After much thought, and in view with the changing times, we are experimenting with a new name title change to our blog column.
"The Chubby Soup for the Seeking Soul"
Thus, we hope that more blog writers will come forth and write, not only about encounters but also about the expanding world of Malaysian chubs & chasers as we had originally intended this blog to be.
We value your comments and hope that this change will bring a positive turnaround.
If you have the skills... If you have the passion.. If you want to be a blog writer...
write an e-mail to: mychub@time.net.my
Introduce yourself to us...
We will reply with a confirmation invitation to the MyChub blog writers pool.
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Alkisahnya...
Di zaman dahulu kala ada sorang chub bernama Samwise, dia takut buka mata tapi dia tak buta, dia suka kena pimpin.
Samwise kena pimpin dengan sorang ni dekat 7 tahun, nama dia Qui-Gonn Jinn, kalau Qui-Gonn nak lepaskan tangan dia nanti dia tarik balik tangan Qui-Gonn. Samwise takut jalan sorang2 dalam gelap, pesal dia taknak bukak mata, dia tak percaya suasana sebenarnya terang. Ada sekali tu Samwise jumpa sorang ni, nama dia Iori, Iori ni pimpin dia sekejap, dan tanya "Kenapa u tutup mata? Bukak la mata tu so boleh kita jalan sama2?". Samwise jawap "I tak nampak la, bukan i tutup mata. I nak org pimpin." Iori jawap "U nampak la, cuba bukak mata tu, jom jalan sama2. Tengah terang ni ha. Then kita boleh sama2 pergi mana2". Samwise jawap lagi "I tak nampakla! U taknak pimpin i sudah!". Dia suruh Iori pergi. So Iori pun pergi.
Si Samwise ni jalan2 teraba2 dlm terang, kekadang terjumpa tangan orang, ada yang tepis, ada yang sambut. Yang sambut tu pimpin tangan dia kejap. Samwise tu seronok kena pimpin, seronok kena tarik ke sana sini. "Apa guna buka mata kalau dah ada orang pimpin?" Mungkin tu yg dia pikirkan. Ada orang yang rimas asik tolong pimpin dia aja. Ada yang nak pujuk dia suruh dia bukak mata dan tengok keadaan sekeliling yang sebenarnya cantik, tapi dia halau. So Samwise pun meraba2 dalam terang lagi dan lagi dan lagi, minta orang pimpin tangan dia, sapa2 yg lalu depan dia yang sanggup pimpin dia pun dia tak kisah, asalkan orang tu sanggup pimpin. Tak kira orang tu nak bawak ke mana, asalkan kena pimpin. Takda arah tujuan, padahal Samwise boleh buka mata tengok sapa yang pimpin dia dan arah mana yang nak dituju dan pilih dia nak pergi tempat tu ke tak. Samwise tengok dengan tangan dia aja. Dia tak pernah kenal sapa Qui-Gonn, sapa Iori. Dia tau Iori pernah bercakap dgn dia, dia tau Iori pernah pimpin dia, tapi dia taktau camana rupa Iori tu. Semua tu tak penting, dia nak kena pimpin aja, dan sebagai balasan, dia akan pegang tangan org tu dan takkan lepaskan. Sekarang dia kena pimpin dengan orang baru dalam 5 bulan, orang tu pun nak lepaskan tangan, atas sebab2 yang tak diketahui.
Motif? Moral?
Anyway, playlist minggu ni:
Cokelat - Jauh
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Kumelepasmu
Lingua - Bila Kuingat
Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
Andien - Tentang Aku
Andien - Menjelma
Reza - Cintakan Membuatmu Kembali
ADA Band - Manja
Peter Pan - Sahabat
Anita Sarawak - Perasaan
Azalea - Gemawan
Gerhana Skacinta - Antara Anyir Dan Jakarta
Samwise kena pimpin dengan sorang ni dekat 7 tahun, nama dia Qui-Gonn Jinn, kalau Qui-Gonn nak lepaskan tangan dia nanti dia tarik balik tangan Qui-Gonn. Samwise takut jalan sorang2 dalam gelap, pesal dia taknak bukak mata, dia tak percaya suasana sebenarnya terang. Ada sekali tu Samwise jumpa sorang ni, nama dia Iori, Iori ni pimpin dia sekejap, dan tanya "Kenapa u tutup mata? Bukak la mata tu so boleh kita jalan sama2?". Samwise jawap "I tak nampak la, bukan i tutup mata. I nak org pimpin." Iori jawap "U nampak la, cuba bukak mata tu, jom jalan sama2. Tengah terang ni ha. Then kita boleh sama2 pergi mana2". Samwise jawap lagi "I tak nampakla! U taknak pimpin i sudah!". Dia suruh Iori pergi. So Iori pun pergi.
Si Samwise ni jalan2 teraba2 dlm terang, kekadang terjumpa tangan orang, ada yang tepis, ada yang sambut. Yang sambut tu pimpin tangan dia kejap. Samwise tu seronok kena pimpin, seronok kena tarik ke sana sini. "Apa guna buka mata kalau dah ada orang pimpin?" Mungkin tu yg dia pikirkan. Ada orang yang rimas asik tolong pimpin dia aja. Ada yang nak pujuk dia suruh dia bukak mata dan tengok keadaan sekeliling yang sebenarnya cantik, tapi dia halau. So Samwise pun meraba2 dalam terang lagi dan lagi dan lagi, minta orang pimpin tangan dia, sapa2 yg lalu depan dia yang sanggup pimpin dia pun dia tak kisah, asalkan orang tu sanggup pimpin. Tak kira orang tu nak bawak ke mana, asalkan kena pimpin. Takda arah tujuan, padahal Samwise boleh buka mata tengok sapa yang pimpin dia dan arah mana yang nak dituju dan pilih dia nak pergi tempat tu ke tak. Samwise tengok dengan tangan dia aja. Dia tak pernah kenal sapa Qui-Gonn, sapa Iori. Dia tau Iori pernah bercakap dgn dia, dia tau Iori pernah pimpin dia, tapi dia taktau camana rupa Iori tu. Semua tu tak penting, dia nak kena pimpin aja, dan sebagai balasan, dia akan pegang tangan org tu dan takkan lepaskan. Sekarang dia kena pimpin dengan orang baru dalam 5 bulan, orang tu pun nak lepaskan tangan, atas sebab2 yang tak diketahui.
Motif? Moral?
Anyway, playlist minggu ni:
Cokelat - Jauh
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Kumelepasmu
Lingua - Bila Kuingat
Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
Andien - Tentang Aku
Andien - Menjelma
Reza - Cintakan Membuatmu Kembali
ADA Band - Manja
Peter Pan - Sahabat
Anita Sarawak - Perasaan
Azalea - Gemawan
Gerhana Skacinta - Antara Anyir Dan Jakarta
Monday, January 12, 2004
New MyChub Encounter Blog Feature !
Dear MyChub blog readers,
We have added a nifty commenting feature on the articles written in MyChub blogs so that you can also participate / join in the discussion !
Just click at the [comment] link, to express ur ideas about each blog post.
Remember! mychub blog is not just for telling ppl how great you are when meeting chubs or how good you are at flirting ! It is also a place to dicuss about the current issues about the chub & chaser community
Always be nice and respect others ! Lets us encourage rather than discourage !
Be positive and always look at the brighter side of life.
Coz gay in the dictionary means happy & joyfull, not sex occay!
Huggz
We have added a nifty commenting feature on the articles written in MyChub blogs so that you can also participate / join in the discussion !
Just click at the [comment] link, to express ur ideas about each blog post.
Remember! mychub blog is not just for telling ppl how great you are when meeting chubs or how good you are at flirting ! It is also a place to dicuss about the current issues about the chub & chaser community
Always be nice and respect others ! Lets us encourage rather than discourage !
Be positive and always look at the brighter side of life.
Coz gay in the dictionary means happy & joyfull, not sex occay!
