I got this from the internet. I've no idea whether this is true or not. Perhaps someone who has already started this program would like to enlighten me? Heheheheh. However, I'm guessing that this article is something out of 'Weekly World News' or 'Mingguan Misteri'...
Playlist these few weeks:
Goapele - Closer, Back To You
Marcell - Semusim, Pertama Kali
Siti Nurhaliza nyanyi lagu Dewa (live) - Cintakan Membawamu Kembali, Takkan Ada Cinta Yang Lain
George Michael - Amazing (Full Intention Club Mix)
Shanty - Takkan Habis, Persembahan Dari Hati
Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
Usher - Burn, You Got It Bad (feels like listening to it after watching Sweetest Thing on Astro)
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Wanking your way to weight loss
By Masuo Kamiyama
Contributing Writer
June 7, 2004
My gosh, nearly six months have gone by since the year-end party season, but you haven't done anything to trim off those excess pounds. As a result, your belt is running out of notches and your bottom is starting to sag over the edge of chairs at the restaurants where you stuff your face.
It's time, Dr. Hideo Yamanaka tells Weekly Playboy (June 15), for guys to start doing something about it. Yamanaka, director of the Toranomon-Hibiya Clinic, offers a weight reduction that he's convinced guarantees results.
Follow his "masturbation diet" regimen, and you'll soon be able to squeeze back into those hip-hugging jeans and impressing the gals with your svelte figure.
"Ejaculation raises the basic metabolism of muscles and consumes calories," the doctor says. "With fewer calories, subcutaneous fat is consumed, and making it easier to trim down.
"But," the doctor goes on, "there's no point in ordinary activity. An ordinary young person would have to do it 100 more times a month for it to have any effect."
Gosh, says Weekly Playboy. That's three times a day he's talking about.
"Actully more like four or five, if you're really serious," remarks Yamauchi. "For each 2 kilos of body weight, you'd need to squeeze out 2 liters of semen."
Gomesu Yamada, a journalist covering the pink trade, wags his head in agreement.
"It's hard enough just to spurt so often, but to get the full benefits of aerobic exercise, it's necessary for the process to be maintained for at least 15 minutes before ejaculation occurs. We have named this activity 'Onani-bics.' "
"Onani" a common Japanese term for masturbation refers to Onan, the Biblical figure who was destroyed for "spilling his seed on the ground."
Gomesu claims he has knowledge of people who have actually managed to slim down through a regular regimen of Onanibics.
"Guys who made their motto, 'At least one good tug a day' have managed to lose as much as 4 kilograms in a week," he grins.
Rather than indulge in boring generalizations, Weekly Playboy then lists the average pulse rates and calories consumed while combining masturbation with various forms of exercise. "Abdominal muscle onanism" (sit-ups), for example, if performed for 15 minutes, will consume 61 kilocalories; "back strength onanism" (reverse sit ups), just 22 kilocalories; push-ups, 95 kilocalories; deep knee squats, 89 kilocalories; pole climbing, 72 kilocalories; and so-called "Ona-hole jogging" (an activity obviously not for beginners), 204 kilocalories.
A tubby 55-year-old writer named Koyamamyama, who tips the scales at 100 kilograms, had an even better idea. Deciding he might as well have some fun in the process, he headed for red-light districts around he capital. First he dropped in at a porno video parlor in Shinjuku, where DVDs (and hand play) can be enjoyed in private viewing rooms (cost: 1,300 yen). His next stop was a peep show, where, again in a private cubicle, he could watch a young nude girl feign her own efforts at, er, weight reduction (admission: 2,000 yen). This was followed by a visit to an "image club," where the climax of the session included a climax (5,000 yen). After several other workout sessions in Ikebukuro and Ueno, he ended his session at a "roshutsu kurabu" (exposure club) in Shibuya, where, for a layout of 15,000 yen, a young lady joined him in a private cubicle, disrobed, and energetically masturbated herself to orgasm --- while he did the same.
These efforts during a total of four hours of sexual activities came to 43,800 yen, consumption tax included. Did they help? Slightly. Koyamamyama's weight declined from 104.2 kilograms to 102.6. His muscle-to-fat ratio improved from 31.2 percent to 31.8; and his overall body fat ratio fell 0.8 percent.
