk.. makin lama tengok makin cute plak dia. Tapi macam biasalah.. moks nie penyegan orangnya, tak berani nak approach. Bila makan yang dipesan dah sampai, moks pun makan lah. Tapi tak lepas peluang ambik kesempatan mencuri-curi jeling kat abg chubby bear tadi. Tapi dia sibuk berbual dengan kawan-kawannya. So moks ingatkan setakat tu je la kot.. pencuci mata.
Hanya Gambar Hiasan sahaja...tetap cute macam tuannya
Tapi sebaliknya tidak. Rasanya dia perasan kot... sebab tiba-tiba dia senyum balik kat moks. Haiyoo.. ada response la pulak!!!. Jadi moks pun balas la balik senyuman dia dengan tersipul-sipul malu. Ada la dekat 15 minit, kami saling berbalas senyuman. Paling tak moks sangka, apabila dia dengan cara berbisik dari jauh... mengolahkan ucapan "Kita tukar nombor telefon nak?". Moks pun mengangguk saja. Dalam hati ni, terkejutnya bukan main. Maklumlah, kat dalam kedai makan tu, ramai orang. Kawan-kawan dia pulak tak sedar ke dia buat macam tu? Kes berani mati nie..
Moks pun mencapai telefon dan menunggu dengan debaran. Dia dan kawan-kawan dia bangun dulu sambil membayar harga makanan. Sebaik saja dia keluar dari kedai tu, moks ikut dari jauh dan tunggu di satu sudut celah-celah parking kereta. Dia biarkan kawan-kawanya masuk dahulu. Dan kemudian buat helah nak beli rokok.
Kami bertembung di suatu sudut parking dan dia memperkenalkan dirinya sebagai Abang Man. Memandangkan masa yang suntuk, Abg Man (bukan nama sebenar), meminta nombor telefon moks dan berjanji akan telefon kemudian selepas menghantar kawan-kawannya balik.
Keesokkan harinya, Abg Man menalifon. Seronok kami berbual. Dia mengajak moks berjumpa untuk kali kedua. Nak buat datelah nie. Tapi malangnya moks terpaksa tangguh sebab Moks kena pegi JB. Tak pe lah Abg Man, ada banyak hari lagi boleh jumpa. Dan pastinya bak kata pepatah, pucuk yang dicita tu.. harus mendatang. Hehehehe
Memang hari tu, hari bertuah untuk moks sebab dapat berkenalan dengan sorang abang chubby bear yang sangat cute.
Hanya Gambar Hiasan sahaja...tetap cute macam tuannya
Tapi sebaliknya tidak. Rasanya dia perasan kot... sebab tiba-tiba dia senyum balik kat moks. Haiyoo.. ada response la pulak!!!. Jadi moks pun balas la balik senyuman dia dengan tersipul-sipul malu. Ada la dekat 15 minit, kami saling berbalas senyuman. Paling tak moks sangka, apabila dia dengan cara berbisik dari jauh... mengolahkan ucapan "Kita tukar nombor telefon nak?". Moks pun mengangguk saja. Dalam hati ni, terkejutnya bukan main. Maklumlah, kat dalam kedai makan tu, ramai orang. Kawan-kawan dia pulak tak sedar ke dia buat macam tu? Kes berani mati nie..
Moks pun mencapai telefon dan menunggu dengan debaran. Dia dan kawan-kawan dia bangun dulu sambil membayar harga makanan. Sebaik saja dia keluar dari kedai tu, moks ikut dari jauh dan tunggu di satu sudut celah-celah parking kereta. Dia biarkan kawan-kawanya masuk dahulu. Dan kemudian buat helah nak beli rokok.
Kami bertembung di suatu sudut parking dan dia memperkenalkan dirinya sebagai Abang Man. Memandangkan masa yang suntuk, Abg Man (bukan nama sebenar), meminta nombor telefon moks dan berjanji akan telefon kemudian selepas menghantar kawan-kawannya balik.
Keesokkan harinya, Abg Man menalifon. Seronok kami berbual. Dia mengajak moks berjumpa untuk kali kedua. Nak buat datelah nie. Tapi malangnya moks terpaksa tangguh sebab Moks kena pegi JB. Tak pe lah Abg Man, ada banyak hari lagi boleh jumpa. Dan pastinya bak kata pepatah, pucuk yang dicita tu.. harus mendatang. Hehehehe
Memang hari tu, hari bertuah untuk moks sebab dapat berkenalan dengan sorang abang chubby bear yang sangat cute.
Thursday, September 09, 2004
happily ever after
lots of things happened this week
sad things and good things ... me and my ex finally broke up cause of certain reasons... yeah.. i ditched him ... cause there are certain stuff i cant stand bout him ... thats the bad thing ...
the good thing is ... after that ... some one nice enuff to came into my life to mend my broken heart ... i have fallen for him... we became attached all of a sudden... love at 1st sight u must say :P.
the bad thing again... after our attachment everythought got the bad idea of it! whats the bad thing u ask ? well everyone thought that my current bf stole me away from my ex ... saying that his the 3rd party and broke up my old relationship! OMG WHERE DID THEY GOT THAT FROM ? no stealing no bi**hing happened! its just some regular break up,patch up thing . Im just happy with my current new boyfriend :) but me and my ex are still great friends we still go out for movies and stuff nothings change much between us just that we arent the way we were before thats all.. but my current bf gets all the troubles and misunderstandings that his being the 3rd party and the evil guy and stuff .. well the truth is he aint his the best guy i known and he didnt steal me from someone he saved me from my dreaded dead relationship
oh yeah... that IS my encounter :)me and my current bf. Im happy that we found each other its so great to be in love again
hope u all are too
hugs take care
peekyboo
sad things and good things ... me and my ex finally broke up cause of certain reasons... yeah.. i ditched him ... cause there are certain stuff i cant stand bout him ... thats the bad thing ...
the good thing is ... after that ... some one nice enuff to came into my life to mend my broken heart ... i have fallen for him... we became attached all of a sudden... love at 1st sight u must say :P.
the bad thing again... after our attachment everythought got the bad idea of it! whats the bad thing u ask ? well everyone thought that my current bf stole me away from my ex ... saying that his the 3rd party and broke up my old relationship! OMG WHERE DID THEY GOT THAT FROM ? no stealing no bi**hing happened! its just some regular break up,patch up thing . Im just happy with my current new boyfriend :) but me and my ex are still great friends we still go out for movies and stuff nothings change much between us just that we arent the way we were before thats all.. but my current bf gets all the troubles and misunderstandings that his being the 3rd party and the evil guy and stuff .. well the truth is he aint his the best guy i known and he didnt steal me from someone he saved me from my dreaded dead relationship
oh yeah... that IS my encounter :)me and my current bf. Im happy that we found each other its so great to be in love again
hope u all are too
hugs take care
peekyboo
Saturday, August 28, 2004
NASIB OH NASIB!
Hi there, it is me after a long absense! Well it has been a rough road. I have met sme chubs! Not many though! Just when you thought you met a good person, he shows his true colours! If you all remember I did write about meeting a married guy in Kuching. He asked me to remove the entry so that is what I did!
My story revolves around something called an organizer! Sebenarnya, saya tidak tahu menggunakannya! But this guy has been so insistent that I get him one! Anyway, to me it is simple! Orang dah beli awak bayar. I get SMS how do I pay you? cash or kind?? Well it makes me wonder if he is a professional like he claims he is!! Tring to get away without paying! I would probably have ended up buying something worth S$600 to be cheated of it!!
So far I have not met any genuine long term chub friends! Many are out to get a quick something out of a friendship! Well I have been bitten once too many so tak bertindak dengan permintaan this guy! Well so far it seems to be a one way communication! Saya yang selalu all dia...tak pernah satu kali dia call! A professional...I wonder??? Sms ada........I should have guessed from this!
Well not saying all malaysians are bad! Maybe I have yet to meet the correct one! But maybe somewhere out there he exists!!!!
My story revolves around something called an organizer! Sebenarnya, saya tidak tahu menggunakannya! But this guy has been so insistent that I get him one! Anyway, to me it is simple! Orang dah beli awak bayar. I get SMS how do I pay you? cash or kind?? Well it makes me wonder if he is a professional like he claims he is!! Tring to get away without paying! I would probably have ended up buying something worth S$600 to be cheated of it!!
So far I have not met any genuine long term chub friends! Many are out to get a quick something out of a friendship! Well I have been bitten once too many so tak bertindak dengan permintaan this guy! Well so far it seems to be a one way communication! Saya yang selalu all dia...tak pernah satu kali dia call! A professional...I wonder??? Sms ada........I should have guessed from this!
Well not saying all malaysians are bad! Maybe I have yet to meet the correct one! But maybe somewhere out there he exists!!!!
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
dead lucky day
wohooo
busy busy busy dead week
few more weeks and my terms over and off to term break
had a really really great encounter afew days ago
just as i steped out of my college and out to have some food at the regular mamak i go too... as usual... 1 roti kosong 1 roti plaster and one nasi goreng ayam and coke ... nothing unusual there ...
my pet sisters called me to ask me to go for a drink at kafe flem at pyramid with them i was like why not ... so them came we went sat down drinking and opposite us there was a table of 3 big guys they arent standing up so i dont know how tall they look... but they look bout 250-280lbs-ish ...wasnt sure of their ethnic there... they dont look local yet their skin colour look kinda like a malay guy .. i was like woh.. cute stuff there... didnt know i was staring that hard ... then my pet sister was teasing "i know wat ur staring..." oh yeah btw both them know that i like big men.. they kept pushin and urging for me to make a pass at the table of men. so shy me just went for the kill ... konon ... well as i approached they were like kinda curious y i was there... stupid me ask the 1st question"erm.. me and the girls there sorta wondered that ... are u guys local?" duh then i felt stupid asking that ... then they sorta giggled abit and say" no were from honolulu, hawaii" ...woo hoo i was like holy crap!! islanders!!
so i was asking a whole lot of dumb fonded question that night ... trust me ... acting dumb works to get a conversation going ...after bout 30mins the girls came and join us too and marrily we were chatting on and on bout 2am gheese... and my fruit of labor is ...2 of them are brothers...the other is the cousin... all them sounded like tribal names ... so i called them something else i can remember clearly ...one is named chris 28.. the other nick 26 and the last one is called mack 30...and no ... their not gay ... so no luck there boys :P .Their here on a trip with the family and stuff and their living in 2 days time, and the think our traffic sistem suck big time LMAO ... that is soooo soooo soooo true... hehehe....well as our day ends and the ppl in the bar gets lesser by the time we just decided to end our session.The girls got hugs and stuff... i in other hand got a bear hug from all three..."blush" the closeness... got their e-mails and stuff and their cell numbers.. but not that i can call them i mean ... its expensive!!
went home with a satisfied look... drove home with a happy hum in me ... all the way home... there u have it my dead lucky day
busy busy busy dead week
few more weeks and my terms over and off to term break
had a really really great encounter afew days ago
just as i steped out of my college and out to have some food at the regular mamak i go too... as usual... 1 roti kosong 1 roti plaster and one nasi goreng ayam and coke ... nothing unusual there ...
my pet sisters called me to ask me to go for a drink at kafe flem at pyramid with them i was like why not ... so them came we went sat down drinking and opposite us there was a table of 3 big guys they arent standing up so i dont know how tall they look... but they look bout 250-280lbs-ish ...wasnt sure of their ethnic there... they dont look local yet their skin colour look kinda like a malay guy .. i was like woh.. cute stuff there... didnt know i was staring that hard ... then my pet sister was teasing "i know wat ur staring..." oh yeah btw both them know that i like big men.. they kept pushin and urging for me to make a pass at the table of men. so shy me just went for the kill ... konon ... well as i approached they were like kinda curious y i was there... stupid me ask the 1st question"erm.. me and the girls there sorta wondered that ... are u guys local?" duh then i felt stupid asking that ... then they sorta giggled abit and say" no were from honolulu, hawaii" ...woo hoo i was like holy crap!! islanders!!
so i was asking a whole lot of dumb fonded question that night ... trust me ... acting dumb works to get a conversation going ...after bout 30mins the girls came and join us too and marrily we were chatting on and on bout 2am gheese... and my fruit of labor is ...2 of them are brothers...the other is the cousin... all them sounded like tribal names ... so i called them something else i can remember clearly ...one is named chris 28.. the other nick 26 and the last one is called mack 30...and no ... their not gay ... so no luck there boys :P .Their here on a trip with the family and stuff and their living in 2 days time, and the think our traffic sistem suck big time LMAO ... that is soooo soooo soooo true... hehehe....well as our day ends and the ppl in the bar gets lesser by the time we just decided to end our session.The girls got hugs and stuff... i in other hand got a bear hug from all three..."blush" the closeness... got their e-mails and stuff and their cell numbers.. but not that i can call them i mean ... its expensive!!
went home with a satisfied look... drove home with a happy hum in me ... all the way home... there u have it my dead lucky day
Monday, August 09, 2004
Makan Angin...
Beberapa minggu lepas aku pegi KL. Bukan apa, saja nak gi shopping sket. So nak citer la. Masa nak balik atas highway tu, aku singgah la kejap kat Seremban R&R tempat favorite aku. Bukan apa, mungkin bagiku, kat sinilah konsentrasi chub cute yang paling banyak pernah ku jumpa. Selang 2 - 3 minit je.. pasti ada chub yg datang buat bahan pencuci mata. Makan kat sini pun sedap juga.
Maka tersebutlah alkisah weekend lepas, ketika aku tengah menjamu selera dengan nasik masak lomak cili padi. Adalah satu family dok sebelah meja aku nie. Bila aku toleh je... aiseh.. daddy chub salt and pepper tue beb. 40an 110kg 168cm waist 40. Terngaga mulut ku kejap. Mau tak nya.. perutnya bulat besar dan cute. Muka comel macam daddy-daddy mat salleh kat biggercity cuma dia ni melayu. Yang membuat aku terngaga bukan apa.. pakaiannya sungguh seksi. Baju T Jotun ketat body hugging.. seluar pendek paras lutut dan kasut boot. Pergh.. macho yet adorable. Sayang sekali, pouch bag kat pinggang menutup kawasan vitalnya.. cuma aku boleh bayangkan apa yang ada kat sana.
So lepas makan, aku jeling2 je la kat meja sebelah. Tak la obvious sangat.. kena cover line la sket.. takut wifenya perasan plak aku nak ngorat husband die.. ekkeeke. Memang tuah aku ari tu kot. Lepas makan dia gi toilet. Aku pon apa lagi.. ikut ler dari belakang. Sampai kat cubicle kencing, aku masuk sebelah dia. Masa kencing tu... kasi la sejeling dua. Fuiyoo mantap. Walaupun tak keras, dah lebar dan besar. Ambik masa gak org tua nie kencing.. dia biar je aku pandang. Aku pon dah macam kuching lapar.. dah org kasi tengok.. tengok je la.
Dah puas menjamu mata, dia pon ke singki. Aku ikut. Then kat cermin tu.. kami saling pandang memandang. Dia senyum aku pun senyum. Perhh.. meleleh jap. Tapi nak buat camana.. dah public toilet.. takkan nak on kat situ kot. Lagi pon wife dia sure dok tunggu kat luar. Tetiba ramai plak org masuk.. rombongan bas kot.. so dia jadi segan.. sama la ngan aku. Terus kami keluar.