Huggz
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
New Year
Went to Bukit Bintang around 4pm, to avoid the massive traffic jam I'd expect since they're closing some roads for the celebration. Called some that I know and got the expected answer "Errr... tak taulah lepak mana, tanya ". So I hanged out with BaronCaffeine, ate the famous Nasi Ayam Hailam, and went all over Bukit Bintang to look for budget hotel but couldn't find any (we're planning to go clubbing until morning, and concluded that we won't have the energy to drive back home).
Went to bleu. Less than 30 ppl before countdown (I think!). Apparently they all went to see the fireworks at KLCC before coming in. Then suddenly the place was packed. Cover charge was RM20 before 11pm, and RM25 afterwards. Last year I went to Nouvo to see Jakatta the DJ, cover charge was RM60 but worth every cent as he played really really nice stuff (American Dream, Ever So Lonely and others I dont know).
The mood at bleu was the same, except that I think everyone smiled more. The song playlist was the same, I expected more since it's New Year and probably the DJ would want to bring some changes. Oh well... one can only hope... No new chubs in sight, except for one from Belgium, I think. Contrary to popular belief, he DID NOT smell like chocolate.
Current playlist:
1. Missy Elliot - Pass That Dutch
2. Timbaland - Indian Flute
3. Baby Bash - Suga Suga
4. Mandalay - Beautiful
5. Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
6. Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
7. Josh Groban - You're Still You
8. Tori Amos - Love Song
Went to bleu. Less than 30 ppl before countdown (I think!). Apparently they all went to see the fireworks at KLCC before coming in. Then suddenly the place was packed. Cover charge was RM20 before 11pm, and RM25 afterwards. Last year I went to Nouvo to see Jakatta the DJ, cover charge was RM60 but worth every cent as he played really really nice stuff (American Dream, Ever So Lonely and others I dont know).
The mood at bleu was the same, except that I think everyone smiled more. The song playlist was the same, I expected more since it's New Year and probably the DJ would want to bring some changes. Oh well... one can only hope... No new chubs in sight, except for one from Belgium, I think. Contrary to popular belief, he DID NOT smell like chocolate.
Current playlist:
1. Missy Elliot - Pass That Dutch
2. Timbaland - Indian Flute
3. Baby Bash - Suga Suga
4. Mandalay - Beautiful
5. Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
6. Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
7. Josh Groban - You're Still You
8. Tori Amos - Love Song
Thursday, January 01, 2004
Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year
Finally, MyChub has gone through another eventful year! We never thought that it would come this far. Without the help and support of you - our patrons, would would never thought that we would have done it either.
MyChub's new year resolution this year is to make our ever expanding services continues to cater to the chub & chasers throughout malaysia and beyond. And we shall continue to make ground breaking innovations / pioneering advancement to make your life better.
To all our beloved readers, have a merry little christmas and a joyous New Year!
May you all be blessed with happiness and prosperity !
Lets us give full support to this little chub club that dared to dream and make it happen!
Huggss
MyChub's new year resolution this year is to make our ever expanding services continues to cater to the chub & chasers throughout malaysia and beyond. And we shall continue to make ground breaking innovations / pioneering advancement to make your life better.
To all our beloved readers, have a merry little christmas and a joyous New Year!
May you all be blessed with happiness and prosperity !
Lets us give full support to this little chub club that dared to dream and make it happen!
Huggss
Friday, December 26, 2003
A MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!
Hi...Just a short note to say to all who celebrate Christmas I hope you had a great christmas celebration. Also to everybody out there, I hope you have a good and great new year and may all your dreams and wishes come true!
Friday, November 28, 2003
Some people tries to be cute.. but then, some people are born cute !!!
Beberapa hari sebelum Raya, moks telah dijemput ke rumah seorang kawan lama. Bukan apa, saja nak menziarah sebelum dia balik ke kampung. Moks pon dah lama tak pergi rumah dia.. dah dekat 2 tahun dah.
Actually, kawan moks ajak suruh tengok2 kan komputernya yang rosak. So, moks pon setuju aja tanpa banyak soal.
Sesampainya moks dirumah. Moks ternampaklah Abang iparnya yang sangattt cute. Chubby Daddy type.. siap kumis goatee yang nipis. Kulit putih melepak. Rambut ala2 beruban sikit. Muka senyum meleret. Dia memakai baju melayu dan kain pelikat. Isskk rasa macam nak terkam dan peluk je on the spot.
Lagi cair, daddy ni pulak ala2 manja.. ala2 childish. Very approachable and friendly. Entah camana, there is a chemistry. Abang Ipar dia ni plak tetiba jadi restless, asyik2 nak lepak ngan kita orang je. Dah ler tu.. asyik dok keluar-masuk bilik kawan moks...
"Nanti lepas you tengok komputer tu.. meh tengok komputer I pulak.. ada kat dalam bilik I"
"Err... bolehhh" (tapi.. apa motif daddy tu nak ajak masuk bilik dia.. angkat laptop tu datang sini tak leh ke ?)
"Laptop I ni banyak problem.. I nak pasang banyak barang"
Start dari situ, Daddy ni dah mula kasi hint. Ada beberapa pekara yang daddy ni kasi 'clue' yang amat mencurigakan. Antara hint yang dapat moks tangkap semasa perbualan kami adalah:-
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"Semenjak i pencen ni.. I ada banyak masa." (Dlm erti kata lain.. I'm always free and available)
"Kalau u free datang la lagi ke rumah.. kita leh main-main komputer" (dlm erti kata lain... nanti bila wife I pegi kerja, bole la kita main-main bersama) p/s: statement ini diulang beberapa kali sepanjang perbualan.
"Semenjak dua menjak ni, I banyak buka puasa kat hotel.. dua malam lepas kat Sheraton, lepas tu kat Istana then semalam kat Equitorial" (dlm erti kata lain... kalu you nak ajak I tido hotel 5 star pon bole juga.. i mampu spedoo you !)
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Moks pon cuba la korek skit info dengan kawan moks tu pasal abg ipar dia. Banyak maklumat berguna yang moks dapat...
1. Abang ipar dia tu kawin lambat.. umur 30-an baru kawin. Skrg umur 50-an anak baru 2.. kecik2 skolah lagi. (maybe PLU ni)
2. Bini dia plak chub.. (ader chance chub4chub ni)
3. Kawan moks cakap, dia kasi layanan special hanya untuk chub2 aje.. kalu kawan dia yg slim datang.. abg ipar dia buat tak layan (confirmmmm!!)
So malam besok, moks dapat invitation lagi berbuka puasa ngan diaorang. Tengok la camana daddy tu kasi respon lagi. Kalu berjaya.. tambah la lagi sorang sugar daddy moks.. hehehhehe.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
eid
budak gemuk pasang pelita,
terbakar tetek kena tutup dengan pinggan,
maaf zahir batin saya pinta,
selamat hari raya saya ucapkan.
wishing y'all happy eid mubarak.
terbakar tetek kena tutup dengan pinggan,
maaf zahir batin saya pinta,
selamat hari raya saya ucapkan.
wishing y'all happy eid mubarak.
Thursday, October 30, 2003
...of birthdays, bears & book of laws
Happy belated birthday to me. Damn! I'm into the Big Three Oh. Age ain't nothing but a number, Aaliyah said. But she's already gone!! She will always be 22!! Then again, I have to take her words for it, I like her THAT much. Oh yeah, happy belated birthday BaronCaffeine.
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Aku balik kampung minggu lepas pesal ada kenduri. Jumpa kawan chatter lama jap. Seorang manusia menyerupai beruang yg baru shaved, agak buncit tapi dada dia lagi besar, pinggang ala2 muat dipeluk, rambut pendek lurus sikat tepi, gigi putih kecik2, bulu roma tangan agak halus dalam 17-21 helai seinci persegi, punggung bulat, bau wangi melebihi bau lemak, cakap banyak. Just the way I like them. ARGHH!! Cutenya!!