Well then, guys, how about it, exhorts Weekly Playboy. If you want to get in shape for this summer, then let's give it a good tug! Make that several tugs!
Thursday, June 10, 2004
Monday, May 31, 2004
Blog Photo System
A Chub Picture taken at KLIA.. Is he cute or what ?
Well.. this a just a test for the new photo blog system. So if you got any new chub photos you wanna share, you can post it here. Anyway, I'll be updating more pictures once I get back from my vacation in Sabah.
Monday, May 17, 2004
long diary... bored on Monday
14th May
Went to see Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam at KLCC with Harry, Hisham, Berudu, Shook and his new friend. Sundal betul movie tu. Had big expectations before watching the movie. "Ini cerita pontianak pertama selepas 30 tahun!" "Cerita ni gunakan banyak special effects!". Duhhhhhhh! Oh well, Maya Karin was very pretty though. And Berudu nearly jumped off his seat when he saw the scene with the chub-in-a-sarong who nearly got bitten by the Pontianak(Eng: Vampiress) from Madura.
15th May
Went to the workshop to get lubrication service and my car's timing belt changed. Was charged RM345. Damn!! There goes my stress relieving massage sessions. After that I went to Yow Chuan Plaza around 5.30pm to meet up with Hard, Ajeep, Ferhad and Teddy for a karaoke session. Stayed about 3 1/2 hours in there singing everything from Simply Red to Siti Nurhaliza. Teddy, who was pretty uncomfortable and shy at first, sang his heart out when he belted 'Anuar Zain - Jangan Bersedih Lagi' and 'Usher - U Got It Bad'. The karaoke theme that night might've been "You hurt me you f**king asshole, hear me cry!".
Went to Suzy's Corner at about 9pm at Jalan Ampang for dinner. The crowd was certainly for them c4s's eye-candy. Food was so-so. Service sucked. Cipan joined us later. They talked about a lot of Malaysian artists which I've no idea about, or know what they look like. I just listened. Hard tried to guess my preference as he pointed to everyone in the cafe whose BMI is over 28 and asked "Yang tu okay?". To which I replied "Susah nak cakapla... diaorg kena ada brain... hahahahah". Dari body naik ke otak then turun ke hati...
Went to Starbucks, KL Plaza at about 11pm for more gourmet coffee. Teddy went home to freshen up coz he's going to Bleu with Harry. I sat and quietly chatted with them as I know my intention to go there was not to oogle at people I could never get. Not that there weren't any chubs there. A pity no one brought their laptops as the Wi-fi speed is pretty fast.
The five of us hanged out there about an hour before moving on to 'Restoran Colour' or something... that cafe that's next to BB. Not many chubs there. Eyun and Zairy joined later at about 2am. They came back from RH's place in Ampang. Sat around till about 4am before they all went home.
Went to Taman Midah to meet up with Teddy and Harry to have breakfast. That was around 4.15am. They bitched about Bleubar's song selection (yeah, like what else is new!?) but complimented Glitters-dot-com's show. Apparently Kak Ju did another scary but hillarious 'hantu' show, that instead of throwing a doll at the others at the end of the song, she threw herself. Go figure...
We all went home at around 6am. Definitely a long day for me.
16th May
Woke up at around 3pm. I really love weekends. Eric called and wanted to come over for a drink around the lake. Had a chocolate with hazelnut syrup at San Francisco Coffee. Again, we like the surroundings and the view, and the intention to go there was not to oogle at people we could never get. He had Mocha Frappe and a plate of Chicken Rice. Very very nice people. I like chubs who're well dressed, enjoy life, clean cut, could talk about anything under the sun.. the likes. Hmm, despite what anyone might say, but 'first impression DOES count'.
We headed off to Briyani Gam Batu Pahat for dinner. Left at 9pm for another working dinner with officemates. Had home-cooked Japanese friend rice, tempura and sushi. Discussion ended at about 11.30pm. Went to Concorde Hotel, KL to have late supper buffet with Harry. Too many people, including a group of loud students or factory workers who're probably extending celebrating their annual dinner. But there're some nice dapper looking chubs around. Harry's having everything Asian while I opted only for a plate of Apple Pie a-la mode. I really ate too much today.