So dari Seremban tu, aku usha kereta daddy tu. Ooo.. Singaporean rupanya. Mazda Estima. Patut la dressing ngancam. Aku keluar dari R&R dan terus masuk highway. Dah malas nak pikir dah.. maybe bukan rezeki kot.. kekeke. Tetiba je ada org highbeam dari belakang. Aku tengok side mirror, macam kereta daddy tadi. Aku biarkan la dia lepas.
Tapi sebaliknya, dia cucuk dari belakang kereta aku. Rapat sangat dia bawak. Aku pon apa lagi.. pecut le.. Daddy tu kejar aku.. giler.. Bole tahan jugak org tua ni race. Ada la dalam 140 - 160 aku bawak atas highway. Kami saling pintas memintas. Sesampai kat Hentian Restoran Jejantas Ayer Keroh aku masuk, daddy tu ikut aku. Penat seh.. race memalam ni. Aku keluar dari kereta, aku nampak daddy tu keluar sekali. Wife dia tengah tido (maybe mabok jalan kot). Anyway, dia angkat tangan.. aku pun balas la angkat tangan dengan sengeh-sengeh kerang busuk ku.
Aku masuk A&W dan order satu pitcher nak bawak balik umah, daddy tu pun masuk dan dok belakang aku. Berdebar-debar siot. Aku pusing dan memberikan senyuman paling memikat. Daddy tu senyum balik. Sementara menunggu order sampai, daddy tu tegur aku.
"Bole tahan jugak awak bawak tadi." suaranya yang dalam cukup membuatku tergamam.
"Uncle.. bawak lagi expert." entah napa aku tetiba aku jadi mesra plak.
Dia gelak kecik... maybe bangga kot dengan gelaran uncle
"Kalau ada masa contact la uncle... maybe kita boleh race lagi"
Daddy mengeluarkan sekeping kad dari walletnya dan memberikan padaku.
Dan dan tu jugak order sampai.. so daddy tu ambik dia punya dan blah. Tapi sebelom tu, dia sempat lagi angkat tangan sekali lagi dari pintu A&W dan aku kat kaunter memberikan lambaikan ratu. Nasib baik ler tak der org kat situ.
Sesampai kat parking, kereta daddy tu dah tak de. So baru aku teringat kad yang dia kasi tadi. Bila baca kad dia, aku sekali lagi terkejut beruks... hik hik hik..
Tengku XXXXXX
Big Boys Bikers Club !!!
012-xxx xxxx
Maka tersebutlah alkisah weekend lepas, ketika aku tengah menjamu selera dengan nasik masak lomak cili padi. Adalah satu family dok sebelah meja aku nie. Bila aku toleh je... aiseh.. daddy chub salt and pepper tue beb. 40an 110kg 168cm waist 40. Terngaga mulut ku kejap. Mau tak nya.. perutnya bulat besar dan cute. Muka comel macam daddy-daddy mat salleh kat biggercity cuma dia ni melayu. Yang membuat aku terngaga bukan apa.. pakaiannya sungguh seksi. Baju T Jotun ketat body hugging.. seluar pendek paras lutut dan kasut boot. Pergh.. macho yet adorable. Sayang sekali, pouch bag kat pinggang menutup kawasan vitalnya.. cuma aku boleh bayangkan apa yang ada kat sana.
So lepas makan, aku jeling2 je la kat meja sebelah. Tak la obvious sangat.. kena cover line la sket.. takut wifenya perasan plak aku nak ngorat husband die.. ekkeeke. Memang tuah aku ari tu kot. Lepas makan dia gi toilet. Aku pon apa lagi.. ikut ler dari belakang. Sampai kat cubicle kencing, aku masuk sebelah dia. Masa kencing tu... kasi la sejeling dua. Fuiyoo mantap. Walaupun tak keras, dah lebar dan besar. Ambik masa gak org tua nie kencing.. dia biar je aku pandang. Aku pon dah macam kuching lapar.. dah org kasi tengok.. tengok je la.
Dah puas menjamu mata, dia pon ke singki. Aku ikut. Then kat cermin tu.. kami saling pandang memandang. Dia senyum aku pun senyum. Perhh.. meleleh jap. Tapi nak buat camana.. dah public toilet.. takkan nak on kat situ kot. Lagi pon wife dia sure dok tunggu kat luar. Tetiba ramai plak org masuk.. rombongan bas kot.. so dia jadi segan.. sama la ngan aku. Terus kami keluar.
So dari Seremban tu, aku usha kereta daddy tu. Ooo.. Singaporean rupanya. Mazda Estima. Patut la dressing ngancam. Aku keluar dari R&R dan terus masuk highway. Dah malas nak pikir dah.. maybe bukan rezeki kot.. kekeke. Tetiba je ada org highbeam dari belakang. Aku tengok side mirror, macam kereta daddy tadi. Aku biarkan la dia lepas.
Tapi sebaliknya, dia cucuk dari belakang kereta aku. Rapat sangat dia bawak. Aku pon apa lagi.. pecut le.. Daddy tu kejar aku.. giler.. Bole tahan jugak org tua ni race. Ada la dalam 140 - 160 aku bawak atas highway. Kami saling pintas memintas. Sesampai kat Hentian Restoran Jejantas Ayer Keroh aku masuk, daddy tu ikut aku. Penat seh.. race memalam ni. Aku keluar dari kereta, aku nampak daddy tu keluar sekali. Wife dia tengah tido (maybe mabok jalan kot). Anyway, dia angkat tangan.. aku pun balas la angkat tangan dengan sengeh-sengeh kerang busuk ku.
Aku masuk A&W dan order satu pitcher nak bawak balik umah, daddy tu pun masuk dan dok belakang aku. Berdebar-debar siot. Aku pusing dan memberikan senyuman paling memikat. Daddy tu senyum balik. Sementara menunggu order sampai, daddy tu tegur aku.
"Bole tahan jugak awak bawak tadi." suaranya yang dalam cukup membuatku tergamam.
"Uncle.. bawak lagi expert." entah napa aku tetiba aku jadi mesra plak.
Dia gelak kecik... maybe bangga kot dengan gelaran uncle
"Kalau ada masa contact la uncle... maybe kita boleh race lagi"
Daddy mengeluarkan sekeping kad dari walletnya dan memberikan padaku.
Dan dan tu jugak order sampai.. so daddy tu ambik dia punya dan blah. Tapi sebelom tu, dia sempat lagi angkat tangan sekali lagi dari pintu A&W dan aku kat kaunter memberikan lambaikan ratu. Nasib baik ler tak der org kat situ.
Sesampai kat parking, kereta daddy tu dah tak de. So baru aku teringat kad yang dia kasi tadi. Bila baca kad dia, aku sekali lagi terkejut beruks... hik hik hik..
Tengku XXXXXX
Big Boys Bikers Club !!!
012-xxx xxxx
Monday, July 19, 2004
Memory
Friday, got some shocking news thru email at 4.32pm. Twas time for sms-frenzy though the news's not certain yet. Had some home-cooked meal at my sis's place comprising of 'Ketam Masak Lada Hitam' and 'Sotong Masak Hitam' (tak baik makan sedara Berudu!). Yum! Went to Bukit Bintang for a while and then to the ever popular if-you-think-you've-got-class-don't-drink-here-go-to-Starbucks-and-you'd-smell-like-Maggee-assam-laksa-even-after-dabbing-yourself-with-lots-of-perfume Selera Kampung to meet some guys. Nizam's really into his new bf and was thinking of finding a job in East Malaysia or Brunei. He'll be having some 'tea-ceremony' soon to present himself to the parents. Went home bout 2am but had a short nap at Mobil station near Sg Besi after a heavy downpour. Was planning to have McDonald's prawn burger, coz one of the staff who's working there is kinda cute (read: chubs in uniforms) but the place closed at 12. I've to make up the theory that McDonald's trying to make people eat more hamburgers thru making their staff wear tight shirts and pants, give killer smiles while mopping the floor, bending over all over the place. I wonder if they're supposed to make fries wearing aprons, only...
Saturday, had a haircut (coz I was planning to take some passport-sized photos) and went to cc at Bangi to chat with Harry. He gave a lot of pointers, and said that I could dump my stuff over at his place if I've no where to put 'em, and that'd be a lot. The cc is run by a family whose family members and friends are mostly chubs, including one twin chubs. It did cross my mind that i got there subconsciously thru the concentrated smell of fat. Like some say, the sense of smell is the most primitive sense and most developed of all our senses. Really?
Went to Sri Petaling at 8 and hitched a ride with Hard, Fairy and JD to watch Akademi Fantasia. Got there about 8.30, after a Subaru WRC drive featuring Hard, and co-piloted by Fairy. Such display of enthusiasm for Kaer made me feel touched. With a flick of his hair while waving his invincible pass a-la 'diva datang lambat', Fairy got us thru the gate. Picked our seats on forth row. The crowd was full, but disciplined and full of enthusiasm. Everyone seems to know everyone else in those front rows. I sat quietly, sandwiched between 2 chubs. Ahh....
The stage looked smaller than what I see on tv, and so did all the contestants. Aznil was hilarious, the show was ok, I like Kaer's Episod Cinta Dari Bromley but especially their final broadway-ish show Cats' Memory. Many gave them standing ovation, including Joe, Hard, and Fairy, and yeah, they very well deserved it. The result was revealed, and Zarina was out. There was shock, and anger. Not many cried, perhaps becoz they're more angry than sad. She's cool. I always thought of her as someone who'll be in the Top 5 final. Sounds like the Top 5 would be 'Nurul, Mas, Farah, Adam, Bob'... hahahahaha. Btw, I'm eagerly waiting for Bob to appear in full Nike attire on tv. Any chance of that happening?
Went to Kak Ara to have dinner. More complaints about the result. Everyone complaint to everyone else via sms "Why Zarina?". Joe was especially pissed, and now he'd be more considering Nikki of Malaysian Idol didn't pull thru. Btw, Happy Belated Birthday, Joe!
Left for Kelana Jaya, something we all haven't done for a very long time. The mood and surrounding do have an effect over everyone else; the feeling of thrill, suspense, diva-esque made people walk slowly, with a 'lenggang' and smile. JD suddenly had a barrage of questions to everyone, questions that I believe I've asked myself about 10-12 years ago. "Why did u become one? Are you happy? What type are you looking for? Is it all about sex? Do you choose this life? Do you want to change? Why and why not? Are you t/b/v?" And so on... To JD, pick your path carefully, young man. It'll be hard to turn back. Hard said I passed the scoring marks in answering JD's questions... Yeay! Btw, this para requires a lot explanation which I MIGHT do should I have the time later...
Sunday, Eric called and wanted me to tag along to show his friend around Putrajaya. Went to Souq to have 'Briyani Gam Batu Pahat', which is much better than the one at 'Pintu Gerbang Kg Baru' or the inconsistent-standard near Uniten. They took some pics of the bridge (Jambatan Wawasan), Istana Darul Ehsan, Perdana Putra Building and Ministry of Finance. Eric looked exceptionally happy, smiling and showing his teeth, which tells me that he had a very wonderful nite. Btw, our usual plan to have Baskin-Robbins every 31st of the month (31% off on every 31st of the month) has to be cancelled.
Went to Sri Petaling again to hitch a ride with Hard and Fairy, and off to Plaza Ampang for a karaoke session. Ajip was already there, and Teddy, Cipan and fren, Mike and Shah, and JD came by later. Those who planned to sing a lot of songs decided to sit quietly after listening to Ajip and Fairy, including yours truly. Twas a free flow of songs incl Jangan Bersedih Lagi (Shah), Tekad (Teddy & Hard), Hanya Memuji (Ajip & Fairy), Episod Cinta Dari Bromley (Fairy's tribute to Kaer), Nirmala (Ajip), U Got It Bad (Teddy), Unchained Melody (Hard) and a lot more. But I did try a few verse from Barbara Streisand's Memory, inspired after the AF concert. Come to think of it, most songs were inspired by AF, with Fairy gave extra attention to Kaer's songs...
The five of us (Hard, Fairy, Ajip, JD, me) had dinner at Kg Baru, ordering quite a lot of things, while still complaining about yesterday's AF result. Ever the 'kipas susah-mati'. JD was back to his usual 2-words-per-hour mode. The karaoke and dinner was sponsored by Ajip (thx!), who looked none to happy with his new glasses, and planned for colorful contact lenses. Excuses? Definitely.... heheh
Monday, still listening to Barbara Streisand's Memory.
Saturday, had a haircut (coz I was planning to take some passport-sized photos) and went to cc at Bangi to chat with Harry. He gave a lot of pointers, and said that I could dump my stuff over at his place if I've no where to put 'em, and that'd be a lot. The cc is run by a family whose family members and friends are mostly chubs, including one twin chubs. It did cross my mind that i got there subconsciously thru the concentrated smell of fat. Like some say, the sense of smell is the most primitive sense and most developed of all our senses. Really?
Went to Sri Petaling at 8 and hitched a ride with Hard, Fairy and JD to watch Akademi Fantasia. Got there about 8.30, after a Subaru WRC drive featuring Hard, and co-piloted by Fairy. Such display of enthusiasm for Kaer made me feel touched. With a flick of his hair while waving his invincible pass a-la 'diva datang lambat', Fairy got us thru the gate. Picked our seats on forth row. The crowd was full, but disciplined and full of enthusiasm. Everyone seems to know everyone else in those front rows. I sat quietly, sandwiched between 2 chubs. Ahh....
The stage looked smaller than what I see on tv, and so did all the contestants. Aznil was hilarious, the show was ok, I like Kaer's Episod Cinta Dari Bromley but especially their final broadway-ish show Cats' Memory. Many gave them standing ovation, including Joe, Hard, and Fairy, and yeah, they very well deserved it. The result was revealed, and Zarina was out. There was shock, and anger. Not many cried, perhaps becoz they're more angry than sad. She's cool. I always thought of her as someone who'll be in the Top 5 final. Sounds like the Top 5 would be 'Nurul, Mas, Farah, Adam, Bob'... hahahahaha. Btw, I'm eagerly waiting for Bob to appear in full Nike attire on tv. Any chance of that happening?
Went to Kak Ara to have dinner. More complaints about the result. Everyone complaint to everyone else via sms "Why Zarina?". Joe was especially pissed, and now he'd be more considering Nikki of Malaysian Idol didn't pull thru. Btw, Happy Belated Birthday, Joe!
Left for Kelana Jaya, something we all haven't done for a very long time. The mood and surrounding do have an effect over everyone else; the feeling of thrill, suspense, diva-esque made people walk slowly, with a 'lenggang' and smile. JD suddenly had a barrage of questions to everyone, questions that I believe I've asked myself about 10-12 years ago. "Why did u become one? Are you happy? What type are you looking for? Is it all about sex? Do you choose this life? Do you want to change? Why and why not? Are you t/b/v?" And so on... To JD, pick your path carefully, young man. It'll be hard to turn back. Hard said I passed the scoring marks in answering JD's questions... Yeay! Btw, this para requires a lot explanation which I MIGHT do should I have the time later...