Dia bawak jln2 kat bandar, pesal aku tak reti sgt jln2 ni. Lepak kat Singgah Selalu. Happening gak. Borak2 je dekat 2jam sambil perati org dan sekali-sekala main teka-teki 'Sapa PLU kat sini? Mamat rock dgn mamat pakai baju ketat tu couple ke? Wragghhhkahkahkah!!'. Dia dah ada boyfren. Ahh! The good ones are always taken, there are only leftovers. Hahahah, mesti aku kena laserz kalau ada org yg berkenaan baca statement tadi tu. Dia percayakan long distance relationship. Dia ingatkan aku kat Elaine dalam citer Ally McBeal, very der optimist. Dia buat aku enjoy makan banana split sejuk2 tgh malam kat restoran baru tu. Dia suka Ning Baizura. Dia suka Antara Mungkin Dan Curiga. Aku bagi dia dengar Hazami Keabadian Cinta pun dia suka gak. Tapi masa dah cukup, aku taknak balik lagi tapi ala2 terpaksa.
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Jumpa kawan lama gak minggu ni. Chub, smooth, misai dan goatee, suka diamond. Dia dah ada boyfren. Slim. Bagusle. Dia kata boyfren dia caring, sebab selalu telepon dan sms tanya khabar. Dan dia rasa boyfren dia serious nak rapat lepas boyfren dia selalu telepon dan tanya khabar masa dia demam 3 hari. Aku terpikir something yg dia cakap. Kalau dia tak demam dan boyfren dia tak telepon adake maknanya boyfren dia tak serius? So, dia cuma perasan boyfren dia serious pesal dia sakit, so kalau dia tak sakit dia tak perasan ke boyfren dia nak serious? So, pesal boyfren dia je yang tau dia sakit then adake maknanya orang yg tak tau dia sakit pesal diaorg tak telepon tu tak amik berat?
Sekali lagi, norma2 hidup yg tetiba jadik undang-undang ekk? Ala2 kalau dapat sms kena jawap cepat2, kalau tak orang marah... hehehe
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Aku balik kampung minggu lepas pesal ada kenduri. Jumpa kawan chatter lama jap. Seorang manusia menyerupai beruang yg baru shaved, agak buncit tapi dada dia lagi besar, pinggang ala2 muat dipeluk, rambut pendek lurus sikat tepi, gigi putih kecik2, bulu roma tangan agak halus dalam 17-21 helai seinci persegi, punggung bulat, bau wangi melebihi bau lemak, cakap banyak. Just the way I like them. ARGHH!! Cutenya!!
Dia bawak jln2 kat bandar, pesal aku tak reti sgt jln2 ni. Lepak kat Singgah Selalu. Happening gak. Borak2 je dekat 2jam sambil perati org dan sekali-sekala main teka-teki 'Sapa PLU kat sini? Mamat rock dgn mamat pakai baju ketat tu couple ke? Wragghhhkahkahkah!!'. Dia dah ada boyfren. Ahh! The good ones are always taken, there are only leftovers. Hahahah, mesti aku kena laserz kalau ada org yg berkenaan baca statement tadi tu. Dia percayakan long distance relationship. Dia ingatkan aku kat Elaine dalam citer Ally McBeal, very der optimist. Dia buat aku enjoy makan banana split sejuk2 tgh malam kat restoran baru tu. Dia suka Ning Baizura. Dia suka Antara Mungkin Dan Curiga. Aku bagi dia dengar Hazami Keabadian Cinta pun dia suka gak. Tapi masa dah cukup, aku taknak balik lagi tapi ala2 terpaksa.
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Jumpa kawan lama gak minggu ni. Chub, smooth, misai dan goatee, suka diamond. Dia dah ada boyfren. Slim. Bagusle. Dia kata boyfren dia caring, sebab selalu telepon dan sms tanya khabar. Dan dia rasa boyfren dia serious nak rapat lepas boyfren dia selalu telepon dan tanya khabar masa dia demam 3 hari. Aku terpikir something yg dia cakap. Kalau dia tak demam dan boyfren dia tak telepon adake maknanya boyfren dia tak serius? So, dia cuma perasan boyfren dia serious pesal dia sakit, so kalau dia tak sakit dia tak perasan ke boyfren dia nak serious? So, pesal boyfren dia je yang tau dia sakit then adake maknanya orang yg tak tau dia sakit pesal diaorg tak telepon tu tak amik berat?
Sekali lagi, norma2 hidup yg tetiba jadik undang-undang ekk? Ala2 kalau dapat sms kena jawap cepat2, kalau tak orang marah... hehehe
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
Pertemuan yang tak diduga...
Tadi masa moks tengah lepak2 kat opis. Ada orang ketuk pintu. Moks pon pandang la kearah pintu. Tetiba je jantung moks berdebar. Di muka pintu tu, terpancul susuk tubuh seorang chub. Tergamam sekejap... cutenyerrrr dierrrrrr. Very chub... entah chub mana pulak sesat kat opis moks ari ni. Dia muda lagi.. dalam lingkungan 25 keatas. Tinggi dalam 172cm berat dalam 120kg. Waist size dalam 44 - 48. Perghhh... dunia rasa macam berhenti kejap... macam ada chemistry.. terasa ada kejutan elektrik.
"Yer.. nak apa ?" .. dengan stail machonyer bertanya (tak boleh pechah lobang.. kena la gaya abang-abang). "Err.. saya dari Syarikat XYZ, ada kawan saya kata encik nak order quotation dari syarikat kami.
Dia pun menghulur business cardnya. Mata kami saling memandang... tak berkelip lansung. Moks mempersilakannya duduk dan pada masa yang sama, moks jeling-jeling la kat celah kangkangnya tu.. wow.. boleh tahan jugak ni. Perutnya memboyot ke depan. Rasanya dia perasan moks dok asyik pandang kearah perut, dia cuba membetulkan bajunya yang sememangnya ketat di bahagian pinggang tu. Kami pun memulakan perbualan dan moks mula perasan, matanya tak berganjak memandang tajam kearah moks. Business trick ni kot.. nak tengok response pelanggan.
"Macam ni. Saya nak order ... bla bla bla" Dekat 15 minit moks membebel. Herannya.. dia tak tulis pon apa moks nak.. Macam terkaku. Eye contact tak pernah putus. Hmm... ada respon agaknya.
"Ehh... awak tulis tak apa saya nak tadi...?"
"Tak apa.. saya boleh ingat." Barulah tangannya tergopoh-gapah nak mencari pen dan kertas.
"Err.. apa yang encik nak order tadi ?"
Moks pon ulang sekali lagi apa yang moks nak. Dia mula menulis dengan khuyuk. Kebetulan pulak, digital cam moks ada atas meja time tu. Apa lagi.. sambil rancak berbual. Tangan moks dok sebok memicit picu digi cam. Boleh la buat modal time-time kemaruk nanti.
Di tengah-tengah perbualan. Tiba.. tiba dia mengacukan soalan yang tak diduga.
"Maaf ya.. muka Encik ni memang nampak familar".. (Aiseh... ini macam ayat ayat budak all boys SBP nie)
"awak pun macam familiar.. tapi kat mana pernah jumpa ye"
"Rasa macam pernah nampak... encik ni grad dari UTM ke ?" (dlm hati moks... eleh kot kot dah ter-chat kat chennel #mychubs dan siap tukar-tukar face-pic lagie.. bole buat-buat tak kenal)
"Tak la... saya bukan dari sana"
"Tapi betul la.. muka encik ni very familar, sejak dari saya masuk tadi saya cuba nak ingat kat mana kita pernah jumpa."
"Hehhehe.. saya pun rasa kita pernah jumpa. Kalau nak berkenalan dengan lebih dekat pun tak apa." (hints .. hints)
"Encik ada business card tak .. atau contact number ke.. nanti kalau saya free boleh contact encik."
"Ehh.. tak de la.. card saya dah habis" moks sengaja tak kasi business card moks.. sebaliknya, moks capai kertas dan tulis my personal contacts. Moks dah paham.. ni musti nak ngayat ni.
"Ok lah, kalau encik moks perlukan apa-apa, jangan segan-segan nak contact saya..."
"Okay.. no problem"
"Kalau ada masa nanti.. saya nak belanja makan dinner ke.. bole kan?".. wahhh nak ajak dinner date ghietuu..
'Boleehhhhhhhhhh" kalu orang nak belanja moks.. mesti nak punyerr.. apatahlagi kalau chub.