Was sick of listening to hip hop since it's played like 24 hours on MTV and Channel V. A friend who came back from Jakarta bought some CDs which I've been playing for the past 3 weeks. Harry will be leaving to Middle East next week for an ICT project. I told him people get clobbered with stones if 'caught in the act'. But perhaps it's a sign for him... I wish him farewell.
Marcell - Marcell (reminds me of Vince if Vince ever got nice catchy songs from composers)
The Groove - Hati-hati (still prefer their 1st album KuIngin. Btw, heard there's this Malaysian group called Groovejehat who's doing acid jazz like the Groove and have a similar set-up. And the leader is a bear.)
Shanty - Shanty (dance music, reminds me of Deanna Yusuf)
Agnes Monica - and the story goes (still listening to Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa)
Tere - Sebuah Harapan (yes!)
Audy - 2002 (ok)
Utopia - Utopia (still listening to Antara Ada Dan Tiada)
La Luna - (haven't really heard the album)
Went to see Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam at KLCC with Harry, Hisham, Berudu, Shook and his new friend. Sundal betul movie tu. Had big expectations before watching the movie. "Ini cerita pontianak pertama selepas 30 tahun!" "Cerita ni gunakan banyak special effects!". Duhhhhhhh! Oh well, Maya Karin was very pretty though. And Berudu nearly jumped off his seat when he saw the scene with the chub-in-a-sarong who nearly got bitten by the Pontianak(Eng: Vampiress) from Madura.
15th May
Went to the workshop to get lubrication service and my car's timing belt changed. Was charged RM345. Damn!! There goes my stress relieving massage sessions. After that I went to Yow Chuan Plaza around 5.30pm to meet up with Hard, Ajeep, Ferhad and Teddy for a karaoke session. Stayed about 3 1/2 hours in there singing everything from Simply Red to Siti Nurhaliza. Teddy, who was pretty uncomfortable and shy at first, sang his heart out when he belted 'Anuar Zain - Jangan Bersedih Lagi' and 'Usher - U Got It Bad'. The karaoke theme that night might've been "You hurt me you f**king asshole, hear me cry!".
Went to Suzy's Corner at about 9pm at Jalan Ampang for dinner. The crowd was certainly for them c4s's eye-candy. Food was so-so. Service sucked. Cipan joined us later. They talked about a lot of Malaysian artists which I've no idea about, or know what they look like. I just listened. Hard tried to guess my preference as he pointed to everyone in the cafe whose BMI is over 28 and asked "Yang tu okay?". To which I replied "Susah nak cakapla... diaorg kena ada brain... hahahahah". Dari body naik ke otak then turun ke hati...
Went to Starbucks, KL Plaza at about 11pm for more gourmet coffee. Teddy went home to freshen up coz he's going to Bleu with Harry. I sat and quietly chatted with them as I know my intention to go there was not to oogle at people I could never get. Not that there weren't any chubs there. A pity no one brought their laptops as the Wi-fi speed is pretty fast.
The five of us hanged out there about an hour before moving on to 'Restoran Colour' or something... that cafe that's next to BB. Not many chubs there. Eyun and Zairy joined later at about 2am. They came back from RH's place in Ampang. Sat around till about 4am before they all went home.
Went to Taman Midah to meet up with Teddy and Harry to have breakfast. That was around 4.15am. They bitched about Bleubar's song selection (yeah, like what else is new!?) but complimented Glitters-dot-com's show. Apparently Kak Ju did another scary but hillarious 'hantu' show, that instead of throwing a doll at the others at the end of the song, she threw herself. Go figure...
We all went home at around 6am. Definitely a long day for me.
16th May
Woke up at around 3pm. I really love weekends. Eric called and wanted to come over for a drink around the lake. Had a chocolate with hazelnut syrup at San Francisco Coffee. Again, we like the surroundings and the view, and the intention to go there was not to oogle at people we could never get. He had Mocha Frappe and a plate of Chicken Rice. Very very nice people. I like chubs who're well dressed, enjoy life, clean cut, could talk about anything under the sun.. the likes. Hmm, despite what anyone might say, but 'first impression DOES count'.