Sunday, Eric called and wanted me to tag along to show his friend around Putrajaya. Went to Souq to have 'Briyani Gam Batu Pahat', which is much better than the one at 'Pintu Gerbang Kg Baru' or the inconsistent-standard near Uniten. They took some pics of the bridge (Jambatan Wawasan), Istana Darul Ehsan, Perdana Putra Building and Ministry of Finance. Eric looked exceptionally happy, smiling and showing his teeth, which tells me that he had a very wonderful nite. Btw, our usual plan to have Baskin-Robbins every 31st of the month (31% off on every 31st of the month) has to be cancelled.
Went to Sri Petaling again to hitch a ride with Hard and Fairy, and off to Plaza Ampang for a karaoke session. Ajip was already there, and Teddy, Cipan and fren, Mike and Shah, and JD came by later. Those who planned to sing a lot of songs decided to sit quietly after listening to Ajip and Fairy, including yours truly. Twas a free flow of songs incl Jangan Bersedih Lagi (Shah), Tekad (Teddy & Hard), Hanya Memuji (Ajip & Fairy), Episod Cinta Dari Bromley (Fairy's tribute to Kaer), Nirmala (Ajip), U Got It Bad (Teddy), Unchained Melody (Hard) and a lot more. But I did try a few verse from Barbara Streisand's Memory, inspired after the AF concert. Come to think of it, most songs were inspired by AF, with Fairy gave extra attention to Kaer's songs...
The five of us (Hard, Fairy, Ajip, JD, me) had dinner at Kg Baru, ordering quite a lot of things, while still complaining about yesterday's AF result. Ever the 'kipas susah-mati'. JD was back to his usual 2-words-per-hour mode. The karaoke and dinner was sponsored by Ajip (thx!), who looked none to happy with his new glasses, and planned for colorful contact lenses. Excuses? Definitely.... heheh
Monday, still listening to Barbara Streisand's Memory.
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
...of starlight cinema and star signs
Friday, went out to Bkt Bintang at midnite (so, it's already Saturday). Saw legolas (no! no THAT legolas), zyf, eddibank and others. Supposed to meet Berudu earlier but he went out with his family to have steamboat dinner at Brickfields. Met him up at 'CC kat Kak Ara'. We were seated next to this couple, whose bf is kinda plump/stocky. Berudu deliberately browse the bearwww site, to indirectly signal his preference, knowing the bf would see them. Ahh!! A master at work... The bf giggled seeing the pics, especially those from Malaysia, and kept looking at us in a curious way. Before leaving the cc, in a pitch that would make Siti Sarah blush, Berudu said "Eeeeeee!! Ramai gak yg taste kat site ni kan? Tetambah yg pakai2 cap dan badan camtu!". The bf was still giggling when we left.
Went to Tasik after that, which was boring. Meaning there aren't any that's worth watching. Now I remembered why I don't go there anymore. Went home at 4am.
Got off work at 2.30pm. Had a short nap before heading to Ampang Point to meet Teddy at 5.30. We had 'lunner' (err, lunch & dinner?!) at Hock Choon Supermarket at Jln Ampang. Thought we're like the only Malays in the expat-frenzy supermarket. Potato queens take note!
Headed off in Teddy's car to Bukit Kiara for the LOTR Marathon while listening to Marcell - Semusim about 7 times and got there around 6.30. Wayyyyyy too many cars parked along the highway, which means we're too late to get good 'seats'. Picked a spot near the right fence. This time we came prepared with more rugs. The crowd was huge. Some wore pyjamas. Some brought shiny gold-and-diva-looking bean bags. Made last attempt to lure Hard and mylady Shalla (u prefer this name, pumpkin?) to come over after Akademi Fantasia concert. The weather was quite cold so I'm making my best attempt to get myself covered by as many chubs as possible to generate more heat and therefore might produce more endorphines which makes people happy and want world peace. Such a noble cause should be encouraged, aye?
Reza and Royal came later with more grubs and junk food. Yeay!! Fellowship started at 8pm, Two Towers started at 11.45pm (which I slept through almost the whole film) and Return of the King started at 3.30am. One of my favorite scenes: Arwen: "Nin o Chithaeglir lasto beth daer; Rimmo nin Bruinen dan in Ulaer! Nin o Chithaeglir lasto beth daer; Rimmo nin Bruinen dan in Ulaer!". Got news around 11pm that Anding was out. Er? Anding, who? Anyway, the show finished at 7am, where one can truly see 'wajah sebenar semua orang di waktu pagi'. Think orcs and goblins in the Moria caverns. Got home at 9am, and had another short nap.
Was asked to go for the King Arthur premiere by none other than the Queen Fairy himself. Dare I ignore his request? Though sometimes I do believe he does need a little bit of spanking once in a while... No particular reason for that but I think he needs it. Hahahhahaha... Ha!! Jgn sentap!!
Arrived again at Bukit Kiara about 7pm. Feeling surreal and sleepy as I was there about 12 hours ago. Was asleep 15mins after the movie started and was confused with the storyline and all. Kinda hard to 'retune' my perception of what I know about the King Arthur legend, especially since I only saw the last half hour of the movie. Picked up ShahRailway and had late supper at some unpopular but quite yummy stall in Kg Baru. Had a good laugh about some sms which took me 5 mins to understand that sounded something like "Ppl try benana big. Never try big benana before. Lie to pain me" or some shit like that. Direct translation? Ahhh... the popular ones usually get the attention, aye Hard? Or the popular ones usually want the similarly popular ones, aye Fairy?
The contractor installed the grill last nite, which took about 2 hrs. Now my place looks like a prison, or a dungeon. All I need now are whips, candle wax, handcuffs, gas masks and leather straps. Heh...
Hard, mylady Shalla and Ajip dropped by later, and we had late supper at mamak restaurant. Reading the post below, we could have crossed path with them fatbasty and friends along the way. Perhaps I suppose I didnt turn down my window low enough to hear Ted's voice screaming "Mana abang tadi tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. Diiiiiiiiiiiinch kannzzzzzzzzzzz?!?!?!?"
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Aku terpikir something aritu, aku bleh lepak dan borak2 about a lot of deep shit stuffs dgn byk Pisceans. Astrologically, kononnya aku dan Pisces bleh kawan rapat. Aku ni superstitious? Maybe...
Bagi seorang yg hampir tiap2 hari mengadap data, fakta dan polisi, yg kononnya byk gunakan bhgn belah kiri otak, aku rasa subconsiously aku gunakan right brain utk percaya wujudnya takdir, miracle, petanda dll. Somehow aku nak percaya wujudnya idea2 metafizik ni...
Antara kawan Pisces aku yg paling rapat ni si Harry. Dia takda kat sini skrg ni. Dia ingatkan aku macam ikan, yg mengikut arus (dia bukan ikan salmon), yg bebas, yg tak suka masalah, yg enjoy life, tapi perlukan seorg yg ada karakter yg kuat utk bagi dia reason utk membataskan diri; selain dari suka gi urut, atau kena pampered. Salah satu sikap yg aku perasan sgt mmg ada kat lagi 3-4 org Pisceans. Hahahahah...
So, adake aku mmg percaya benda tu, then aku cuba fit in apa2 description yg aku tau pada that character? Ataupun mmg certain individuals mmg behave according to their star constellation pattern which actually affect them masa diaorg lahir? Kalau aku pilih yg 1st, then aku dah buat satu deductive reasoning yg mungkin salah, yg memungkinkan aku menutup possibility2 lain yg timbul, which is aku cuba buat teori aku betul, in other words, aku bukan open minded. Very not CSI material. Hahahahha... Yg kedua? Kuasa2 graviti seluruh alam mmg bebetul boleh pengaruh hidup dan sikap org? Yg certain ppl are born to best hang out with certain ppl? Yg dekat2 sama teori dgn setgh org dilahirkan dgn gene 'leader' dan gene 'worker'? Then itu nanti against dgn idea aku yg being PLU tu nurtured, bukannya nature...
Cakap pasal bintang2 ni tetiba teringat lk dialog Ethan Hawke dgn Julie Delphi dlm citer Before Sunrise "we're only fragments of the universe, totally insigificant, but some shine more than others" or some shit like that (kalau salah tolong betulkan). A good quote for those diva-wannabes or diva-posers.
Cuaca harini gelap lagi. Tiap2 hari hujan, so sejuk le sikit. So mood lagu2 aku pun pada lagu2 mellow, 'dark', soul, trip hop, ambient. Asik auto repeat lagu2 ni je sesuai dengan keadaan cuaca semasa. Minggu ni takda mood dgr hip-hop atau r&b sangat. Takda dgr news pasal cd2 dari Bleubar macam Diana King, Noraniza Idris, Vengaboys, Chiki Girls, Aqua hilang/terbakar/tercurah asid/terpijak dgn high heels semasa pindah ke KL Plaza lagi, tapi masih ada masa, masih ada harapan.
Marcell - Semusim
Andien - Tentang Aku
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Ku Melepasmu
Reza - Cintakan Membawamu Kembali
Lingua - Bila Ku Ingat
Mandalay - Beautiful
Hed Kandi - campur2 dari siri Winter Chill...
Cafe del Mar - campur2...
Portishead - Sour Times
Telepopmusik - Breathe
Enigma - campur2 tapi asik repeat Carly's Song yg dlm citer Sliver tu
Shirley Bassey - Never Never Never
Brenda Russell - Piano in the Dark, Get Here
Oleta Adams - Get Here
Chaka Khan - My Funny Valentine
Mary J Blige - Not Gon' Cry
Sadao Watanabe - Any Other Fool
Jill Scott - He Loves Me
Stylistics - You Make Me Feel Brand New
Barry White - Just The Way You Are
Depressed betul list2 lagu2 ni. Metafor? Tiap2 lagu ni byk meaning yg tersirat, kalu baca title pun dah tau kot. So, adake sebenarnya otak aku subconsciously nak dgr lirik2 tu utk convey feeling aku yg sebenar tapi consciously buat aku percaya aku nak dgr lagu2 tu pasal cuaca skrg ni asik gelap? Hahahhaha.... psychonyer....
Went to Tasik after that, which was boring. Meaning there aren't any that's worth watching. Now I remembered why I don't go there anymore. Went home at 4am.
Got off work at 2.30pm. Had a short nap before heading to Ampang Point to meet Teddy at 5.30. We had 'lunner' (err, lunch & dinner?!) at Hock Choon Supermarket at Jln Ampang. Thought we're like the only Malays in the expat-frenzy supermarket. Potato queens take note!
Headed off in Teddy's car to Bukit Kiara for the LOTR Marathon while listening to Marcell - Semusim about 7 times and got there around 6.30. Wayyyyyy too many cars parked along the highway, which means we're too late to get good 'seats'. Picked a spot near the right fence. This time we came prepared with more rugs. The crowd was huge. Some wore pyjamas. Some brought shiny gold-and-diva-looking bean bags. Made last attempt to lure Hard and mylady Shalla (u prefer this name, pumpkin?) to come over after Akademi Fantasia concert. The weather was quite cold so I'm making my best attempt to get myself covered by as many chubs as possible to generate more heat and therefore might produce more endorphines which makes people happy and want world peace. Such a noble cause should be encouraged, aye?
Reza and Royal came later with more grubs and junk food. Yeay!! Fellowship started at 8pm, Two Towers started at 11.45pm (which I slept through almost the whole film) and Return of the King started at 3.30am. One of my favorite scenes: Arwen: "Nin o Chithaeglir lasto beth daer; Rimmo nin Bruinen dan in Ulaer! Nin o Chithaeglir lasto beth daer; Rimmo nin Bruinen dan in Ulaer!". Got news around 11pm that Anding was out. Er? Anding, who? Anyway, the show finished at 7am, where one can truly see 'wajah sebenar semua orang di waktu pagi'. Think orcs and goblins in the Moria caverns. Got home at 9am, and had another short nap.
Was asked to go for the King Arthur premiere by none other than the Queen Fairy himself. Dare I ignore his request? Though sometimes I do believe he does need a little bit of spanking once in a while... No particular reason for that but I think he needs it. Hahahhahaha... Ha!! Jgn sentap!!
Arrived again at Bukit Kiara about 7pm. Feeling surreal and sleepy as I was there about 12 hours ago. Was asleep 15mins after the movie started and was confused with the storyline and all. Kinda hard to 'retune' my perception of what I know about the King Arthur legend, especially since I only saw the last half hour of the movie. Picked up ShahRailway and had late supper at some unpopular but quite yummy stall in Kg Baru. Had a good laugh about some sms which took me 5 mins to understand that sounded something like "Ppl try benana big. Never try big benana before. Lie to pain me" or some shit like that. Direct translation? Ahhh... the popular ones usually get the attention, aye Hard? Or the popular ones usually want the similarly popular ones, aye Fairy?
The contractor installed the grill last nite, which took about 2 hrs. Now my place looks like a prison, or a dungeon. All I need now are whips, candle wax, handcuffs, gas masks and leather straps. Heh...
Hard, mylady Shalla and Ajip dropped by later, and we had late supper at mamak restaurant. Reading the post below, we could have crossed path with them fatbasty and friends along the way. Perhaps I suppose I didnt turn down my window low enough to hear Ted's voice screaming "Mana abang tadi tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. Diiiiiiiiiiiinch kannzzzzzzzzzzz?!?!?!?"
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Aku terpikir something aritu, aku bleh lepak dan borak2 about a lot of deep shit stuffs dgn byk Pisceans. Astrologically, kononnya aku dan Pisces bleh kawan rapat. Aku ni superstitious? Maybe...
Bagi seorang yg hampir tiap2 hari mengadap data, fakta dan polisi, yg kononnya byk gunakan bhgn belah kiri otak, aku rasa subconsiously aku gunakan right brain utk percaya wujudnya takdir, miracle, petanda dll. Somehow aku nak percaya wujudnya idea2 metafizik ni...
Antara kawan Pisces aku yg paling rapat ni si Harry. Dia takda kat sini skrg ni. Dia ingatkan aku macam ikan, yg mengikut arus (dia bukan ikan salmon), yg bebas, yg tak suka masalah, yg enjoy life, tapi perlukan seorg yg ada karakter yg kuat utk bagi dia reason utk membataskan diri; selain dari suka gi urut, atau kena pampered. Salah satu sikap yg aku perasan sgt mmg ada kat lagi 3-4 org Pisceans. Hahahahah...
So, adake aku mmg percaya benda tu, then aku cuba fit in apa2 description yg aku tau pada that character? Ataupun mmg certain individuals mmg behave according to their star constellation pattern which actually affect them masa diaorg lahir? Kalau aku pilih yg 1st, then aku dah buat satu deductive reasoning yg mungkin salah, yg memungkinkan aku menutup possibility2 lain yg timbul, which is aku cuba buat teori aku betul, in other words, aku bukan open minded. Very not CSI material. Hahahahha... Yg kedua? Kuasa2 graviti seluruh alam mmg bebetul boleh pengaruh hidup dan sikap org? Yg certain ppl are born to best hang out with certain ppl? Yg dekat2 sama teori dgn setgh org dilahirkan dgn gene 'leader' dan gene 'worker'? Then itu nanti against dgn idea aku yg being PLU tu nurtured, bukannya nature...