Sambil salam tu.. moks genggam kuat-kuat tangannya. Nak kasi hint sket lagie.
Nanti weekend ni ingat nak call dia balik.. nak ajak keluar sambil mengenali dengan lebih dekat, pertemuan kat opis ni terlampau formal... tapi moks agak dia akan call moks dulu.. hehehhe.. it's just a gut feeling.
Hik hik hik.. seronok gaks ada encounter camni. Anyway utk pembaca sumer.. kena la pandai "read between the lines". Encounter bole terjadi dimana-mana sahaja.. pada waktu yang kita sendiri tak terduga.
Happy Deepavali !!!
P/S:(susulan dihari besoknya)
Dia call gak moks ari ni.. yahoooo.
Pastu siap kasi e-mail lagi:
> Maaf kerana tak dapat jumpa En. Moks (bukan nama sebenar ya) hari ini. Sebab petang ni
> saya ada meeting penting. Besok pula nak pergi out-station, jadi kemungkinan besar
> saya tak ada selama beberapa minggu. En. Moks masih bujang ke ? Kalau bujang, boleh
> ke jumpa malam ni ? Dinner ke ? Ada beberapa pekara penting yang saya nak finalize
> sebelum saya nak submit proposal ni.
> Call saya nanti untuk confirm.
"Yer.. nak apa ?" .. dengan stail machonyer bertanya (tak boleh pechah lobang.. kena la gaya abang-abang). "Err.. saya dari Syarikat XYZ, ada kawan saya kata encik nak order quotation dari syarikat kami.
Dia pun menghulur business cardnya. Mata kami saling memandang... tak berkelip lansung. Moks mempersilakannya duduk dan pada masa yang sama, moks jeling-jeling la kat celah kangkangnya tu.. wow.. boleh tahan jugak ni. Perutnya memboyot ke depan. Rasanya dia perasan moks dok asyik pandang kearah perut, dia cuba membetulkan bajunya yang sememangnya ketat di bahagian pinggang tu. Kami pun memulakan perbualan dan moks mula perasan, matanya tak berganjak memandang tajam kearah moks. Business trick ni kot.. nak tengok response pelanggan.
"Macam ni. Saya nak order ... bla bla bla" Dekat 15 minit moks membebel. Herannya.. dia tak tulis pon apa moks nak.. Macam terkaku. Eye contact tak pernah putus. Hmm... ada respon agaknya.
"Ehh... awak tulis tak apa saya nak tadi...?"
"Tak apa.. saya boleh ingat." Barulah tangannya tergopoh-gapah nak mencari pen dan kertas.
"Err.. apa yang encik nak order tadi ?"
Moks pon ulang sekali lagi apa yang moks nak. Dia mula menulis dengan khuyuk. Kebetulan pulak, digital cam moks ada atas meja time tu. Apa lagi.. sambil rancak berbual. Tangan moks dok sebok memicit picu digi cam. Boleh la buat modal time-time kemaruk nanti.
Di tengah-tengah perbualan. Tiba.. tiba dia mengacukan soalan yang tak diduga.
"Maaf ya.. muka Encik ni memang nampak familar".. (Aiseh... ini macam ayat ayat budak all boys SBP nie)
"awak pun macam familiar.. tapi kat mana pernah jumpa ye"
"Rasa macam pernah nampak... encik ni grad dari UTM ke ?" (dlm hati moks... eleh kot kot dah ter-chat kat chennel #mychubs dan siap tukar-tukar face-pic lagie.. bole buat-buat tak kenal)
"Tak la... saya bukan dari sana"
"Tapi betul la.. muka encik ni very familar, sejak dari saya masuk tadi saya cuba nak ingat kat mana kita pernah jumpa."
"Hehhehe.. saya pun rasa kita pernah jumpa. Kalau nak berkenalan dengan lebih dekat pun tak apa." (hints .. hints)
"Encik ada business card tak .. atau contact number ke.. nanti kalau saya free boleh contact encik."
"Ehh.. tak de la.. card saya dah habis" moks sengaja tak kasi business card moks.. sebaliknya, moks capai kertas dan tulis my personal contacts. Moks dah paham.. ni musti nak ngayat ni.
"Ok lah, kalau encik moks perlukan apa-apa, jangan segan-segan nak contact saya..."
"Okay.. no problem"
"Kalau ada masa nanti.. saya nak belanja makan dinner ke.. bole kan?".. wahhh nak ajak dinner date ghietuu..
'Boleehhhhhhhhhh" kalu orang nak belanja moks.. mesti nak punyerr.. apatahlagi kalau chub.
Sambil salam tu.. moks genggam kuat-kuat tangannya. Nak kasi hint sket lagie.
Nanti weekend ni ingat nak call dia balik.. nak ajak keluar sambil mengenali dengan lebih dekat, pertemuan kat opis ni terlampau formal... tapi moks agak dia akan call moks dulu.. hehehhe.. it's just a gut feeling.
Hik hik hik.. seronok gaks ada encounter camni. Anyway utk pembaca sumer.. kena la pandai "read between the lines". Encounter bole terjadi dimana-mana sahaja.. pada waktu yang kita sendiri tak terduga.
Happy Deepavali !!!
P/S:(susulan dihari besoknya)
Dia call gak moks ari ni.. yahoooo.
Pastu siap kasi e-mail lagi:
> Maaf kerana tak dapat jumpa En. Moks (bukan nama sebenar ya) hari ini. Sebab petang ni
> saya ada meeting penting. Besok pula nak pergi out-station, jadi kemungkinan besar
> saya tak ada selama beberapa minggu. En. Moks masih bujang ke ? Kalau bujang, boleh
> ke jumpa malam ni ? Dinner ke ? Ada beberapa pekara penting yang saya nak finalize
> sebelum saya nak submit proposal ni.
> Call saya nanti untuk confirm.
Friday, October 10, 2003
MyChub Latest Projects...
Hi Guys, kali ni moks tak der nak citer pasal encounter. Tapi nak citer pasal projek-projek terbaru kat mychub website. Kalu y'all nak tau, ada banyak inovasi yang sedang berjalan dibelakang tabir website mychub ni. (iskk .. jangan berfikiran kotor sedara2 sekalian). Apa yang moks maksudkan ialah internet services.
Yang paling baru ialah linking Internet Radio dengan Gaydar UK. So skrg y'all bole lah mendengar lagu berunsur PLU sesambil melawat website mychub atau meng-chat di chatroom MyChubs. Hasil kreatif Jaze_Ipoh.
Disamping itu, kami juga sedang berkerja keras untuk membina RSS newsfeed (amende tuh.. ?? ) Well, RSS nie macam berita terbaru ala2 website berita harian / the star tapi mengenai berita Chub & Chaser dan boleh diletakkan di laman web peribadi sedara2 sekalian - ianya diupdate secara otomatis. Diusahakan oleh GemuKChub
Selain itu, kami juga sedang dalam bergiat dalam pembinaan servis baru iaitu MyResipi - satu ruangan untuk berkongsi maklumat mengenai pemakanan yang sihat dan pada waktu yang sama boleh membina perut .. hehehe. Diusahakan oleh Mashimaro
Pada masa yang sama kami juga sedang membina skrip IRC untuk OP di channel MyChubs. Add-on terbaru skrip MyChub2003 bole didownload dari website. Hasil usaha Nightshiver.
Akhir sekali, terdapat beberapa projek Multimedia Flash yang sedang berjalan untuk Intro website dan juga MyCard Greetings dibawah pengawasan Ali-SetanKL.
So, kalau y'all berminat nak menyumbang idea/hasil kerja kreatif dalam bidang2 yang disebutkan tadi... sila lah e-mail kepada : mychub@time.net.my
"Bersama menyumbang untuk komuniti Chub & Chaser"
Peace Broder !!!!
Yang paling baru ialah linking Internet Radio dengan Gaydar UK. So skrg y'all bole lah mendengar lagu berunsur PLU sesambil melawat website mychub atau meng-chat di chatroom MyChubs. Hasil kreatif Jaze_Ipoh.