We headed off to Briyani Gam Batu Pahat for dinner. Left at 9pm for another working dinner with officemates. Had home-cooked Japanese friend rice, tempura and sushi. Discussion ended at about 11.30pm. Went to Concorde Hotel, KL to have late supper buffet with Harry. Too many people, including a group of loud students or factory workers who're probably extending celebrating their annual dinner. But there're some nice dapper looking chubs around. Harry's having everything Asian while I opted only for a plate of Apple Pie a-la mode. I really ate too much today.
Was sick of listening to hip hop since it's played like 24 hours on MTV and Channel V. A friend who came back from Jakarta bought some CDs which I've been playing for the past 3 weeks. Harry will be leaving to Middle East next week for an ICT project. I told him people get clobbered with stones if 'caught in the act'. But perhaps it's a sign for him... I wish him farewell.
Marcell - Marcell (reminds me of Vince if Vince ever got nice catchy songs from composers)
The Groove - Hati-hati (still prefer their 1st album KuIngin. Btw, heard there's this Malaysian group called Groovejehat who's doing acid jazz like the Groove and have a similar set-up. And the leader is a bear.)
Shanty - Shanty (dance music, reminds me of Deanna Yusuf)
Agnes Monica - and the story goes (still listening to Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa)
Tere - Sebuah Harapan (yes!)
Audy - 2002 (ok)
Utopia - Utopia (still listening to Antara Ada Dan Tiada)
La Luna - (haven't really heard the album)
Saturday, May 08, 2004
lies lies and more lies
u know what
i met this guy online in the mychub chat... he says that his a chub from puchong and he would like to meet me... so he claims that his dad is a very important person and yadayadayada... and he cant give me his number for security reasons and he doesnt have an email and crap... so stupidly i believed him... cause he chatted like sorta sincere ... so he arranged a meet up
i was suppose to meet up with him in sunway pyramid today(saturday may8th 2004)
and he said his gonna be there at 10am and he said latest by 11am and he told me he'll be in a mercs with his driver...yadayadayada... i believed...
so happy me just go and sat there infront of pyramid ... its entrance that is
patiently i waited as time dreadfully passing by so slowly
finally it was 11am .... he isnt here... i thought maybe it was the traffice ... again i waited till 12... maybe i thought it was really jam in puchong ... i waited for another half an hour
but after that i think that he aint really gonna come here
there i was ... feeling stupid and all mad and frustrated... believing at meeting ppl who i didnt have a clue of who he is ... besides his stats(dont even know if its true)... have those kind of ppl who lie to ppl ever feel sorry or guilty before?
i mean they used the trust that ppl gave them as a toy and just throw it when they are done with it ... im a victim of these heartless creatures... did any of u kena before?
well there was another case was with this stupid malay guy(names Ahmin ... if its a real name ofcourse) whose in melaka who says his coming over to KL to meet me up and stuff the same tragedy happened ... but thats another story
im actually quite sad now and i hate my self for being so stupid ... to be trusting ppl who i dont have a clue with
do any of u have similiar experiances?
do share it at the feed back corner... or do those ppl who actually played these pranks reading this blog have their reason for doing it to share?... write a feed back to me at the feedback forner too
i just wanna know if its the same person over and over again toyed with my trust towards meeting ppl online ...
hugs y'all
peeky
i met this guy online in the mychub chat... he says that his a chub from puchong and he would like to meet me... so he claims that his dad is a very important person and yadayadayada... and he cant give me his number for security reasons and he doesnt have an email and crap... so stupidly i believed him... cause he chatted like sorta sincere ... so he arranged a meet up
i was suppose to meet up with him in sunway pyramid today(saturday may8th 2004)
and he said his gonna be there at 10am and he said latest by 11am and he told me he'll be in a mercs with his driver...yadayadayada... i believed...