Cakap pasal bintang2 ni tetiba teringat lk dialog Ethan Hawke dgn Julie Delphi dlm citer Before Sunrise "we're only fragments of the universe, totally insigificant, but some shine more than others" or some shit like that (kalau salah tolong betulkan). A good quote for those diva-wannabes or diva-posers.
Cuaca harini gelap lagi. Tiap2 hari hujan, so sejuk le sikit. So mood lagu2 aku pun pada lagu2 mellow, 'dark', soul, trip hop, ambient. Asik auto repeat lagu2 ni je sesuai dengan keadaan cuaca semasa. Minggu ni takda mood dgr hip-hop atau r&b sangat. Takda dgr news pasal cd2 dari Bleubar macam Diana King, Noraniza Idris, Vengaboys, Chiki Girls, Aqua hilang/terbakar/tercurah asid/terpijak dgn high heels semasa pindah ke KL Plaza lagi, tapi masih ada masa, masih ada harapan.
Marcell - Semusim
Andien - Tentang Aku
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Ku Melepasmu
Reza - Cintakan Membawamu Kembali
Lingua - Bila Ku Ingat
Mandalay - Beautiful
Hed Kandi - campur2 dari siri Winter Chill...
Cafe del Mar - campur2...
Portishead - Sour Times
Telepopmusik - Breathe
Enigma - campur2 tapi asik repeat Carly's Song yg dlm citer Sliver tu
Shirley Bassey - Never Never Never
Brenda Russell - Piano in the Dark, Get Here
Oleta Adams - Get Here
Chaka Khan - My Funny Valentine
Mary J Blige - Not Gon' Cry
Sadao Watanabe - Any Other Fool
Jill Scott - He Loves Me
Stylistics - You Make Me Feel Brand New
Barry White - Just The Way You Are
Depressed betul list2 lagu2 ni. Metafor? Tiap2 lagu ni byk meaning yg tersirat, kalu baca title pun dah tau kot. So, adake sebenarnya otak aku subconsciously nak dgr lirik2 tu utk convey feeling aku yg sebenar tapi consciously buat aku percaya aku nak dgr lagu2 tu pasal cuaca skrg ni asik gelap? Hahahhaha.... psychonyer....
Monday, July 05, 2004
Idol & 4th of July
Idol aku dah mati haritu, si Marlon Brando. Aku takla tengok semua movie dia, pasal yg buat aku idolise dia pun pasal karakter dia dalam cerita The Godfather. Padahal cerita tu dah lama, tahun 1972, setahun lepas aku lahir (selain dari lahir dalam tahun 1973, aku juga mempunyai berat 76kg dan tinggi 174cm, suka lagu2 house, ambient, r&b, Madonna, Soul II Soul, suka cerita2 fantasi, sci-fi, anime Jepun, beruang2 Melayu yang boleh berbual pasal apa2 aja).
Aku tengok cerita tu pun kira baru le jugak. Cerita tu buat aku ada belief system yang baru, that anything's possible if you work for it. Aku terpengaruh dengan karakter si Don Vito Corleone, seorang yang agak soft spoken, berbadan kecil tapi ada karisma dan mampu mengawal keluarga2 di New York. Aku cuba ambil dari sudut positif dari cerita tu. Makin lama Marlon Brando makin gemuk, makin taste. Kononnya dia pernah ada hubungan sekejap dengan James Dean dan Paul Newman. Ntah betul ke tak... Aku taktau kenapa aku suka dia. Pasal dia Italian? Pasal dia chub? Pasal dia kemas? Pasal dia ada karisma dan personaliti? Someone yg subtle and stylish. Someone who leave something for thoughts. Yeah, brains are sexy...
Makin lama makin banyak chub kat KL ni. Itu belum termasuk dari cerita2 yg aku dengar dari mereka2 yg selalu pergi ke Brickfields. Jumaat ke Bleu. Ada dekat 20 org aja. Bosan sesgt. Ada heat karaoke competition, so masih heat lagi. Berudu dapat nombor telefon baru, which means dia akan senyap tetiba utk seminggu dua.
Sabtu, lepak makan2 kat Kak Ara jap dgn Joe, Hard, Fairyhard, Berudu, Ted, Biggie. Sempat gak berbual pasal Akademi Fantasia, dan kebanyakkannya suka Fitri terkeluar. Pastu pegi Bleu lagi. Ada beratus2 org pulak kot. Agaknya semua nak merasa 'last call at Rohas Perkasa' kot. Rasa macam surreal, tmpt yg sama tapi org terlalu ramai. Ada Tyco, Abg Ram dan kawan2 dia. Ada Eyun dan Zairy. Ada Aalimin, Usmang, Adflin dan e-Chub. Ada AdamJohan. Ada GemukChub. Dan ada 6-7 org chub lagi yg aku tak kenal. Pastu lepak belakang Warp, dlm pukul 4.30pg dgn Hard, Fairyhard dan Berudu. Ada scene gaduh2 a-la KL Menjerit (ada mat rempit) campur Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam (takda terbang2 tapi keliling tu ada set design kayu2 macam dlm filem tu) campur The Young and Dangerous (err.. kongsi gelap?).
Dengarnya lepas ni Bleubar akan pindah ke tmpt lain. Bagusla. Dan harap2 masa proses pindah tu diaorg terhilang/terpatah/terbakar/terpijak cd2 lagu Noraniza Idris, remix Jamal & Sarah - Sandarkan Pada Kenangan, remix Waheeda - Wassini, Shanty & Marcell - Hanya Memuji, Aqua - Barbie Girl, Chiki Girls, Vengaboys, Diana King - Shy Guy, Britney & Madonna - Me Against The Music (Rishi Rish Remix) dan juga cd2 boy bands. Wishful thinking...
Smlm ke Bangsar dgn Hard, Fairyhard dan Cipan utk jumpa bebudak lain. Maklumlah smlm kan Fourth of July. Diaorg tak jadi mandi kolam, sebab hujan agak lebat, so adala dekat 23 orang duduk2 di ruang tamu rumah sambil makan macaroni, Kentaki, nuggets, drummets twisties, chikadees, sambil tgk Diari Akademi Fantasia. Ironinya, soft drink dia lagi byk pilihan dari kat Bleubar. Ada BobSani, GemukChub, Peeky n partner(?), Adflin, e-Chub, wolverine7, Sham Alam n partner, AJ n frens, AcukFrance n frens, sun_way, nix_31, dzeng dll. Bau2 lemak agak kuat di dalam rumah tu, mungkin satu kelemahan (atau kelebihan) ventilation system rumah2 di kwsn Bangsar. It was a very laidback and simple gathering, tapi ada jugak yg panik bila time kena intro diri.
Makan lagi dgn Hard ngan Cipan kat KLCC. Dia shopping perfume. Balik kul 9.30 lepas aku terlepas beli sushi murah kat Isetan.
Aku tengok cerita tu pun kira baru le jugak. Cerita tu buat aku ada belief system yang baru, that anything's possible if you work for it. Aku terpengaruh dengan karakter si Don Vito Corleone, seorang yang agak soft spoken, berbadan kecil tapi ada karisma dan mampu mengawal keluarga2 di New York. Aku cuba ambil dari sudut positif dari cerita tu. Makin lama Marlon Brando makin gemuk, makin taste. Kononnya dia pernah ada hubungan sekejap dengan James Dean dan Paul Newman. Ntah betul ke tak... Aku taktau kenapa aku suka dia. Pasal dia Italian? Pasal dia chub? Pasal dia kemas? Pasal dia ada karisma dan personaliti? Someone yg subtle and stylish. Someone who leave something for thoughts. Yeah, brains are sexy...
Makin lama makin banyak chub kat KL ni. Itu belum termasuk dari cerita2 yg aku dengar dari mereka2 yg selalu pergi ke Brickfields. Jumaat ke Bleu. Ada dekat 20 org aja. Bosan sesgt. Ada heat karaoke competition, so masih heat lagi. Berudu dapat nombor telefon baru, which means dia akan senyap tetiba utk seminggu dua.
Sabtu, lepak makan2 kat Kak Ara jap dgn Joe, Hard, Fairyhard, Berudu, Ted, Biggie. Sempat gak berbual pasal Akademi Fantasia, dan kebanyakkannya suka Fitri terkeluar. Pastu pegi Bleu lagi. Ada beratus2 org pulak kot. Agaknya semua nak merasa 'last call at Rohas Perkasa' kot. Rasa macam surreal, tmpt yg sama tapi org terlalu ramai. Ada Tyco, Abg Ram dan kawan2 dia. Ada Eyun dan Zairy. Ada Aalimin, Usmang, Adflin dan e-Chub. Ada AdamJohan. Ada GemukChub. Dan ada 6-7 org chub lagi yg aku tak kenal. Pastu lepak belakang Warp, dlm pukul 4.30pg dgn Hard, Fairyhard dan Berudu. Ada scene gaduh2 a-la KL Menjerit (ada mat rempit) campur Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam (takda terbang2 tapi keliling tu ada set design kayu2 macam dlm filem tu) campur The Young and Dangerous (err.. kongsi gelap?).
Dengarnya lepas ni Bleubar akan pindah ke tmpt lain. Bagusla. Dan harap2 masa proses pindah tu diaorg terhilang/terpatah/terbakar/terpijak cd2 lagu Noraniza Idris, remix Jamal & Sarah - Sandarkan Pada Kenangan, remix Waheeda - Wassini, Shanty & Marcell - Hanya Memuji, Aqua - Barbie Girl, Chiki Girls, Vengaboys, Diana King - Shy Guy, Britney & Madonna - Me Against The Music (Rishi Rish Remix) dan juga cd2 boy bands. Wishful thinking...
Smlm ke Bangsar dgn Hard, Fairyhard dan Cipan utk jumpa bebudak lain. Maklumlah smlm kan Fourth of July. Diaorg tak jadi mandi kolam, sebab hujan agak lebat, so adala dekat 23 orang duduk2 di ruang tamu rumah sambil makan macaroni, Kentaki, nuggets, drummets twisties, chikadees, sambil tgk Diari Akademi Fantasia. Ironinya, soft drink dia lagi byk pilihan dari kat Bleubar. Ada BobSani, GemukChub, Peeky n partner(?), Adflin, e-Chub, wolverine7, Sham Alam n partner, AJ n frens, AcukFrance n frens, sun_way, nix_31, dzeng dll. Bau2 lemak agak kuat di dalam rumah tu, mungkin satu kelemahan (atau kelebihan) ventilation system rumah2 di kwsn Bangsar. It was a very laidback and simple gathering, tapi ada jugak yg panik bila time kena intro diri.
Makan lagi dgn Hard ngan Cipan kat KLCC. Dia shopping perfume. Balik kul 9.30 lepas aku terlepas beli sushi murah kat Isetan.
Friday, June 25, 2004
im in such a bad luck
lately
in the mychub chats i think most of u has seen it
its abit stupid but theres a guy who pops in the chat and floods the chat with nasty words bout me and curses and crap... i dont know who the guy is nor what i did to him
and even worst lately
rumours or words saying that my bf has HIV and i have it too
now that really pains me ... i wanna know what did i do to these ppl that i deserve such torture? i mean specially spreading the rumour part ... i dont think thats really nice of u
if anyone has any problems or ideas with me jsut tell me im free to talk bout it if u hate me then tell me what i did maybe i can apologise or something cause i dont know what i talk bout sometiems that might hurt someones feelings... sure im an openminded guy and i talk lots of crap but plz dont mind me im all here for the fun of it
and bout the HIV rumour thing ... nah i dont have aids if anyone wants to verify it u can just go do a blood check with me at the clinc or hospital but u must pay the expenses ... its really scary to have ppl think u have aids ... specially my bf who has nothing to do with this and he gets the blame ... and ppl say my bf is from kedah when actually my bf is from kepong ..... ARGH The stupidity is so much to bare... so plz everyone who is reading this ... spare me the trouble cause i am having alot of family problems to deal with already
hugs
peeky
in the mychub chats i think most of u has seen it
its abit stupid but theres a guy who pops in the chat and floods the chat with nasty words bout me and curses and crap... i dont know who the guy is nor what i did to him
and even worst lately
rumours or words saying that my bf has HIV and i have it too
now that really pains me ... i wanna know what did i do to these ppl that i deserve such torture? i mean specially spreading the rumour part ... i dont think thats really nice of u
if anyone has any problems or ideas with me jsut tell me im free to talk bout it if u hate me then tell me what i did maybe i can apologise or something cause i dont know what i talk bout sometiems that might hurt someones feelings... sure im an openminded guy and i talk lots of crap but plz dont mind me im all here for the fun of it
and bout the HIV rumour thing ... nah i dont have aids if anyone wants to verify it u can just go do a blood check with me at the clinc or hospital but u must pay the expenses ... its really scary to have ppl think u have aids ... specially my bf who has nothing to do with this and he gets the blame ... and ppl say my bf is from kedah when actually my bf is from kepong ..... ARGH The stupidity is so much to bare... so plz everyone who is reading this ... spare me the trouble cause i am having alot of family problems to deal with already
hugs
peeky
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
...bosan lagi...
Wed 23rd June 2004
Lunch break. Had late dinner/supper with Hard, Fairyhad, Sharil at Kirana last nite from 11pm to 3am. The first 2 hours were dedicated to comments on Akademi Fantasia especially on Kaer, Zahid, Kaer, Mas, Kaer, Kaer and Kaer. Fairyhad was pissed coz he received messages from unknown people who gave nasty comments regarding some displayed pic. Ironic, coz he's now the 'hunted material' instead of the usual 'hunter', and like I said to him, he didn't handle this calmly. There is a GOD....
We talked about a lot of deep shit stuffs which I haven't done for quite a long time, coz my usual bosom buddies are now spread all over. A trip was suggested, preferably JB or Colmar. I dunno... I dont really connect with JB, though there lives a fine looking furry gentle bear. And I dont happen to have lots of fat to protect myself from the cold breeze on the mountain top at Bukit Tinggi, which means that I should get myself snuggled in between some furry cuddly chubs. Bwahahahahaha (evil laugh!)!!!
Went to Bleu last Friday with Berudu, met Hard, Fairyhad, Cipan and Ajeep there. Met also Tyco, Abg Ram, and a couple from Brunei. Cutesy... Bleu is still Bleu, with songs to die for, literally. Hanged out till 4am before heading to Kg Baru for an early breakfast. Reached Bangi at about 6 to send off Berudu, too tired to drive back and stayed to listen to old songs.
Saturday, slept bout half an hour at Berudu's place before heading back home for a meeting at 9am. Been selected to be the Tim Pengerusi, possibly the easiest post existed. Went to sleep finally at 1pm till 6pm, before heading off to Bangi for late lunch. Watched Akademi Fantasia and impressed with Bob, Kaer (have been trying to find the songs on the Net but couldn't find them. Anyone?). Met Hard, Fairyhad, Ajeep, Cipan, Sharil, JD, Joe Hanj, MukriezChub, Shish at Restoran Color Bistro. Stayed there from 11pm till 3.30am. Went home.
Sunday, did nothing at home except sleep till 7pm. Went to have dinner with Teddy at Nasi Ayam Bukit Bintang. Not too many people around, perhaps it's becoz it's in the middle of the month. Went to Starbux to chat for short while and went home at 11.
Monday, went for an interview at 10. Felt I totally fucked up.
Oh well...