Disamping itu, kami juga sedang berkerja keras untuk membina RSS newsfeed (amende tuh.. ?? ) Well, RSS nie macam berita terbaru ala2 website berita harian / the star tapi mengenai berita Chub & Chaser dan boleh diletakkan di laman web peribadi sedara2 sekalian - ianya diupdate secara otomatis. Diusahakan oleh GemuKChub
Selain itu, kami juga sedang dalam bergiat dalam pembinaan servis baru iaitu MyResipi - satu ruangan untuk berkongsi maklumat mengenai pemakanan yang sihat dan pada waktu yang sama boleh membina perut .. hehehe. Diusahakan oleh Mashimaro
Pada masa yang sama kami juga sedang membina skrip IRC untuk OP di channel MyChubs. Add-on terbaru skrip MyChub2003 bole didownload dari website. Hasil usaha Nightshiver.
Akhir sekali, terdapat beberapa projek Multimedia Flash yang sedang berjalan untuk Intro website dan juga MyCard Greetings dibawah pengawasan Ali-SetanKL.
So, kalau y'all berminat nak menyumbang idea/hasil kerja kreatif dalam bidang2 yang disebutkan tadi... sila lah e-mail kepada : mychub@time.net.my
"Bersama menyumbang untuk komuniti Chub & Chaser"
Peace Broder !!!!
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
Salam Sayang...
Hi rakan-rakan dan adik-adik semua! mashimaro kembali lagi dalam rancangan…Joe Jambullllll!!! oppss…Ben jgn marah yerk…gurau jerk!ahaks.
Hi Semua…Buat pertama-tama kalinya saya diberi peluang utk menulis didalam ruangan Blogger Mychub ini. Terasa bosan pulak asyik berchatting jerk,nak jugak curahkan citer kat Blogger ni…ghituee…
Mungkin ada yg dah tahu kan yg saya masuk hospital aritu sebab buat pembedahan mata.Anyway saya dah semakin beransur pulih. Takder apa sangat pengalaman selama 2 minggu lebih kat wad cuma meluat jerk dgn gelagat beberapa orang Nurse yg agak 'getikz’ dan 'gedik’ ditahap maksima!Doktor2 semua ok dan friendly.
Terima kasihlah kepada teman-teman yg sudi dtg melawat saya kat hospital aritu Nanti kalau korang ‘termasuk’ hospital aku pi melawat pulak yerk…hehehe. Especially to my bf yg tersayang sbb really take care of me, love u kebabz! ahaks.
Hari ni saya nak ler citer sikit tentang hal ehwal memaki hamun orang! Adalah sekali tu gambar saya telah terpampang di front page website Mychub (ala2 jadik cover ghitue..). Semua ni hasil usaha kreatif GemukChub!hahaha.
Lepas pic tu kluar, adalah sorang dua umat ni yg ntah ler apsal tak puas hati dgn saya tetiba jerk send msg dan sms dlm website Mychub dan memaki hamun saya dgn kata2 yg agak kesat. Well,kalau tak puas hati dgn org toksah ler selindung2…ni tidak,dah ler letak nama palsu pastu dok maki2 saya pulak! Getikz sangat perbuatan tu! kalau berani tampilkan lah diri yg sebenar! Sesedap rasa jerk nak ngata org!Dasar penakut, ngata belakang jer buat per!!!
Oklah saya bukan marah pon, okjerk..no hal ler!nak pesan sikit kat org yg maki2 saya tu, pls ler cermin muka tu sikit sebelum nak ngata org! Sesungguhnya kita benci seseorang itu, tak perlulah memberitahu semua orang. Lets keep it to ourselves, tak payah membuka keaiban orang lain lah. Kalau dah rasa diri tu ‘gila’, pls jgn nak libatkan org lain! Dasar getikz & gedikz yg spastik!!! Kata pepatah orang putih, "All chubs are grey in the dark!", what goes around comes around....
Hmm..sorry yerk semua..ter’over’ emosi pulak, geram siott!!
Ok, tu saja utk kali ini, sampai ketemu di lain cerita. Bubyeee..
Vote for Nana!!!…………..hehe
Hi Semua…Buat pertama-tama kalinya saya diberi peluang utk menulis didalam ruangan Blogger Mychub ini. Terasa bosan pulak asyik berchatting jerk,nak jugak curahkan citer kat Blogger ni…ghituee…
Mungkin ada yg dah tahu kan yg saya masuk hospital aritu sebab buat pembedahan mata.Anyway saya dah semakin beransur pulih. Takder apa sangat pengalaman selama 2 minggu lebih kat wad cuma meluat jerk dgn gelagat beberapa orang Nurse yg agak 'getikz’ dan 'gedik’ ditahap maksima!Doktor2 semua ok dan friendly.
Terima kasihlah kepada teman-teman yg sudi dtg melawat saya kat hospital aritu Nanti kalau korang ‘termasuk’ hospital aku pi melawat pulak yerk…hehehe. Especially to my bf yg tersayang sbb really take care of me, love u kebabz! ahaks.
Hari ni saya nak ler citer sikit tentang hal ehwal memaki hamun orang! Adalah sekali tu gambar saya telah terpampang di front page website Mychub (ala2 jadik cover ghitue..). Semua ni hasil usaha kreatif GemukChub!hahaha.
Lepas pic tu kluar, adalah sorang dua umat ni yg ntah ler apsal tak puas hati dgn saya tetiba jerk send msg dan sms dlm website Mychub dan memaki hamun saya dgn kata2 yg agak kesat. Well,kalau tak puas hati dgn org toksah ler selindung2…ni tidak,dah ler letak nama palsu pastu dok maki2 saya pulak! Getikz sangat perbuatan tu! kalau berani tampilkan lah diri yg sebenar! Sesedap rasa jerk nak ngata org!Dasar penakut, ngata belakang jer buat per!!!
Oklah saya bukan marah pon, okjerk..no hal ler!nak pesan sikit kat org yg maki2 saya tu, pls ler cermin muka tu sikit sebelum nak ngata org! Sesungguhnya kita benci seseorang itu, tak perlulah memberitahu semua orang. Lets keep it to ourselves, tak payah membuka keaiban orang lain lah. Kalau dah rasa diri tu ‘gila’, pls jgn nak libatkan org lain! Dasar getikz & gedikz yg spastik!!! Kata pepatah orang putih, "All chubs are grey in the dark!", what goes around comes around....
Hmm..sorry yerk semua..ter’over’ emosi pulak, geram siott!!
Ok, tu saja utk kali ini, sampai ketemu di lain cerita. Bubyeee..
Vote for Nana!!!…………..hehe
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
AN ENCOUNTER!
Hi! Apa khabar semua? Harap semua baik. Well i chatted with this guy on gay.com/chat. He is pretty nice and from KL. We have been chatting and also SMS each other and sekali-sekali call. Well from his photo, you will not guess his real self.
I went to KL over the weekend and took the opportunity to meet him. We made appointment to meet Saturday. But last minute he was working as he had a dateline to meet for his work. So, I told him not to worry. He called me around 8 at night. He asked to meet for dinner. He even came to my hotel to meet me. Wow, I was shocked to see him as I entered his car! His picture showed me that he was not so big. But he was. My taste! Anyway, I act cool.
We had good dinner and long chat! He sent me back at about 11 or so. I understand kepenatan! I would say he is 1.7m, and weigh 120 kg. He asked me to call him again and hopefully things will be better when I go to KL the next time. Looking forward to that! And anotehr meeting!
I went to KL over the weekend and took the opportunity to meet him. We made appointment to meet Saturday. But last minute he was working as he had a dateline to meet for his work. So, I told him not to worry. He called me around 8 at night. He asked to meet for dinner. He even came to my hotel to meet me. Wow, I was shocked to see him as I entered his car! His picture showed me that he was not so big. But he was. My taste! Anyway, I act cool.
We had good dinner and long chat! He sent me back at about 11 or so. I understand kepenatan! I would say he is 1.7m, and weigh 120 kg. He asked me to call him again and hopefully things will be better when I go to KL the next time. Looking forward to that! And anotehr meeting!