so happy me just go and sat there infront of pyramid ... its entrance that is
patiently i waited as time dreadfully passing by so slowly
finally it was 11am .... he isnt here... i thought maybe it was the traffice ... again i waited till 12... maybe i thought it was really jam in puchong ... i waited for another half an hour
but after that i think that he aint really gonna come here
there i was ... feeling stupid and all mad and frustrated... believing at meeting ppl who i didnt have a clue of who he is ... besides his stats(dont even know if its true)... have those kind of ppl who lie to ppl ever feel sorry or guilty before?
i mean they used the trust that ppl gave them as a toy and just throw it when they are done with it ... im a victim of these heartless creatures... did any of u kena before?
well there was another case was with this stupid malay guy(names Ahmin ... if its a real name ofcourse) whose in melaka who says his coming over to KL to meet me up and stuff the same tragedy happened ... but thats another story
im actually quite sad now and i hate my self for being so stupid ... to be trusting ppl who i dont have a clue with
do any of u have similiar experiances?
do share it at the feed back corner... or do those ppl who actually played these pranks reading this blog have their reason for doing it to share?... write a feed back to me at the feedback forner too
i just wanna know if its the same person over and over again toyed with my trust towards meeting ppl online ...
hugs y'all
peeky
Saturday, April 17, 2004
my senior's giving me a hardon in class
well well well
i wrote this in class today... surprise hunh ?... well cause the whole class today is in the lab so why not ... since its almost break time now ...
how have i been lately some might ask... yeah im ok .. just abit on the dying side... cause of all the work
now before we go on to my topic... lets talk bout being a closet... i expect some feedbacks from young guys like me(woohoo)...or any of u guys that is still in the closet...im sure that in our closed desire...we have met colleagues,classmates,seniors, or anyone around u that u like alot.BUT u dont know if they really are PLU even sometimes u "think" they are... now i dont have a working gaydar... so life sucks for me even worse...were my college is ... even the guys in my operations department in my college are chubs ... one of them is a bear guy i should take some pics one day... and most of all this senior guy that i so had my desires on... mmmmm small eyes nice smile round tubby friendly nextdoor huggable guy... but the fact is ... poor'ol peeky is shy so i never get to know him but my friend does she knows that i like'em chubby men... so one day she intro me to him and vice versa i was blushing like a tomato...shook his hands as he greet me with the killer smile that i'd die for(hope my bf aint reading this*giggles*) i said hi and he "hi" backand i stood there a moment and i had to go cause looking at him so close is giving me a hardon(yeah i sound like a perv) so i got his number and quickly excused my self from the scene and waited for class to start... for the next hour i have a tent in my pants begging for attention.. cant stop thinking of him.After everything settled i started to think back the things happened.. not much eh... and now im sitting at my desk... having flashbacks of that day(it was only 4days go...) ah sweet sweet memories...
now heres a food for thought and some thing i can hope for in the feed backsession... how do u guys with a gaydar actually know if the other person is gay... tell me bout it ... do u go like"oh! my gaydars tingling" or just some weird feeling of some weird voice telling u that the guy next to u is gay... come on guys tell me bout the feelings or for u guys without a gaydar... tell me what do u look in a chub or someone u have an intrest on if he is a gay...
now go my underlings fetch me answers of my riddle (NOT!!!)
HUGS
PEEKY
i wrote this in class today... surprise hunh ?... well cause the whole class today is in the lab so why not ... since its almost break time now ...
how have i been lately some might ask... yeah im ok .. just abit on the dying side... cause of all the work
now before we go on to my topic... lets talk bout being a closet... i expect some feedbacks from young guys like me(woohoo)...or any of u guys that is still in the closet...im sure that in our closed desire...we have met colleagues,classmates,seniors, or anyone around u that u like alot.BUT u dont know if they really are PLU even sometimes u "think" they are... now i dont have a working gaydar... so life sucks for me even worse...were my college is ... even the guys in my operations department in my college are chubs ... one of them is a bear guy i should take some pics one day... and most of all this senior guy that i so had my desires on... mmmmm small eyes nice smile round tubby friendly nextdoor huggable guy... but the fact is ... poor'ol peeky is shy so i never get to know him but my friend does she knows that i like'em chubby men... so one day she intro me to him and vice versa i was blushing like a tomato...shook his hands as he greet me with the killer smile that i'd die for(hope my bf aint reading this*giggles*) i said hi and he "hi" backand i stood there a moment and i had to go cause looking at him so close is giving me a hardon(yeah i sound like a perv) so i got his number and quickly excused my self from the scene and waited for class to start... for the next hour i have a tent in my pants begging for attention.. cant stop thinking of him.After everything settled i started to think back the things happened.. not much eh... and now im sitting at my desk... having flashbacks of that day(it was only 4days go...) ah sweet sweet memories...