Chub sightings: ****
Lunch break. Had late dinner/supper with Hard, Fairyhad, Sharil at Kirana last nite from 11pm to 3am. The first 2 hours were dedicated to comments on Akademi Fantasia especially on Kaer, Zahid, Kaer, Mas, Kaer, Kaer and Kaer. Fairyhad was pissed coz he received messages from unknown people who gave nasty comments regarding some displayed pic. Ironic, coz he's now the 'hunted material' instead of the usual 'hunter', and like I said to him, he didn't handle this calmly. There is a GOD....
We talked about a lot of deep shit stuffs which I haven't done for quite a long time, coz my usual bosom buddies are now spread all over. A trip was suggested, preferably JB or Colmar. I dunno... I dont really connect with JB, though there lives a fine looking furry gentle bear. And I dont happen to have lots of fat to protect myself from the cold breeze on the mountain top at Bukit Tinggi, which means that I should get myself snuggled in between some furry cuddly chubs. Bwahahahahaha (evil laugh!)!!!
Went to Bleu last Friday with Berudu, met Hard, Fairyhad, Cipan and Ajeep there. Met also Tyco, Abg Ram, and a couple from Brunei. Cutesy... Bleu is still Bleu, with songs to die for, literally. Hanged out till 4am before heading to Kg Baru for an early breakfast. Reached Bangi at about 6 to send off Berudu, too tired to drive back and stayed to listen to old songs.
Saturday, slept bout half an hour at Berudu's place before heading back home for a meeting at 9am. Been selected to be the Tim Pengerusi, possibly the easiest post existed. Went to sleep finally at 1pm till 6pm, before heading off to Bangi for late lunch. Watched Akademi Fantasia and impressed with Bob, Kaer (have been trying to find the songs on the Net but couldn't find them. Anyone?). Met Hard, Fairyhad, Ajeep, Cipan, Sharil, JD, Joe Hanj, MukriezChub, Shish at Restoran Color Bistro. Stayed there from 11pm till 3.30am. Went home.
Sunday, did nothing at home except sleep till 7pm. Went to have dinner with Teddy at Nasi Ayam Bukit Bintang. Not too many people around, perhaps it's becoz it's in the middle of the month. Went to Starbux to chat for short while and went home at 11.
Monday, went for an interview at 10. Felt I totally fucked up.
Oh well...
Chub sightings: ****
Thursday, June 10, 2004
...How to lose your weight in a fun way
I got this from the internet. I've no idea whether this is true or not. Perhaps someone who has already started this program would like to enlighten me? Heheheheh. However, I'm guessing that this article is something out of 'Weekly World News' or 'Mingguan Misteri'...
Playlist these few weeks:
Goapele - Closer, Back To You
Marcell - Semusim, Pertama Kali
Siti Nurhaliza nyanyi lagu Dewa (live) - Cintakan Membawamu Kembali, Takkan Ada Cinta Yang Lain
George Michael - Amazing (Full Intention Club Mix)
Shanty - Takkan Habis, Persembahan Dari Hati
Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
Usher - Burn, You Got It Bad (feels like listening to it after watching Sweetest Thing on Astro)
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Wanking your way to weight loss
By Masuo Kamiyama
Contributing Writer
June 7, 2004
My gosh, nearly six months have gone by since the year-end party season, but you haven't done anything to trim off those excess pounds. As a result, your belt is running out of notches and your bottom is starting to sag over the edge of chairs at the restaurants where you stuff your face.
It's time, Dr. Hideo Yamanaka tells Weekly Playboy (June 15), for guys to start doing something about it. Yamanaka, director of the Toranomon-Hibiya Clinic, offers a weight reduction that he's convinced guarantees results.
Follow his "masturbation diet" regimen, and you'll soon be able to squeeze back into those hip-hugging jeans and impressing the gals with your svelte figure.
"Ejaculation raises the basic metabolism of muscles and consumes calories," the doctor says. "With fewer calories, subcutaneous fat is consumed, and making it easier to trim down.
"But," the doctor goes on, "there's no point in ordinary activity. An ordinary young person would have to do it 100 more times a month for it to have any effect."
Gosh, says Weekly Playboy. That's three times a day he's talking about.
"Actully more like four or five, if you're really serious," remarks Yamauchi. "For each 2 kilos of body weight, you'd need to squeeze out 2 liters of semen."
Gomesu Yamada, a journalist covering the pink trade, wags his head in agreement.
"It's hard enough just to spurt so often, but to get the full benefits of aerobic exercise, it's necessary for the process to be maintained for at least 15 minutes before ejaculation occurs. We have named this activity 'Onani-bics.' "
"Onani" a common Japanese term for masturbation refers to Onan, the Biblical figure who was destroyed for "spilling his seed on the ground."
Gomesu claims he has knowledge of people who have actually managed to slim down through a regular regimen of Onanibics.
"Guys who made their motto, 'At least one good tug a day' have managed to lose as much as 4 kilograms in a week," he grins.
Rather than indulge in boring generalizations, Weekly Playboy then lists the average pulse rates and calories consumed while combining masturbation with various forms of exercise. "Abdominal muscle onanism" (sit-ups), for example, if performed for 15 minutes, will consume 61 kilocalories; "back strength onanism" (reverse sit ups), just 22 kilocalories; push-ups, 95 kilocalories; deep knee squats, 89 kilocalories; pole climbing, 72 kilocalories; and so-called "Ona-hole jogging" (an activity obviously not for beginners), 204 kilocalories.
A tubby 55-year-old writer named Koyamamyama, who tips the scales at 100 kilograms, had an even better idea. Deciding he might as well have some fun in the process, he headed for red-light districts around he capital. First he dropped in at a porno video parlor in Shinjuku, where DVDs (and hand play) can be enjoyed in private viewing rooms (cost: 1,300 yen). His next stop was a peep show, where, again in a private cubicle, he could watch a young nude girl feign her own efforts at, er, weight reduction (admission: 2,000 yen). This was followed by a visit to an "image club," where the climax of the session included a climax (5,000 yen). After several other workout sessions in Ikebukuro and Ueno, he ended his session at a "roshutsu kurabu" (exposure club) in Shibuya, where, for a layout of 15,000 yen, a young lady joined him in a private cubicle, disrobed, and energetically masturbated herself to orgasm --- while he did the same.
These efforts during a total of four hours of sexual activities came to 43,800 yen, consumption tax included. Did they help? Slightly. Koyamamyama's weight declined from 104.2 kilograms to 102.6. His muscle-to-fat ratio improved from 31.2 percent to 31.8; and his overall body fat ratio fell 0.8 percent.
Well then, guys, how about it, exhorts Weekly Playboy. If you want to get in shape for this summer, then let's give it a good tug! Make that several tugs!
Playlist these few weeks:
Goapele - Closer, Back To You
Marcell - Semusim, Pertama Kali
Siti Nurhaliza nyanyi lagu Dewa (live) - Cintakan Membawamu Kembali, Takkan Ada Cinta Yang Lain
George Michael - Amazing (Full Intention Club Mix)
Shanty - Takkan Habis, Persembahan Dari Hati
Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
Usher - Burn, You Got It Bad (feels like listening to it after watching Sweetest Thing on Astro)
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Wanking your way to weight loss
By Masuo Kamiyama
Contributing Writer
June 7, 2004
My gosh, nearly six months have gone by since the year-end party season, but you haven't done anything to trim off those excess pounds. As a result, your belt is running out of notches and your bottom is starting to sag over the edge of chairs at the restaurants where you stuff your face.
It's time, Dr. Hideo Yamanaka tells Weekly Playboy (June 15), for guys to start doing something about it. Yamanaka, director of the Toranomon-Hibiya Clinic, offers a weight reduction that he's convinced guarantees results.
Follow his "masturbation diet" regimen, and you'll soon be able to squeeze back into those hip-hugging jeans and impressing the gals with your svelte figure.
"Ejaculation raises the basic metabolism of muscles and consumes calories," the doctor says. "With fewer calories, subcutaneous fat is consumed, and making it easier to trim down.
"But," the doctor goes on, "there's no point in ordinary activity. An ordinary young person would have to do it 100 more times a month for it to have any effect."
Gosh, says Weekly Playboy. That's three times a day he's talking about.
"Actully more like four or five, if you're really serious," remarks Yamauchi. "For each 2 kilos of body weight, you'd need to squeeze out 2 liters of semen."
Gomesu Yamada, a journalist covering the pink trade, wags his head in agreement.
"It's hard enough just to spurt so often, but to get the full benefits of aerobic exercise, it's necessary for the process to be maintained for at least 15 minutes before ejaculation occurs. We have named this activity 'Onani-bics.' "
"Onani" a common Japanese term for masturbation refers to Onan, the Biblical figure who was destroyed for "spilling his seed on the ground."
Gomesu claims he has knowledge of people who have actually managed to slim down through a regular regimen of Onanibics.
"Guys who made their motto, 'At least one good tug a day' have managed to lose as much as 4 kilograms in a week," he grins.
Rather than indulge in boring generalizations, Weekly Playboy then lists the average pulse rates and calories consumed while combining masturbation with various forms of exercise. "Abdominal muscle onanism" (sit-ups), for example, if performed for 15 minutes, will consume 61 kilocalories; "back strength onanism" (reverse sit ups), just 22 kilocalories; push-ups, 95 kilocalories; deep knee squats, 89 kilocalories; pole climbing, 72 kilocalories; and so-called "Ona-hole jogging" (an activity obviously not for beginners), 204 kilocalories.
A tubby 55-year-old writer named Koyamamyama, who tips the scales at 100 kilograms, had an even better idea. Deciding he might as well have some fun in the process, he headed for red-light districts around he capital. First he dropped in at a porno video parlor in Shinjuku, where DVDs (and hand play) can be enjoyed in private viewing rooms (cost: 1,300 yen). His next stop was a peep show, where, again in a private cubicle, he could watch a young nude girl feign her own efforts at, er, weight reduction (admission: 2,000 yen). This was followed by a visit to an "image club," where the climax of the session included a climax (5,000 yen). After several other workout sessions in Ikebukuro and Ueno, he ended his session at a "roshutsu kurabu" (exposure club) in Shibuya, where, for a layout of 15,000 yen, a young lady joined him in a private cubicle, disrobed, and energetically masturbated herself to orgasm --- while he did the same.
These efforts during a total of four hours of sexual activities came to 43,800 yen, consumption tax included. Did they help? Slightly. Koyamamyama's weight declined from 104.2 kilograms to 102.6. His muscle-to-fat ratio improved from 31.2 percent to 31.8; and his overall body fat ratio fell 0.8 percent.
Well then, guys, how about it, exhorts Weekly Playboy. If you want to get in shape for this summer, then let's give it a good tug! Make that several tugs!
Monday, May 31, 2004
Blog Photo System
A Chub Picture taken at KLIA.. Is he cute or what ?
Well.. this a just a test for the new photo blog system. So if you got any new chub photos you wanna share, you can post it here. Anyway, I'll be updating more pictures once I get back from my vacation in Sabah.
Monday, May 17, 2004
long diary... bored on Monday
14th May
Went to see Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam at KLCC with Harry, Hisham, Berudu, Shook and his new friend. Sundal betul movie tu. Had big expectations before watching the movie. "Ini cerita pontianak pertama selepas 30 tahun!" "Cerita ni gunakan banyak special effects!". Duhhhhhhh! Oh well, Maya Karin was very pretty though. And Berudu nearly jumped off his seat when he saw the scene with the chub-in-a-sarong who nearly got bitten by the Pontianak(Eng: Vampiress) from Madura.
15th May
Went to the workshop to get lubrication service and my car's timing belt changed. Was charged RM345. Damn!! There goes my stress relieving massage sessions. After that I went to Yow Chuan Plaza around 5.30pm to meet up with Hard, Ajeep, Ferhad and Teddy for a karaoke session. Stayed about 3 1/2 hours in there singing everything from Simply Red to Siti Nurhaliza. Teddy, who was pretty uncomfortable and shy at first, sang his heart out when he belted 'Anuar Zain - Jangan Bersedih Lagi' and 'Usher - U Got It Bad'. The karaoke theme that night might've been "You hurt me you f**king asshole, hear me cry!".
Went to Suzy's Corner at about 9pm at Jalan Ampang for dinner. The crowd was certainly for them c4s's eye-candy. Food was so-so. Service sucked. Cipan joined us later. They talked about a lot of Malaysian artists which I've no idea about, or know what they look like. I just listened. Hard tried to guess my preference as he pointed to everyone in the cafe whose BMI is over 28 and asked "Yang tu okay?". To which I replied "Susah nak cakapla... diaorg kena ada brain... hahahahah". Dari body naik ke otak then turun ke hati...
Went to Starbucks, KL Plaza at about 11pm for more gourmet coffee. Teddy went home to freshen up coz he's going to Bleu with Harry. I sat and quietly chatted with them as I know my intention to go there was not to oogle at people I could never get. Not that there weren't any chubs there. A pity no one brought their laptops as the Wi-fi speed is pretty fast.
The five of us hanged out there about an hour before moving on to 'Restoran Colour' or something... that cafe that's next to BB. Not many chubs there. Eyun and Zairy joined later at about 2am. They came back from RH's place in Ampang. Sat around till about 4am before they all went home.
Went to Taman Midah to meet up with Teddy and Harry to have breakfast. That was around 4.15am. They bitched about Bleubar's song selection (yeah, like what else is new!?) but complimented Glitters-dot-com's show. Apparently Kak Ju did another scary but hillarious 'hantu' show, that instead of throwing a doll at the others at the end of the song, she threw herself. Go figure...
We all went home at around 6am. Definitely a long day for me.
16th May
Woke up at around 3pm. I really love weekends. Eric called and wanted to come over for a drink around the lake. Had a chocolate with hazelnut syrup at San Francisco Coffee. Again, we like the surroundings and the view, and the intention to go there was not to oogle at people we could never get. He had Mocha Frappe and a plate of Chicken Rice. Very very nice people. I like chubs who're well dressed, enjoy life, clean cut, could talk about anything under the sun.. the likes. Hmm, despite what anyone might say, but 'first impression DOES count'.
We headed off to Briyani Gam Batu Pahat for dinner. Left at 9pm for another working dinner with officemates. Had home-cooked Japanese friend rice, tempura and sushi. Discussion ended at about 11.30pm. Went to Concorde Hotel, KL to have late supper buffet with Harry. Too many people, including a group of loud students or factory workers who're probably extending celebrating their annual dinner. But there're some nice dapper looking chubs around. Harry's having everything Asian while I opted only for a plate of Apple Pie a-la mode. I really ate too much today.
Was sick of listening to hip hop since it's played like 24 hours on MTV and Channel V. A friend who came back from Jakarta bought some CDs which I've been playing for the past 3 weeks. Harry will be leaving to Middle East next week for an ICT project. I told him people get clobbered with stones if 'caught in the act'. But perhaps it's a sign for him... I wish him farewell.
Marcell - Marcell (reminds me of Vince if Vince ever got nice catchy songs from composers)
The Groove - Hati-hati (still prefer their 1st album KuIngin. Btw, heard there's this Malaysian group called Groovejehat who's doing acid jazz like the Groove and have a similar set-up. And the leader is a bear.)