Wednesday, September 03, 2003
The Handphone...
It took me the longest time to write to this blogger nowadays. Not because I ran out of encounters but due to lack of time on my hands. Well.. this little incident I must share with all you dearest readers. It occured when was I was strolling along the TESCO shopping complex the other day. It was squirming with people. Especially during this Merdeka holiday weekend. There were lots of chubbies too. Small chubbies.. BIG Chubbies.. Cute Chubbies... all came "out of their shell" to welcome this festive occasion. So there I was, sitting inside at a corner of the KFC Restaurant. Looking at people passing by and scooping my 3rd helping scoop of Sara Lee's Vanilla Ice-Cream. When a cute chubby guy with goatee and moustache caught my eye. He was 5'8" in height, 112kg at least and jaw dropping smile that you couldn't resist. He was wearing dark polo shirt and a white trouses which shaped his butt nicely. The tight shirt wraps around his body jingles at the belly as he walks towards me.
"Excuse me... Could I ask you a favour" he asked...
"Sure... how can I help" I replied with a little bit of shock.
"Well it seems that I had lost my handphone.. do you have a handphone so that you could call mine ?"
Defiantly, I took my handphone from my pocket.. "Sooo.. what's ur number please.. "
"It's 012-XXX XXXX ... give it a few minutes to ring."... So I pressed the number on to my phone and waited.
It gave a couple of rings but nobody answered. After it seems a minute or two he said thank you and went his way.
I did not gave it a thought afterwards but continued to eat my ice-cream.
Later that night, a familiar number flashed on my handphone.
"Helloo..."
"Hi... Remember me the guys at TESCO ?"
"Oh yes.. I still do" .. feeling the nervousness in his voice.
"I just wanna thank you for the call.. I managed to find my handphone at last.. I missplaced it in my car actually"
"Oh issit ? I glad that you found it"
"Err... do you mind if we go out sometime tomorrow ?.. err.. as a token of gratitude."
"Okay.. but it's your treat.. so where do you want to meet ?"
"How about TESCO... same time and same place ?
"Okay.. see you there then.. bye"
"Byee.."
Duhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Did a cute chubby guy just ask me out ? I never thought that the handphone missing was a trick. But i admit it works. Anyway... wish me luck on this date. Who knows.. we might be sharing Ice-Cream from the same cup. To you guys out there.... there is life out there.. there is hope out there... u just need to be a part of it.
Happy Merdeka Fun
GemuKChub
"Excuse me... Could I ask you a favour" he asked...
"Sure... how can I help" I replied with a little bit of shock.
"Well it seems that I had lost my handphone.. do you have a handphone so that you could call mine ?"
Defiantly, I took my handphone from my pocket.. "Sooo.. what's ur number please.. "
"It's 012-XXX XXXX ... give it a few minutes to ring."... So I pressed the number on to my phone and waited.
It gave a couple of rings but nobody answered. After it seems a minute or two he said thank you and went his way.
I did not gave it a thought afterwards but continued to eat my ice-cream.
Later that night, a familiar number flashed on my handphone.
"Helloo..."
"Hi... Remember me the guys at TESCO ?"
"Oh yes.. I still do" .. feeling the nervousness in his voice.
"I just wanna thank you for the call.. I managed to find my handphone at last.. I missplaced it in my car actually"
"Oh issit ? I glad that you found it"
"Err... do you mind if we go out sometime tomorrow ?.. err.. as a token of gratitude."
"Okay.. but it's your treat.. so where do you want to meet ?"
"How about TESCO... same time and same place ?
"Okay.. see you there then.. bye"
"Byee.."
Duhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Did a cute chubby guy just ask me out ? I never thought that the handphone missing was a trick. But i admit it works. Anyway... wish me luck on this date. Who knows.. we might be sharing Ice-Cream from the same cup. To you guys out there.... there is life out there.. there is hope out there... u just need to be a part of it.
Happy Merdeka Fun
GemuKChub
Friday, August 08, 2003
My 2 cent
Interesting comments. At least I knew there are people who read it. Me and friends had a heated argument about being gay about 7-8 years ago, about whether it's 'nature vs nurture'. It came out in TIME magazine if I'm not mistaken, some gay professor from Harvard found some 'differences between hetero and homo brains'. But, I pick nurture. The idea of blaming my genes somehow does not appeal to me, it sort of give me the idea that I do not have control over my choices. Probably the same crap about having worker genes and leader genes. That's the summary, the whole argument shit was a lot nastier, which in the end, no one really wins.
I would say I'm turned on by personality, intelligence, success. I would say Marlon Brando as Don Vito Corleone in 'the Godfather' very sexy. The idea of a small man, soft spoken, kinda bubbly, but in total control of the families in New York is very very interesting. Just his personality, not his organised crime activities. The same probably goes with Dr Hannibal Lecter, played by Sir Anthony Hopkins. The idea that he commands so much, able to delve into other people's mind, that's like "WHOOOOOAAAHHH!!!".
What have I been up to these days? Weekly trip to Bleubar, screamed happily when they play Beyonce's Crazy In Love, and cursed when they play 'The Number One Song In Bleubar for the fucking 4th month Shanty and Marcell's Hanya Memuji'. Oh my God! That song was like a year plus ago! Perhaps I kinda take it too seriously, but I do believe DJs have a social responsibility to educate the crowd, probably by playing up-to-date songs, with the intention of keeping abreast with the current hits, and guide the not-so-lucky clubbers who probably don't have fast ISDN/ADSL/T3 internet connections to download all the latest hits. Somehow the songs are better on Fridays than on Saturdays, apparently the crowd on Saturdays have more 'youngsters', and they prefer 'Chiki Girls' to 'Destiny's Child'. Really?
I would say I'm turned on by personality, intelligence, success. I would say Marlon Brando as Don Vito Corleone in 'the Godfather' very sexy. The idea of a small man, soft spoken, kinda bubbly, but in total control of the families in New York is very very interesting. Just his personality, not his organised crime activities. The same probably goes with Dr Hannibal Lecter, played by Sir Anthony Hopkins. The idea that he commands so much, able to delve into other people's mind, that's like "WHOOOOOAAAHHH!!!".
What have I been up to these days? Weekly trip to Bleubar, screamed happily when they play Beyonce's Crazy In Love, and cursed when they play 'The Number One Song In Bleubar for the fucking 4th month Shanty and Marcell's Hanya Memuji'. Oh my God! That song was like a year plus ago! Perhaps I kinda take it too seriously, but I do believe DJs have a social responsibility to educate the crowd, probably by playing up-to-date songs, with the intention of keeping abreast with the current hits, and guide the not-so-lucky clubbers who probably don't have fast ISDN/ADSL/T3 internet connections to download all the latest hits. Somehow the songs are better on Fridays than on Saturdays, apparently the crowd on Saturdays have more 'youngsters', and they prefer 'Chiki Girls' to 'Destiny's Child'. Really?
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
MY VIEW!
Hi there, I just got reading the previous articles. Well to me, I knew I was different from others at the age of 13 or so. I was attracted to guys then. I found certain types of men interesting to look at and would always look at them. But at that time, I did not know what this is about.
It is only about 3 to 4 years later that I used to use shopping centre toilets. Of course, keluar lepak dengan kawan-kawan sekolah. It is then that I became aware of messages behind toilet doors. I used to ead as many as I can and imagine what was happening. Actually at 17, there was a few times that I was approached but I chickened out. Only at 19, did I dare enter a toilet and try out a quickie! But was not a good experience. I promised would not do it again but somehow it happens again and again. At 20 I got a girl friend. Was long term but did not work out as I felt she having a university degree versus me who did not would not work well. After that I went all out cruising. Believe you me, in the 5 years of our friendship, I can count that the maximum number of men I cruised was 5.
But tastes change. Before I was not at all attracted to chub guys. It is only hen I met a guy about 1987 and I realised what it was. Until today he and I are good friends. But he is in KL now. I think he is the one who has made me see chub guys in a different way now.
It is only about 3 to 4 years later that I used to use shopping centre toilets. Of course, keluar lepak dengan kawan-kawan sekolah. It is then that I became aware of messages behind toilet doors. I used to ead as many as I can and imagine what was happening. Actually at 17, there was a few times that I was approached but I chickened out. Only at 19, did I dare enter a toilet and try out a quickie! But was not a good experience. I promised would not do it again but somehow it happens again and again. At 20 I got a girl friend. Was long term but did not work out as I felt she having a university degree versus me who did not would not work well. After that I went all out cruising. Believe you me, in the 5 years of our friendship, I can count that the maximum number of men I cruised was 5.
But tastes change. Before I was not at all attracted to chub guys. It is only hen I met a guy about 1987 and I realised what it was. Until today he and I are good friends. But he is in KL now. I think he is the one who has made me see chub guys in a different way now.
Sunday, July 06, 2003
Friday, July 04, 2003
i havent written for quite some time, not that i was bz or something like that (I am eternally bz with work, anyway) it's just that i found that writing for this blog proved to be quite a hard challenge, not everyday we experienced encounters and not every day we resort into slutness. Anyway, what Raden Putra @ istante wrote made me want to share my 2 cents worth. lately i have been questioning my gayness and my situation as a chub with homosexual tendency. True, history and environment play a major part in making me decide to be what i am as applicable to 'Zul's' friend who were unfortunate enough to be mishandled by his own uncle hence evoke his decision to be what he is today. What I am trying to get at is this: is it the whole truth? is it because of one particular or maybe a series of episodes that led us to resort to our own likings? Many people will gladly tell you his story of why he become gay in the first place, but then to me, the story were purely made up (not imposing that the story/ies wasnt true or anything, it just that it did happen but it's probably not the REAL reason) The episodes or the stories simply strengthening it but it wasnt the CAUSE. My theory : we (plu and the like) are afraid of women, or we respect women too much or women simply too fucking hard to handle. So we find comfort in men and embrace them whenever we can. i will let this linger on your mind and i welcome any feedback before i finally present my case with deliberation and arguments.
regards
rozman
www.deadjournal.com/users/tristrandoe
regards
rozman
www.deadjournal.com/users/tristrandoe
Thursday, July 03, 2003
Ada member minta tolong letak dialog ni... Kot2 sesapa nak bagi komen dipersilakan, topik mungkin agak heavy.
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Knock! Knock! Aku ketuk pintu.
“Jap!” terdengar suara kat dalam bilik.
“Hi!”
“Huh?! Eh… hi… so betul ke aku ni orang yang ko nampak aritu?”
Aku cuma senyum. “Camana bleh tertidur? Apa ko buat arini?”
Dia menguap sekali. “Aku baru sampai. Penat siutt! Err… panggil aku Hari”
“Ok, panggil aku Zul.”
“Jap ekk… aku nak mandi jap” Dia pakai tuala dgn baju melayu masuk bilik air.
Aku lepak je kat katil, perati dinding dengan siling, kot2 ada lubang dan kamera tersembunyi. Paranoid betul aku.
Dia dah habis mandi, dan masih pakai tuala dgn baju melayu. Dan masih bulat dan gebu.
………………………………………………………….
Dia tidur terlentang, aku baring atas dada dia, mengadap muka dia.
“So, bila ko nak balik Penang?”
Dia tak jawap. “Macamana ko tau aku aritu? Ko ngendap aku chatting yer?”
“Ha’a. Aku lalu kat PC kau, aku nampak nama2 channel yg kau masuk. Heheh”
“Ko tau, aku panik giler masa kau tegur aku tu, tangan aku siap menggigil! Masa aku jalan ke luar tu pun menggeletar lagi! Aku ingat aku dah cover abis dah…”
“Ala… org yg tau mesti tau punyer… ko ada bagi satu renungan yg boleh diagak. Hehehehe…”
“Hmmm…abih tadi kau tak lari lak masa aku bukak pintu tadi?”
“Err? Napa kau cakap camtu? Kau penah kena ada org lari bila kau bukak pintu ke?”
“Takle… saja tanya. Mesti ramai chubby-chubby kat KL kau dah jumpa kan?”
“Wahhh!! Molottttt! Takda le… aku buat member jek! Lebih2 pun takda! Kalau dah kenal sebagai kawan aku buat jadi kawan aja…”
“Abih aku ni?”
“Err… dalam hal ni aku ni kira mangsa, kau goda aku suruh datang bilik kau… Hahahahah”
“Siutttttttttt!”
“Takle camtu. Aku ada unwritten rule kot, nak explain pun susah. Lain2 kali aja le. Kau citer le pesal kau, biar je aku baring atas dada kau ni…. Citer le apa2…Err, kau takda kutu kan? Hehehhe”
“Siutttttt! Heheh…”
“Hehehe.. ko perasan tak? Bila ko bercakap tetek ko ikut bergerak sekali. Hahahahah…”
“Woii!! Merapu je ko nih! Hehhehe… Eh! Ko tau, aku terjebak dalam dunia ni masa kecik."
"Duhh!! Isn't everyone?!"
"Citer aku panjang. Aku kena dengan uncle aku. Confuse, siut. Sanggup dia buat camtu kat budak2 yang tak tau apa2. Sakit. Aku menangis. Aku memang dendam dengan dia sampai sekarang. Sampai mati aku takkan maafkan dia."
"....."
"Aku grew up confused, marah kat diri sendiri. Aku taktau nak cakap kat sapa. Taktau nak mintak tolong kat sapa. Org2 kampung aku kenal dia sapa, kira org yg baik2 jugak, so mesti diaorg tak percaya dia buat macam tu. Akal budak kecik aku ni suruh aku makan banyak2, supaya badan aku besar, nanti aku boleh lawan dia balik, nanti aku boleh jaga adik2 aku kalau diaorg pulak kena kacau."
"....."
"Aku taktau apa diaorg pikir sampai sanggup buat camtu kat budak2 yang tak berakal. Tapi aku macam kena sumpah lak. Aku jatuh cinta dgn lelaki. Buat aku lagi confuse. Untung bebudak sekarang, diaorg byk tmpt nak luahkan perasaan."
"Bukan salah kau, beb... tu aja yg boleh aku cakap. Bukan nak offer comfort, aku tak pandai, tapi mmg bukan salah kau..."
(bersambung bila rajin...)
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Knock! Knock! Aku ketuk pintu.
“Jap!” terdengar suara kat dalam bilik.
“Hi!”
“Huh?! Eh… hi… so betul ke aku ni orang yang ko nampak aritu?”
Aku cuma senyum. “Camana bleh tertidur? Apa ko buat arini?”
Dia menguap sekali. “Aku baru sampai. Penat siutt! Err… panggil aku Hari”
“Ok, panggil aku Zul.”
“Jap ekk… aku nak mandi jap” Dia pakai tuala dgn baju melayu masuk bilik air.
Aku lepak je kat katil, perati dinding dengan siling, kot2 ada lubang dan kamera tersembunyi. Paranoid betul aku.
Dia dah habis mandi, dan masih pakai tuala dgn baju melayu. Dan masih bulat dan gebu.
………………………………………………………….
Dia tidur terlentang, aku baring atas dada dia, mengadap muka dia.
“So, bila ko nak balik Penang?”
Dia tak jawap. “Macamana ko tau aku aritu? Ko ngendap aku chatting yer?”
“Ha’a. Aku lalu kat PC kau, aku nampak nama2 channel yg kau masuk. Heheh”
“Ko tau, aku panik giler masa kau tegur aku tu, tangan aku siap menggigil! Masa aku jalan ke luar tu pun menggeletar lagi! Aku ingat aku dah cover abis dah…”
“Ala… org yg tau mesti tau punyer… ko ada bagi satu renungan yg boleh diagak. Hehehehe…”
“Hmmm…abih tadi kau tak lari lak masa aku bukak pintu tadi?”
“Err? Napa kau cakap camtu? Kau penah kena ada org lari bila kau bukak pintu ke?”
“Takle… saja tanya. Mesti ramai chubby-chubby kat KL kau dah jumpa kan?”