Shanty - Shanty (dance music, reminds me of Deanna Yusuf)
Agnes Monica - and the story goes (still listening to Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa)
Tere - Sebuah Harapan (yes!)
Audy - 2002 (ok)
Utopia - Utopia (still listening to Antara Ada Dan Tiada)
La Luna - (haven't really heard the album)
Went to see Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam at KLCC with Harry, Hisham, Berudu, Shook and his new friend. Sundal betul movie tu. Had big expectations before watching the movie. "Ini cerita pontianak pertama selepas 30 tahun!" "Cerita ni gunakan banyak special effects!". Duhhhhhhh! Oh well, Maya Karin was very pretty though. And Berudu nearly jumped off his seat when he saw the scene with the chub-in-a-sarong who nearly got bitten by the Pontianak(Eng: Vampiress) from Madura.
15th May
Went to the workshop to get lubrication service and my car's timing belt changed. Was charged RM345. Damn!! There goes my stress relieving massage sessions. After that I went to Yow Chuan Plaza around 5.30pm to meet up with Hard, Ajeep, Ferhad and Teddy for a karaoke session. Stayed about 3 1/2 hours in there singing everything from Simply Red to Siti Nurhaliza. Teddy, who was pretty uncomfortable and shy at first, sang his heart out when he belted 'Anuar Zain - Jangan Bersedih Lagi' and 'Usher - U Got It Bad'. The karaoke theme that night might've been "You hurt me you f**king asshole, hear me cry!".
Went to Suzy's Corner at about 9pm at Jalan Ampang for dinner. The crowd was certainly for them c4s's eye-candy. Food was so-so. Service sucked. Cipan joined us later. They talked about a lot of Malaysian artists which I've no idea about, or know what they look like. I just listened. Hard tried to guess my preference as he pointed to everyone in the cafe whose BMI is over 28 and asked "Yang tu okay?". To which I replied "Susah nak cakapla... diaorg kena ada brain... hahahahah". Dari body naik ke otak then turun ke hati...
Went to Starbucks, KL Plaza at about 11pm for more gourmet coffee. Teddy went home to freshen up coz he's going to Bleu with Harry. I sat and quietly chatted with them as I know my intention to go there was not to oogle at people I could never get. Not that there weren't any chubs there. A pity no one brought their laptops as the Wi-fi speed is pretty fast.
The five of us hanged out there about an hour before moving on to 'Restoran Colour' or something... that cafe that's next to BB. Not many chubs there. Eyun and Zairy joined later at about 2am. They came back from RH's place in Ampang. Sat around till about 4am before they all went home.
Went to Taman Midah to meet up with Teddy and Harry to have breakfast. That was around 4.15am. They bitched about Bleubar's song selection (yeah, like what else is new!?) but complimented Glitters-dot-com's show. Apparently Kak Ju did another scary but hillarious 'hantu' show, that instead of throwing a doll at the others at the end of the song, she threw herself. Go figure...
We all went home at around 6am. Definitely a long day for me.
16th May
Woke up at around 3pm. I really love weekends. Eric called and wanted to come over for a drink around the lake. Had a chocolate with hazelnut syrup at San Francisco Coffee. Again, we like the surroundings and the view, and the intention to go there was not to oogle at people we could never get. He had Mocha Frappe and a plate of Chicken Rice. Very very nice people. I like chubs who're well dressed, enjoy life, clean cut, could talk about anything under the sun.. the likes. Hmm, despite what anyone might say, but 'first impression DOES count'.
We headed off to Briyani Gam Batu Pahat for dinner. Left at 9pm for another working dinner with officemates. Had home-cooked Japanese friend rice, tempura and sushi. Discussion ended at about 11.30pm. Went to Concorde Hotel, KL to have late supper buffet with Harry. Too many people, including a group of loud students or factory workers who're probably extending celebrating their annual dinner. But there're some nice dapper looking chubs around. Harry's having everything Asian while I opted only for a plate of Apple Pie a-la mode. I really ate too much today.
Was sick of listening to hip hop since it's played like 24 hours on MTV and Channel V. A friend who came back from Jakarta bought some CDs which I've been playing for the past 3 weeks. Harry will be leaving to Middle East next week for an ICT project. I told him people get clobbered with stones if 'caught in the act'. But perhaps it's a sign for him... I wish him farewell.
Marcell - Marcell (reminds me of Vince if Vince ever got nice catchy songs from composers)
The Groove - Hati-hati (still prefer their 1st album KuIngin. Btw, heard there's this Malaysian group called Groovejehat who's doing acid jazz like the Groove and have a similar set-up. And the leader is a bear.)
Shanty - Shanty (dance music, reminds me of Deanna Yusuf)
Agnes Monica - and the story goes (still listening to Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa)
Tere - Sebuah Harapan (yes!)
Audy - 2002 (ok)
Utopia - Utopia (still listening to Antara Ada Dan Tiada)
La Luna - (haven't really heard the album)
Saturday, May 08, 2004
lies lies and more lies
u know what
i met this guy online in the mychub chat... he says that his a chub from puchong and he would like to meet me... so he claims that his dad is a very important person and yadayadayada... and he cant give me his number for security reasons and he doesnt have an email and crap... so stupidly i believed him... cause he chatted like sorta sincere ... so he arranged a meet up
i was suppose to meet up with him in sunway pyramid today(saturday may8th 2004)
and he said his gonna be there at 10am and he said latest by 11am and he told me he'll be in a mercs with his driver...yadayadayada... i believed...
so happy me just go and sat there infront of pyramid ... its entrance that is
patiently i waited as time dreadfully passing by so slowly
finally it was 11am .... he isnt here... i thought maybe it was the traffice ... again i waited till 12... maybe i thought it was really jam in puchong ... i waited for another half an hour
but after that i think that he aint really gonna come here
there i was ... feeling stupid and all mad and frustrated... believing at meeting ppl who i didnt have a clue of who he is ... besides his stats(dont even know if its true)... have those kind of ppl who lie to ppl ever feel sorry or guilty before?
i mean they used the trust that ppl gave them as a toy and just throw it when they are done with it ... im a victim of these heartless creatures... did any of u kena before?
well there was another case was with this stupid malay guy(names Ahmin ... if its a real name ofcourse) whose in melaka who says his coming over to KL to meet me up and stuff the same tragedy happened ... but thats another story
im actually quite sad now and i hate my self for being so stupid ... to be trusting ppl who i dont have a clue with
do any of u have similiar experiances?
do share it at the feed back corner... or do those ppl who actually played these pranks reading this blog have their reason for doing it to share?... write a feed back to me at the feedback forner too
i just wanna know if its the same person over and over again toyed with my trust towards meeting ppl online ...
hugs y'all
peeky
i met this guy online in the mychub chat... he says that his a chub from puchong and he would like to meet me... so he claims that his dad is a very important person and yadayadayada... and he cant give me his number for security reasons and he doesnt have an email and crap... so stupidly i believed him... cause he chatted like sorta sincere ... so he arranged a meet up
i was suppose to meet up with him in sunway pyramid today(saturday may8th 2004)
and he said his gonna be there at 10am and he said latest by 11am and he told me he'll be in a mercs with his driver...yadayadayada... i believed...
so happy me just go and sat there infront of pyramid ... its entrance that is
patiently i waited as time dreadfully passing by so slowly
finally it was 11am .... he isnt here... i thought maybe it was the traffice ... again i waited till 12... maybe i thought it was really jam in puchong ... i waited for another half an hour
but after that i think that he aint really gonna come here
there i was ... feeling stupid and all mad and frustrated... believing at meeting ppl who i didnt have a clue of who he is ... besides his stats(dont even know if its true)... have those kind of ppl who lie to ppl ever feel sorry or guilty before?
i mean they used the trust that ppl gave them as a toy and just throw it when they are done with it ... im a victim of these heartless creatures... did any of u kena before?
well there was another case was with this stupid malay guy(names Ahmin ... if its a real name ofcourse) whose in melaka who says his coming over to KL to meet me up and stuff the same tragedy happened ... but thats another story
im actually quite sad now and i hate my self for being so stupid ... to be trusting ppl who i dont have a clue with
do any of u have similiar experiances?
do share it at the feed back corner... or do those ppl who actually played these pranks reading this blog have their reason for doing it to share?... write a feed back to me at the feedback forner too
i just wanna know if its the same person over and over again toyed with my trust towards meeting ppl online ...
hugs y'all
peeky
Saturday, April 17, 2004
my senior's giving me a hardon in class
well well well
i wrote this in class today... surprise hunh ?... well cause the whole class today is in the lab so why not ... since its almost break time now ...
how have i been lately some might ask... yeah im ok .. just abit on the dying side... cause of all the work
now before we go on to my topic... lets talk bout being a closet... i expect some feedbacks from young guys like me(woohoo)...or any of u guys that is still in the closet...im sure that in our closed desire...we have met colleagues,classmates,seniors, or anyone around u that u like alot.BUT u dont know if they really are PLU even sometimes u "think" they are... now i dont have a working gaydar... so life sucks for me even worse...were my college is ... even the guys in my operations department in my college are chubs ... one of them is a bear guy i should take some pics one day... and most of all this senior guy that i so had my desires on... mmmmm small eyes nice smile round tubby friendly nextdoor huggable guy... but the fact is ... poor'ol peeky is shy so i never get to know him but my friend does she knows that i like'em chubby men... so one day she intro me to him and vice versa i was blushing like a tomato...shook his hands as he greet me with the killer smile that i'd die for(hope my bf aint reading this*giggles*) i said hi and he "hi" backand i stood there a moment and i had to go cause looking at him so close is giving me a hardon(yeah i sound like a perv) so i got his number and quickly excused my self from the scene and waited for class to start... for the next hour i have a tent in my pants begging for attention.. cant stop thinking of him.After everything settled i started to think back the things happened.. not much eh... and now im sitting at my desk... having flashbacks of that day(it was only 4days go...) ah sweet sweet memories...
now heres a food for thought and some thing i can hope for in the feed backsession... how do u guys with a gaydar actually know if the other person is gay... tell me bout it ... do u go like"oh! my gaydars tingling" or just some weird feeling of some weird voice telling u that the guy next to u is gay... come on guys tell me bout the feelings or for u guys without a gaydar... tell me what do u look in a chub or someone u have an intrest on if he is a gay...
now go my underlings fetch me answers of my riddle (NOT!!!)
HUGS
PEEKY
i wrote this in class today... surprise hunh ?... well cause the whole class today is in the lab so why not ... since its almost break time now ...
how have i been lately some might ask... yeah im ok .. just abit on the dying side... cause of all the work
now before we go on to my topic... lets talk bout being a closet... i expect some feedbacks from young guys like me(woohoo)...or any of u guys that is still in the closet...im sure that in our closed desire...we have met colleagues,classmates,seniors, or anyone around u that u like alot.BUT u dont know if they really are PLU even sometimes u "think" they are... now i dont have a working gaydar... so life sucks for me even worse...were my college is ... even the guys in my operations department in my college are chubs ... one of them is a bear guy i should take some pics one day... and most of all this senior guy that i so had my desires on... mmmmm small eyes nice smile round tubby friendly nextdoor huggable guy... but the fact is ... poor'ol peeky is shy so i never get to know him but my friend does she knows that i like'em chubby men... so one day she intro me to him and vice versa i was blushing like a tomato...shook his hands as he greet me with the killer smile that i'd die for(hope my bf aint reading this*giggles*) i said hi and he "hi" backand i stood there a moment and i had to go cause looking at him so close is giving me a hardon(yeah i sound like a perv) so i got his number and quickly excused my self from the scene and waited for class to start... for the next hour i have a tent in my pants begging for attention.. cant stop thinking of him.After everything settled i started to think back the things happened.. not much eh... and now im sitting at my desk... having flashbacks of that day(it was only 4days go...) ah sweet sweet memories...
now heres a food for thought and some thing i can hope for in the feed backsession... how do u guys with a gaydar actually know if the other person is gay... tell me bout it ... do u go like"oh! my gaydars tingling" or just some weird feeling of some weird voice telling u that the guy next to u is gay... come on guys tell me bout the feelings or for u guys without a gaydar... tell me what do u look in a chub or someone u have an intrest on if he is a gay...
now go my underlings fetch me answers of my riddle (NOT!!!)
HUGS
PEEKY
Thursday, April 08, 2004
OMG LOOK...!!
its not really a post but i dont know how to do this ... and who did it .. but the pic there down my post ... ITS NOT MEEEE
DONT GET CONFUSE
I DONT LOOKS SO BALD ,.... I MIGHT HAVE A SPIKY HAIR BUT NOT BALD
GARHHHHHHHH how it get there hmmmm plz thats not me
but anyways this is my second post woo hoo congrats to me
and this time its an encounter...
i dont know if the person is reading this or maybe his a PLU but since i dont have a working gaydar i cant really ... every morning i would be taking bus at the hilton bus stop to college and most of the mornings i wil see this cute chubby chinese guy standing on the stop waiting for a intrakota bus number 338 to god knows where ... since i dont have the time to stalk him( i never have time ... even for my bf :P) anyways yeah he keeps glancing at me everytime at the bus stop maybe cause i was staring at him alot .. his cute... u know the office attire and he had a little pouch with him always connected to his diskman or something ... soo soo cute ... heheh well i smiled at him and he just smiled back this morning and he headed in to the bus.... and guess what ... he actually lives in my area in paramount garden ... UNBELIEVEABLE ... cause i sorta bang into while buying lunch outside my house and i was like "woooooooooow" hahahaha i dont know the strangers name but ... if that stranger is lookin at this post ... come to say hi and crap im a friendly guy and i wont bite ...
and a RECAP...
THE PICTURE ON MY 1ST POST AINT ME ... IM NOT BALD AND MY BODY AINT SO SMALL IM 210LBS DAMN IT hehehehehe
hugs y'all
take care
peeky
DONT GET CONFUSE
I DONT LOOKS SO BALD ,.... I MIGHT HAVE A SPIKY HAIR BUT NOT BALD
GARHHHHHHHH how it get there hmmmm plz thats not me
but anyways this is my second post woo hoo congrats to me
and this time its an encounter...
i dont know if the person is reading this or maybe his a PLU but since i dont have a working gaydar i cant really ... every morning i would be taking bus at the hilton bus stop to college and most of the mornings i wil see this cute chubby chinese guy standing on the stop waiting for a intrakota bus number 338 to god knows where ... since i dont have the time to stalk him( i never have time ... even for my bf :P) anyways yeah he keeps glancing at me everytime at the bus stop maybe cause i was staring at him alot .. his cute... u know the office attire and he had a little pouch with him always connected to his diskman or something ... soo soo cute ... heheh well i smiled at him and he just smiled back this morning and he headed in to the bus.... and guess what ... he actually lives in my area in paramount garden ... UNBELIEVEABLE ... cause i sorta bang into while buying lunch outside my house and i was like "woooooooooow" hahahaha i dont know the strangers name but ... if that stranger is lookin at this post ... come to say hi and crap im a friendly guy and i wont bite ...
and a RECAP...