“Wahhh!! Molottttt! Takda le… aku buat member jek! Lebih2 pun takda! Kalau dah kenal sebagai kawan aku buat jadi kawan aja…”
“Abih aku ni?”
“Err… dalam hal ni aku ni kira mangsa, kau goda aku suruh datang bilik kau… Hahahahah”
“Siutttttttttt!”
“Takle camtu. Aku ada unwritten rule kot, nak explain pun susah. Lain2 kali aja le. Kau citer le pesal kau, biar je aku baring atas dada kau ni…. Citer le apa2…Err, kau takda kutu kan? Hehehhe”
“Siutttttt! Heheh…”
“Hehehe.. ko perasan tak? Bila ko bercakap tetek ko ikut bergerak sekali. Hahahahah…”
“Woii!! Merapu je ko nih! Hehhehe… Eh! Ko tau, aku terjebak dalam dunia ni masa kecik."
"Duhh!! Isn't everyone?!"
"Citer aku panjang. Aku kena dengan uncle aku. Confuse, siut. Sanggup dia buat camtu kat budak2 yang tak tau apa2. Sakit. Aku menangis. Aku memang dendam dengan dia sampai sekarang. Sampai mati aku takkan maafkan dia."
"....."
"Aku grew up confused, marah kat diri sendiri. Aku taktau nak cakap kat sapa. Taktau nak mintak tolong kat sapa. Org2 kampung aku kenal dia sapa, kira org yg baik2 jugak, so mesti diaorg tak percaya dia buat macam tu. Akal budak kecik aku ni suruh aku makan banyak2, supaya badan aku besar, nanti aku boleh lawan dia balik, nanti aku boleh jaga adik2 aku kalau diaorg pulak kena kacau."
"....."
"Aku taktau apa diaorg pikir sampai sanggup buat camtu kat budak2 yang tak berakal. Tapi aku macam kena sumpah lak. Aku jatuh cinta dgn lelaki. Buat aku lagi confuse. Untung bebudak sekarang, diaorg byk tmpt nak luahkan perasaan."
"Bukan salah kau, beb... tu aja yg boleh aku cakap. Bukan nak offer comfort, aku tak pandai, tapi mmg bukan salah kau..."
(bersambung bila rajin...)
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
6am. I felt too fuckin' tired to drive home, so I went to Tasik Permaisuri (how convenient, eh?!). Twas a long day, 'lepak' at bleu, watched the glittering show by glitters dot com, bitched about how everyone danced on the podium, and secretly thought that I would look worse. My my, people must think I'm such a desperado, coming there at 6, when people are about to go jogging. Oh well, all I wanted to do was to get a short nap. And I really really hope the slim guy in Planet Hollywood t-shirt wouldn't be there. I got a major shock the last time I saw him where suddenly I saw a face smiling near my car. Opps, make that eyes and teeth.
But it's too stuffy in the car, and I have no idea what else to listen to, tho I have literally thousands of songs, so, I got out of the car, lit a cigarette. But it's too bright at the parking lot! I gotta go somewhere darker, so that my mind can relax, and perhaps saw some activities, so I walked slowly into the park. Yeah yeah, create a reason to go inside, eh? I'm like so telling the truth... hehe
Saw some enthusiasts trying to catch some Flower Horn in the lake. Err, that ugly hybrid that's supposed to be bred in Malaysia? Why? Whatever... as long as everyone's happy. Oh my! It's actually darker in here! I can actually relax my mind here!! And they have chairs too!! Now why don't I sit down, smoke a few cigarettes and just be quiet.
"Hi! Apa khabar?"
"Er? Ok, khabar baik!" I replied
"Panggil aku Wan. Nkau?"
"Ok. Panggil aku Zul" (why Zul? I've no God-damned fucking idea why, but the name's familiar, so I used that name)
"Tak balik lagi? Dah pukul 6 dah ni." (Pointing at his watch)
(Huh! Jam Cartier ke?! Hiskk, napa tetiba aku jadi judgmental ni?)"Dah balik dah, saja datang balik, tertinggal molot, ni yg nak cari ni"
"Hehehehahahahahhhehehehehehehehehe. Awak ni kelakar lah!"
(Hmm, the transition from 'engkau' to 'awak'. Sesuatuh!! Makin lama makin lembut nih!) "Dok mana?"
"Er... er... er.... Ampang!"
(Aisey! Did u just make that up? Trust me, pumpkin, I don't care.)"Ok. Bagus tempat tu. Kat situ banyak TV warna dan klip kertas."
"Huh?!?! Apadia? Tak faham lah!"
"Heheheh... takda apa2...aku tgh boring, tu yang merapu tu. Jom jalan2 jap sedut udara segar."
Lyndon:
Hmm, mesti ko ni peminat cerita Ally McBeal kan? Yang bagusnya ko ni optimistic pesal life. Aku tak kenal ko tapi I don't find any reason for you to change becoz someone asks you to. Sort of you wouldn't be you anymore. Kata kawan aku, ala2 ikut konsep programming, ko dah tau apa silap, so betulkan le algorythm tu. Tapi emosi masuk campur, kan? Ko bukan mesin, ko manusia yg ada perasaan. Senang cakap daripada buat. Tapi cam kata kawan ko ler..you tak serik lagi ker?? Would it be that somehow deep inside, you're hoping that they're not as manupulative leech as they appear to be? Or the thought of being alone kinda scary? You already know the problem, you know what needs to be done. Good luck! And I believe you, he's out there somewhere...
But it's too stuffy in the car, and I have no idea what else to listen to, tho I have literally thousands of songs, so, I got out of the car, lit a cigarette. But it's too bright at the parking lot! I gotta go somewhere darker, so that my mind can relax, and perhaps saw some activities, so I walked slowly into the park. Yeah yeah, create a reason to go inside, eh? I'm like so telling the truth... hehe
Saw some enthusiasts trying to catch some Flower Horn in the lake. Err, that ugly hybrid that's supposed to be bred in Malaysia? Why? Whatever... as long as everyone's happy. Oh my! It's actually darker in here! I can actually relax my mind here!! And they have chairs too!! Now why don't I sit down, smoke a few cigarettes and just be quiet.
"Hi! Apa khabar?"
"Er? Ok, khabar baik!" I replied
"Panggil aku Wan. Nkau?"
"Ok. Panggil aku Zul" (why Zul? I've no God-damned fucking idea why, but the name's familiar, so I used that name)
"Tak balik lagi? Dah pukul 6 dah ni." (Pointing at his watch)
(Huh! Jam Cartier ke?! Hiskk, napa tetiba aku jadi judgmental ni?)"Dah balik dah, saja datang balik, tertinggal molot, ni yg nak cari ni"
"Hehehehahahahahhhehehehehehehehehe. Awak ni kelakar lah!"
(Hmm, the transition from 'engkau' to 'awak'. Sesuatuh!! Makin lama makin lembut nih!) "Dok mana?"
"Er... er... er.... Ampang!"
(Aisey! Did u just make that up? Trust me, pumpkin, I don't care.)"Ok. Bagus tempat tu. Kat situ banyak TV warna dan klip kertas."
"Huh?!?! Apadia? Tak faham lah!"
"Heheheh... takda apa2...aku tgh boring, tu yang merapu tu. Jom jalan2 jap sedut udara segar."
Lyndon:
Hmm, mesti ko ni peminat cerita Ally McBeal kan? Yang bagusnya ko ni optimistic pesal life. Aku tak kenal ko tapi I don't find any reason for you to change becoz someone asks you to. Sort of you wouldn't be you anymore. Kata kawan aku, ala2 ikut konsep programming, ko dah tau apa silap, so betulkan le algorythm tu. Tapi emosi masuk campur, kan? Ko bukan mesin, ko manusia yg ada perasaan. Senang cakap daripada buat. Tapi cam kata kawan ko ler..you tak serik lagi ker?? Would it be that somehow deep inside, you're hoping that they're not as manupulative leech as they appear to be? Or the thought of being alone kinda scary? You already know the problem, you know what needs to be done. Good luck! And I believe you, he's out there somewhere...
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