THE PICTURE ON MY 1ST POST AINT ME ... IM NOT BALD AND MY BODY AINT SO SMALL IM 210LBS DAMN IT hehehehehe
hugs y'all
take care
peeky
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
of Sex in The City... and being Seksis
I've been totally hook to the American TV series "Sex in The City" for these few weeks. I know, it's been out for quite sometime now, but only recently do I have the time to watch the DVD. After watching the complete 3 seasons, I have concluded that it has a lot of things I can learn from those 3 women characters. The message being conveyed is universal. It kept me thinking about the whole cruising thing.. either gay or straight. It opened my eye to a few things which I never thought before. As I put myself into Carrie's shoe and see my relationship with "Mr.Big". Now I know the reason why he left me and married the other girl. Am I too complicated ? Is he a straight acting gay or a gay straght acting ? Those I are the things I can relate to whatever happened to my life. Overall it's very entertaining.. and educational the very least.
Monday, April 05, 2004
wow my 1st post
TA-DAAAAA
peeky here
i know some of u all know me on the chat and im not that famous and stuff but this is my 1st post
heres a little things in live that i would like to share with everyone ... or i think its more like a frustration in life ya?
im in PJ area .... and im always in the sunway reagen cause im studying around there(cant tell u which college but if u happen to bump to me ... ur lucky... or better ... on the same college) well im always lingering in sunway area and i notice something ... lots of chubbies around ... i do mean lots and cute ones too ehhehehe
well heres the frustration part...
u get to see em but u cant touch em ... hate that ... adn u go to chat hoping that u'll meet ONE of them but u cant ... u get fresh faces instead(not to say its bad but ... i wanna meet em) plus ... i dont have a a working gaydar... that sucks even more
so tell me if ur one of the chubbies that always lingers around sunway pyramid area heheh email me and stuff im always near by or better still we get to have lunch and more yeah ?
hugs y'all
peeky
peeky here
i know some of u all know me on the chat and im not that famous and stuff but this is my 1st post
heres a little things in live that i would like to share with everyone ... or i think its more like a frustration in life ya?
im in PJ area .... and im always in the sunway reagen cause im studying around there(cant tell u which college but if u happen to bump to me ... ur lucky... or better ... on the same college) well im always lingering in sunway area and i notice something ... lots of chubbies around ... i do mean lots and cute ones too ehhehehe
well heres the frustration part...
u get to see em but u cant touch em ... hate that ... adn u go to chat hoping that u'll meet ONE of them but u cant ... u get fresh faces instead(not to say its bad but ... i wanna meet em) plus ... i dont have a a working gaydar... that sucks even more
so tell me if ur one of the chubbies that always lingers around sunway pyramid area heheh email me and stuff im always near by or better still we get to have lunch and more yeah ?
hugs y'all
peeky
Thursday, April 01, 2004
Bitching on April Fool's day
I am exhausted. I've been exhausted for the past 2-3 months. The workload. The stress. The problems. A sign that my monthly visits to the local masseur should be increased. I badly need one right now. And that's not April Fool.
Just got back from my hometown last weekend for a wedding. Not mine, mind you. Not yet, anyway. But will be, hopefully. Had a interesting and wonderful time, not to mention exhausting. Didn't meet anyone as a friend I planned to meet couldn't make it. But had some visitors from KL who decided to spend their weekend there instead of clubbing at Bleu. I'd say they had a more interesting time with a trip to the local masseur, a nite out by the seaside cafe, and lots of DVDs. Berudu is starting his own f.r.i.e.n.d.s collection and bought season 1, 2 and 3 altogether, including some 'berangan' movies like Legally Blonde 1 & 2 and others. Shook bought some 'berangan' movies also which I can't remember the titles. Harry bought LOTR: Fellowship of the Ring extended version. Somehow the people at my hometown look 'better' in every sense, especially the chubs. They look 'neat', clean-cut and not messy, and judging from the appearance, they could very well smell nice. Not that I went over and smelt them... But I could probably imagine the smell of Dolce & Gabbana on fat, and it's not that bad. Go figure! Perhaps the election result has got something to do with it.
Went to have dinner last nite with Eric and Teddy. The original plan was for us to go to the Baskin-Robbins outlet at Ampang Point, buy 1 pint of ice-cream each and have a steamboat dinner at Desa Pandan. But it was raining cats and dogs last evening, or rather it was rather raining angry hippos and horny bears. So the road was jammed, and I got to Desa Pandan around 8. Asked Teddy to buy for me a pint of Peanut Butter n' Chocolate and waited for them at Desa Pandan. The steamboat restaurant was no longer there, a mamak restaurant instead. Had a Japanese set dinner with them, bitched about life, and ate the ice-cream. Yum!! Gotta do this again. Went back to Ampang Point and had a late drink at the mamak stall in front of Ampang Puteri Hospital. Reza and RH joined later for a while. And suddenly I'm like the slimmest guy around. Heh!
Am autorepeating this playlist, more on the simple piano-based songs. They sound better the more I play, especially in the car. Btw, I'm looking for a cheap branded second-hand 4-channel car amplifier, preferably the established brands like Infinity, JBL or Rockford Fosgate. Yeah, like duhh!! Found out on e-bay that it's dirt cheap in the States but about 1000x more in Malaysia. Globalization hasn't reached here yet, I suppose?
Hasn't checked out Zouk KL yet. How's the scene? Any chubbies there?
Playlist:
Clay Aiken - Open Arms (couldn't beat Mariah, of course, but sounds 'achievable' tho not by me)
Ruben Stoddart - Sorry 2004 (chill out easy listening)
Kara - Beri Aku Waktu
Titi DJ & Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa(still listening to this)
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Ku Melepasmu(2-3 yr old song, but still nice)
Lingua - Bila Ku Ingat (2-3 yr old song, but still nice)
Reza - Cintakan Membawamu Kembali (original artist by Dewa, but heard another version on Red104.9 after midnite the other day by Siti Nurhaliza and it blew all versions!!! Apparently that's during her TV concert in Indonesia. Still looking for her version tho.)
Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
Warren G ft KRS-1 & Lil Ai - Lets Go (the girls sounds cute)
Kanye West - Through The Wire
Twista ft Jamie Foxx & Kanye West - Slow Jamz
Deep Dish vs Everything But The Girl - Future of the Future
Mandalay - Beautiful (7" Canny Mix from Cafe Del Mar vol 6, better than Sarah Brightman's)
Encounters? We'll see soon.... and it won't be April Fool.
Just got back from my hometown last weekend for a wedding. Not mine, mind you. Not yet, anyway. But will be, hopefully. Had a interesting and wonderful time, not to mention exhausting. Didn't meet anyone as a friend I planned to meet couldn't make it. But had some visitors from KL who decided to spend their weekend there instead of clubbing at Bleu. I'd say they had a more interesting time with a trip to the local masseur, a nite out by the seaside cafe, and lots of DVDs. Berudu is starting his own f.r.i.e.n.d.s collection and bought season 1, 2 and 3 altogether, including some 'berangan' movies like Legally Blonde 1 & 2 and others. Shook bought some 'berangan' movies also which I can't remember the titles. Harry bought LOTR: Fellowship of the Ring extended version. Somehow the people at my hometown look 'better' in every sense, especially the chubs. They look 'neat', clean-cut and not messy, and judging from the appearance, they could very well smell nice. Not that I went over and smelt them... But I could probably imagine the smell of Dolce & Gabbana on fat, and it's not that bad. Go figure! Perhaps the election result has got something to do with it.
Went to have dinner last nite with Eric and Teddy. The original plan was for us to go to the Baskin-Robbins outlet at Ampang Point, buy 1 pint of ice-cream each and have a steamboat dinner at Desa Pandan. But it was raining cats and dogs last evening, or rather it was rather raining angry hippos and horny bears. So the road was jammed, and I got to Desa Pandan around 8. Asked Teddy to buy for me a pint of Peanut Butter n' Chocolate and waited for them at Desa Pandan. The steamboat restaurant was no longer there, a mamak restaurant instead. Had a Japanese set dinner with them, bitched about life, and ate the ice-cream. Yum!! Gotta do this again. Went back to Ampang Point and had a late drink at the mamak stall in front of Ampang Puteri Hospital. Reza and RH joined later for a while. And suddenly I'm like the slimmest guy around. Heh!
Am autorepeating this playlist, more on the simple piano-based songs. They sound better the more I play, especially in the car. Btw, I'm looking for a cheap branded second-hand 4-channel car amplifier, preferably the established brands like Infinity, JBL or Rockford Fosgate. Yeah, like duhh!! Found out on e-bay that it's dirt cheap in the States but about 1000x more in Malaysia. Globalization hasn't reached here yet, I suppose?
Hasn't checked out Zouk KL yet. How's the scene? Any chubbies there?
Playlist:
Clay Aiken - Open Arms (couldn't beat Mariah, of course, but sounds 'achievable' tho not by me)
Ruben Stoddart - Sorry 2004 (chill out easy listening)
Kara - Beri Aku Waktu
Titi DJ & Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa(still listening to this)
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Ku Melepasmu(2-3 yr old song, but still nice)
Lingua - Bila Ku Ingat (2-3 yr old song, but still nice)
Reza - Cintakan Membawamu Kembali (original artist by Dewa, but heard another version on Red104.9 after midnite the other day by Siti Nurhaliza and it blew all versions!!! Apparently that's during her TV concert in Indonesia. Still looking for her version tho.)
Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
Warren G ft KRS-1 & Lil Ai - Lets Go (the girls sounds cute)
Kanye West - Through The Wire
Twista ft Jamie Foxx & Kanye West - Slow Jamz
Deep Dish vs Everything But The Girl - Future of the Future
Mandalay - Beautiful (7" Canny Mix from Cafe Del Mar vol 6, better than Sarah Brightman's)
Encounters? We'll see soon.... and it won't be April Fool.
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Priceless... Memories
Just something that might get you interested with the erection :) Oppp.. election
Friday, February 13, 2004
Virtual Beating - (Adapted from Fridae.com)
Have you ever been a victim of online gay bashing? As the Net becomes the new hunting ground for gay bashers, Here are some tips on defending yourself in the virtual world.
Many might be shocked by the idea that gay bashings still happen – but the truth is thousands of documented cases happen each year. But that’s only the physical bashing. The reality is, many bashers have chosen to take their crusades to a safer, more anonymous venue. The Internet, with its much debated virtues, ills, and undoubted freedom, is their new hunting ground. What could be more convenient, after all? You can even pop a few beers while you satisfy your hunger to assault some ‘sick’ queen.
Welcome new millennium. Hello, old hates.
True, the assault from online bashers isn’t likely to cause death or disfigurement. But it is just as much a violation as the first, if not possibly more dangerous. The possibilities and reach of the Net allows a basher to pretty much spew his acid wherever he chooses, with much greater impunity. He can let his inhumanity run free, until it bubbles to the surface, that much more concentrated. He can have the luxury of being several places at once, and even luring potential victims into dangerous situations, where they can be assaulted in their own homes, or in a ground of the basher’s choosing.
So what can one do about it? Much as in the real world, you fight back, with whatever you can. For the gay man in the Internet world, wit is probably the best weapon.
Many people believe that bashers are closet cases who cannot accept their own homosexuality, and thus try to push it away by attacking other gay people. With the relative anonymity that chatrooms and online communities provide, some feel that they intimidate and abuse with impunity. I remember another time someone came into a chatroom claiming to be a police officer, and exercise his ego by scaring off the people there. He beat a hasty retreat when the moderators told him that impersonating a policeman was a crime, and that his IP address was being noted down for the authorities. Two can play at the game of bluff, but it always pays to know your rights.
Another motivation bashers have, is vengeance. Maybe he was slighted by a gay classmate (I say he, because statistically, almost all bashers are men - women tend to be much more sensible.), or somehow "lost" to a gay competitor. For some, the idea that a strong, masculine MAN like him could be in any way inferior to a "limp-wristed freak" was intolerable. A friend told me about one incidence, when a would-be basher had his ego seriously bruised when his nasty messages on a yahoogroup elicited hordes of devastatingly witty replies. Unable to frame a suitable rejoinder, he retreated with his tail between his legs. But after a few days of nursing his humiliation, he thought to avenge himself by setting up an eyeball with one of the members of the group and physically "assert his superiority". To his regret and greater humiliation, the victim-to-be turned out to be a tae-kwon-do instructor. Some days, it just doesn't pay to be straight and stupid.
A third kind of basher is the (shudder) religious fundamentalist sort. There is no hope of reaching through the miasma of their religious fervour, and they're not even any fun to bait and toy with. Moderators should just ban their IPs or kick them from the group.
Ultimately, bashers are sad, insecure people who try to prove their manhood and machismo by trying to exert power over others. Don’t let them. Here are a few ways to defend yourself:
1. Take away their tools. Log IP addresses, note down emails addresses, forward hate email or forum postings to your ISP (Internet Service Provider) or to the basher’s ISP. Make sure the person knows that you’ve got his info and have taken steps to disseminate that info. Make sure he knows you’re covered, and that if something happens to you, it’ll be traced back to him easily. If you find a gay bashing site online, report it to site’s host, and make sure others see and hear of the site. With enough pressure, it’ll be taken down before it encourages some young fool about his “superiority”.
2. Don’t give them what they want. Don’t show fear, don’t react with hostility, don’t pander to their needs. Why give them any satisfaction? For some bashers, it only encourages them, because they feel that they’re succeeding in getting under your skin.
3. Don’t take risks. Just as you shouldn’t walk down a dark alley at night, sniffing a bouquet of flowers while yodelling “Be A Woman”, don’t meet anyone from the net who seems suspicious. Try to check on the person who’s inviting you to eyeball - talk to the person on the phone, or check his address isn’t some abandoned building somewhere. Write down any details you can get on the other person, and keep the info somewhere easy to find. Course, for those of us who like rougher trade, well, the line is hard to distinguish sometimes, so be sure to pack your Taser in your purse or buy one of those cellphones with cameras or recorders. Aside from obvious advantages, you can take a snap of anyone who tries to assault you. (For technologically challenged: a Taser is a hand-held remote stun system.)
4. The ignore function is your friend. If someone is getting tiresome, just tune them out. There is little point to talking to an empty room, and ideally, the basher will go away. Otherwise, see Number 1 above.
5. Take them seriously. One disadvantage of being online is that bashers become disassociated from you - you can’t see them or hear them. More often than not, you regard them as a nuisance rather than a threat. But they ARE threats, if not to you, then potentially to some sister in the community. Don’t give them the chance to try again with someone else, perhaps with better success.
Online bashing doesn’t cause real pain, true. But it potentially can cause real harm. Just as you wouldn’t allow anyone to physically attack you, don’t let them emotionally or verbally violate you either. The Internet is probably the one place where we can all stand proud as equals with the rest of the world. Let no one take that from us.
Original Text by:
Glenn Chua
Many might be shocked by the idea that gay bashings still happen – but the truth is thousands of documented cases happen each year. But that’s only the physical bashing. The reality is, many bashers have chosen to take their crusades to a safer, more anonymous venue. The Internet, with its much debated virtues, ills, and undoubted freedom, is their new hunting ground. What could be more convenient, after all? You can even pop a few beers while you satisfy your hunger to assault some ‘sick’ queen.
Welcome new millennium. Hello, old hates.
True, the assault from online bashers isn’t likely to cause death or disfigurement. But it is just as much a violation as the first, if not possibly more dangerous. The possibilities and reach of the Net allows a basher to pretty much spew his acid wherever he chooses, with much greater impunity. He can let his inhumanity run free, until it bubbles to the surface, that much more concentrated. He can have the luxury of being several places at once, and even luring potential victims into dangerous situations, where they can be assaulted in their own homes, or in a ground of the basher’s choosing.
So what can one do about it? Much as in the real world, you fight back, with whatever you can. For the gay man in the Internet world, wit is probably the best weapon.
Many people believe that bashers are closet cases who cannot accept their own homosexuality, and thus try to push it away by attacking other gay people. With the relative anonymity that chatrooms and online communities provide, some feel that they intimidate and abuse with impunity. I remember another time someone came into a chatroom claiming to be a police officer, and exercise his ego by scaring off the people there. He beat a hasty retreat when the moderators told him that impersonating a policeman was a crime, and that his IP address was being noted down for the authorities. Two can play at the game of bluff, but it always pays to know your rights.
Another motivation bashers have, is vengeance. Maybe he was slighted by a gay classmate (I say he, because statistically, almost all bashers are men - women tend to be much more sensible.), or somehow "lost" to a gay competitor. For some, the idea that a strong, masculine MAN like him could be in any way inferior to a "limp-wristed freak" was intolerable. A friend told me about one incidence, when a would-be basher had his ego seriously bruised when his nasty messages on a yahoogroup elicited hordes of devastatingly witty replies. Unable to frame a suitable rejoinder, he retreated with his tail between his legs. But after a few days of nursing his humiliation, he thought to avenge himself by setting up an eyeball with one of the members of the group and physically "assert his superiority". To his regret and greater humiliation, the victim-to-be turned out to be a tae-kwon-do instructor. Some days, it just doesn't pay to be straight and stupid.
A third kind of basher is the (shudder) religious fundamentalist sort. There is no hope of reaching through the miasma of their religious fervour, and they're not even any fun to bait and toy with. Moderators should just ban their IPs or kick them from the group.
Ultimately, bashers are sad, insecure people who try to prove their manhood and machismo by trying to exert power over others. Don’t let them. Here are a few ways to defend yourself:
1. Take away their tools. Log IP addresses, note down emails addresses, forward hate email or forum postings to your ISP (Internet Service Provider) or to the basher’s ISP. Make sure the person knows that you’ve got his info and have taken steps to disseminate that info. Make sure he knows you’re covered, and that if something happens to you, it’ll be traced back to him easily. If you find a gay bashing site online, report it to site’s host, and make sure others see and hear of the site. With enough pressure, it’ll be taken down before it encourages some young fool about his “superiority”.
2. Don’t give them what they want. Don’t show fear, don’t react with hostility, don’t pander to their needs. Why give them any satisfaction? For some bashers, it only encourages them, because they feel that they’re succeeding in getting under your skin.
3. Don’t take risks. Just as you shouldn’t walk down a dark alley at night, sniffing a bouquet of flowers while yodelling “Be A Woman”, don’t meet anyone from the net who seems suspicious. Try to check on the person who’s inviting you to eyeball - talk to the person on the phone, or check his address isn’t some abandoned building somewhere. Write down any details you can get on the other person, and keep the info somewhere easy to find. Course, for those of us who like rougher trade, well, the line is hard to distinguish sometimes, so be sure to pack your Taser in your purse or buy one of those cellphones with cameras or recorders. Aside from obvious advantages, you can take a snap of anyone who tries to assault you. (For technologically challenged: a Taser is a hand-held remote stun system.)
4. The ignore function is your friend. If someone is getting tiresome, just tune them out. There is little point to talking to an empty room, and ideally, the basher will go away. Otherwise, see Number 1 above.
5. Take them seriously. One disadvantage of being online is that bashers become disassociated from you - you can’t see them or hear them. More often than not, you regard them as a nuisance rather than a threat. But they ARE threats, if not to you, then potentially to some sister in the community. Don’t give them the chance to try again with someone else, perhaps with better success.
Online bashing doesn’t cause real pain, true. But it potentially can cause real harm. Just as you wouldn’t allow anyone to physically attack you, don’t let them emotionally or verbally violate you either. The Internet is probably the one place where we can all stand proud as equals with the rest of the world. Let no one take that from us.
Original Text by:
Glenn Chua
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
Title change....
After much thought, and in view with the changing times, we are experimenting with a new name title change to our blog column.
"The Chubby Soup for the Seeking Soul"
Thus, we hope that more blog writers will come forth and write, not only about encounters but also about the expanding world of Malaysian chubs & chasers as we had originally intended this blog to be.
We value your comments and hope that this change will bring a positive turnaround.
If you have the skills... If you have the passion.. If you want to be a blog writer...
write an e-mail to: mychub@time.net.my
Introduce yourself to us...
We will reply with a confirmation invitation to the MyChub blog writers pool.
"The Chubby Soup for the Seeking Soul"
Thus, we hope that more blog writers will come forth and write, not only about encounters but also about the expanding world of Malaysian chubs & chasers as we had originally intended this blog to be.
We value your comments and hope that this change will bring a positive turnaround.
If you have the skills... If you have the passion.. If you want to be a blog writer...
write an e-mail to: mychub@time.net.my
Introduce yourself to us...
We will reply with a confirmation invitation to the MyChub blog writers pool.
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Alkisahnya...
Di zaman dahulu kala ada sorang chub bernama Samwise, dia takut buka mata tapi dia tak buta, dia suka kena pimpin.
Samwise kena pimpin dengan sorang ni dekat 7 tahun, nama dia Qui-Gonn Jinn, kalau Qui-Gonn nak lepaskan tangan dia nanti dia tarik balik tangan Qui-Gonn. Samwise takut jalan sorang2 dalam gelap, pesal dia taknak bukak mata, dia tak percaya suasana sebenarnya terang. Ada sekali tu Samwise jumpa sorang ni, nama dia Iori, Iori ni pimpin dia sekejap, dan tanya "Kenapa u tutup mata? Bukak la mata tu so boleh kita jalan sama2?". Samwise jawap "I tak nampak la, bukan i tutup mata. I nak org pimpin." Iori jawap "U nampak la, cuba bukak mata tu, jom jalan sama2. Tengah terang ni ha. Then kita boleh sama2 pergi mana2". Samwise jawap lagi "I tak nampakla! U taknak pimpin i sudah!". Dia suruh Iori pergi. So Iori pun pergi.
Si Samwise ni jalan2 teraba2 dlm terang, kekadang terjumpa tangan orang, ada yang tepis, ada yang sambut. Yang sambut tu pimpin tangan dia kejap. Samwise tu seronok kena pimpin, seronok kena tarik ke sana sini. "Apa guna buka mata kalau dah ada orang pimpin?" Mungkin tu yg dia pikirkan. Ada orang yang rimas asik tolong pimpin dia aja. Ada yang nak pujuk dia suruh dia bukak mata dan tengok keadaan sekeliling yang sebenarnya cantik, tapi dia halau. So Samwise pun meraba2 dalam terang lagi dan lagi dan lagi, minta orang pimpin tangan dia, sapa2 yg lalu depan dia yang sanggup pimpin dia pun dia tak kisah, asalkan orang tu sanggup pimpin. Tak kira orang tu nak bawak ke mana, asalkan kena pimpin. Takda arah tujuan, padahal Samwise boleh buka mata tengok sapa yang pimpin dia dan arah mana yang nak dituju dan pilih dia nak pergi tempat tu ke tak. Samwise tengok dengan tangan dia aja. Dia tak pernah kenal sapa Qui-Gonn, sapa Iori. Dia tau Iori pernah bercakap dgn dia, dia tau Iori pernah pimpin dia, tapi dia taktau camana rupa Iori tu. Semua tu tak penting, dia nak kena pimpin aja, dan sebagai balasan, dia akan pegang tangan org tu dan takkan lepaskan. Sekarang dia kena pimpin dengan orang baru dalam 5 bulan, orang tu pun nak lepaskan tangan, atas sebab2 yang tak diketahui.
Motif? Moral?
Anyway, playlist minggu ni:
Cokelat - Jauh
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Kumelepasmu
Lingua - Bila Kuingat
Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
Andien - Tentang Aku
Andien - Menjelma
Reza - Cintakan Membuatmu Kembali
ADA Band - Manja
Peter Pan - Sahabat
Anita Sarawak - Perasaan
Azalea - Gemawan
Gerhana Skacinta - Antara Anyir Dan Jakarta
Samwise kena pimpin dengan sorang ni dekat 7 tahun, nama dia Qui-Gonn Jinn, kalau Qui-Gonn nak lepaskan tangan dia nanti dia tarik balik tangan Qui-Gonn. Samwise takut jalan sorang2 dalam gelap, pesal dia taknak bukak mata, dia tak percaya suasana sebenarnya terang. Ada sekali tu Samwise jumpa sorang ni, nama dia Iori, Iori ni pimpin dia sekejap, dan tanya "Kenapa u tutup mata? Bukak la mata tu so boleh kita jalan sama2?". Samwise jawap "I tak nampak la, bukan i tutup mata. I nak org pimpin." Iori jawap "U nampak la, cuba bukak mata tu, jom jalan sama2. Tengah terang ni ha. Then kita boleh sama2 pergi mana2". Samwise jawap lagi "I tak nampakla! U taknak pimpin i sudah!". Dia suruh Iori pergi. So Iori pun pergi.
Si Samwise ni jalan2 teraba2 dlm terang, kekadang terjumpa tangan orang, ada yang tepis, ada yang sambut. Yang sambut tu pimpin tangan dia kejap. Samwise tu seronok kena pimpin, seronok kena tarik ke sana sini. "Apa guna buka mata kalau dah ada orang pimpin?" Mungkin tu yg dia pikirkan. Ada orang yang rimas asik tolong pimpin dia aja. Ada yang nak pujuk dia suruh dia bukak mata dan tengok keadaan sekeliling yang sebenarnya cantik, tapi dia halau. So Samwise pun meraba2 dalam terang lagi dan lagi dan lagi, minta orang pimpin tangan dia, sapa2 yg lalu depan dia yang sanggup pimpin dia pun dia tak kisah, asalkan orang tu sanggup pimpin. Tak kira orang tu nak bawak ke mana, asalkan kena pimpin. Takda arah tujuan, padahal Samwise boleh buka mata tengok sapa yang pimpin dia dan arah mana yang nak dituju dan pilih dia nak pergi tempat tu ke tak. Samwise tengok dengan tangan dia aja. Dia tak pernah kenal sapa Qui-Gonn, sapa Iori. Dia tau Iori pernah bercakap dgn dia, dia tau Iori pernah pimpin dia, tapi dia taktau camana rupa Iori tu. Semua tu tak penting, dia nak kena pimpin aja, dan sebagai balasan, dia akan pegang tangan org tu dan takkan lepaskan. Sekarang dia kena pimpin dengan orang baru dalam 5 bulan, orang tu pun nak lepaskan tangan, atas sebab2 yang tak diketahui.
Motif? Moral?
Anyway, playlist minggu ni:
Cokelat - Jauh
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Kumelepasmu
Lingua - Bila Kuingat
Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
Andien - Tentang Aku
Andien - Menjelma
Reza - Cintakan Membuatmu Kembali
ADA Band - Manja
Peter Pan - Sahabat
Anita Sarawak - Perasaan
Azalea - Gemawan
Gerhana Skacinta - Antara Anyir Dan Jakarta
Monday, January 12, 2004
New MyChub Encounter Blog Feature !
Dear MyChub blog readers,
We have added a nifty commenting feature on the articles written in MyChub blogs so that you can also participate / join in the discussion !
Just click at the [comment] link, to express ur ideas about each blog post.
Remember! mychub blog is not just for telling ppl how great you are when meeting chubs or how good you are at flirting ! It is also a place to dicuss about the current issues about the chub & chaser community
Always be nice and respect others ! Lets us encourage rather than discourage !
Be positive and always look at the brighter side of life.
Coz gay in the dictionary means happy & joyfull, not sex occay!
Huggz
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Be positive and always look at the brighter side of life.
Coz gay in the dictionary means happy & joyfull, not sex occay!
Huggz
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
New Year
Went to Bukit Bintang around 4pm, to avoid the massive traffic jam I'd expect since they're closing some roads for the celebration. Called some that I know and got the expected answer "Errr... tak taulah lepak mana, tanya ". So I hanged out with BaronCaffeine, ate the famous Nasi Ayam Hailam, and went all over Bukit Bintang to look for budget hotel but couldn't find any (we're planning to go clubbing until morning, and concluded that we won't have the energy to drive back home).
Went to bleu. Less than 30 ppl before countdown (I think!). Apparently they all went to see the fireworks at KLCC before coming in. Then suddenly the place was packed. Cover charge was RM20 before 11pm, and RM25 afterwards. Last year I went to Nouvo to see Jakatta the DJ, cover charge was RM60 but worth every cent as he played really really nice stuff (American Dream, Ever So Lonely and others I dont know).
The mood at bleu was the same, except that I think everyone smiled more. The song playlist was the same, I expected more since it's New Year and probably the DJ would want to bring some changes. Oh well... one can only hope... No new chubs in sight, except for one from Belgium, I think. Contrary to popular belief, he DID NOT smell like chocolate.
Current playlist:
1. Missy Elliot - Pass That Dutch
2. Timbaland - Indian Flute
3. Baby Bash - Suga Suga
4. Mandalay - Beautiful
5. Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
6. Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
7. Josh Groban - You're Still You
8. Tori Amos - Love Song
Went to bleu. Less than 30 ppl before countdown (I think!). Apparently they all went to see the fireworks at KLCC before coming in. Then suddenly the place was packed. Cover charge was RM20 before 11pm, and RM25 afterwards. Last year I went to Nouvo to see Jakatta the DJ, cover charge was RM60 but worth every cent as he played really really nice stuff (American Dream, Ever So Lonely and others I dont know).
The mood at bleu was the same, except that I think everyone smiled more. The song playlist was the same, I expected more since it's New Year and probably the DJ would want to bring some changes. Oh well... one can only hope... No new chubs in sight, except for one from Belgium, I think. Contrary to popular belief, he DID NOT smell like chocolate.
Current playlist:
1. Missy Elliot - Pass That Dutch
2. Timbaland - Indian Flute
3. Baby Bash - Suga Suga
4. Mandalay - Beautiful
5. Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
6. Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
7. Josh Groban - You're Still You
8. Tori Amos - Love Song
Thursday, January 01, 2004
Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year
Finally, MyChub has gone through another eventful year! We never thought that it would come this far. Without the help and support of you - our patrons, would would never thought that we would have done it either.
MyChub's new year resolution this year is to make our ever expanding services continues to cater to the chub & chasers throughout malaysia and beyond. And we shall continue to make ground breaking innovations / pioneering advancement to make your life better.
To all our beloved readers, have a merry little christmas and a joyous New Year!
May you all be blessed with happiness and prosperity !
Lets us give full support to this little chub club that dared to dream and make it happen!
Huggss
MyChub's new year resolution this year is to make our ever expanding services continues to cater to the chub & chasers throughout malaysia and beyond. And we shall continue to make ground breaking innovations / pioneering advancement to make your life better.
To all our beloved readers, have a merry little christmas and a joyous New Year!
May you all be blessed with happiness and prosperity !
Lets us give full support to this little chub club that dared to dream and make it happen!
Huggss
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