now heres a food for thought and some thing i can hope for in the feed backsession... how do u guys with a gaydar actually know if the other person is gay... tell me bout it ... do u go like"oh! my gaydars tingling" or just some weird feeling of some weird voice telling u that the guy next to u is gay... come on guys tell me bout the feelings or for u guys without a gaydar... tell me what do u look in a chub or someone u have an intrest on if he is a gay...
now go my underlings fetch me answers of my riddle (NOT!!!)
HUGS
PEEKY
Thursday, April 08, 2004
OMG LOOK...!!
its not really a post but i dont know how to do this ... and who did it .. but the pic there down my post ... ITS NOT MEEEE
DONT GET CONFUSE
I DONT LOOKS SO BALD ,.... I MIGHT HAVE A SPIKY HAIR BUT NOT BALD
GARHHHHHHHH how it get there hmmmm plz thats not me
but anyways this is my second post woo hoo congrats to me
and this time its an encounter...
i dont know if the person is reading this or maybe his a PLU but since i dont have a working gaydar i cant really ... every morning i would be taking bus at the hilton bus stop to college and most of the mornings i wil see this cute chubby chinese guy standing on the stop waiting for a intrakota bus number 338 to god knows where ... since i dont have the time to stalk him( i never have time ... even for my bf :P) anyways yeah he keeps glancing at me everytime at the bus stop maybe cause i was staring at him alot .. his cute... u know the office attire and he had a little pouch with him always connected to his diskman or something ... soo soo cute ... heheh well i smiled at him and he just smiled back this morning and he headed in to the bus.... and guess what ... he actually lives in my area in paramount garden ... UNBELIEVEABLE ... cause i sorta bang into while buying lunch outside my house and i was like "woooooooooow" hahahaha i dont know the strangers name but ... if that stranger is lookin at this post ... come to say hi and crap im a friendly guy and i wont bite ...
and a RECAP...
THE PICTURE ON MY 1ST POST AINT ME ... IM NOT BALD AND MY BODY AINT SO SMALL IM 210LBS DAMN IT hehehehehe
hugs y'all
take care
peeky
DONT GET CONFUSE
I DONT LOOKS SO BALD ,.... I MIGHT HAVE A SPIKY HAIR BUT NOT BALD
GARHHHHHHHH how it get there hmmmm plz thats not me
but anyways this is my second post woo hoo congrats to me
and this time its an encounter...
i dont know if the person is reading this or maybe his a PLU but since i dont have a working gaydar i cant really ... every morning i would be taking bus at the hilton bus stop to college and most of the mornings i wil see this cute chubby chinese guy standing on the stop waiting for a intrakota bus number 338 to god knows where ... since i dont have the time to stalk him( i never have time ... even for my bf :P) anyways yeah he keeps glancing at me everytime at the bus stop maybe cause i was staring at him alot .. his cute... u know the office attire and he had a little pouch with him always connected to his diskman or something ... soo soo cute ... heheh well i smiled at him and he just smiled back this morning and he headed in to the bus.... and guess what ... he actually lives in my area in paramount garden ... UNBELIEVEABLE ... cause i sorta bang into while buying lunch outside my house and i was like "woooooooooow" hahahaha i dont know the strangers name but ... if that stranger is lookin at this post ... come to say hi and crap im a friendly guy and i wont bite ...
and a RECAP...
THE PICTURE ON MY 1ST POST AINT ME ... IM NOT BALD AND MY BODY AINT SO SMALL IM 210LBS DAMN IT hehehehehe
hugs y'all
take care
peeky
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
of Sex in The City... and being Seksis
I've been totally hook to the American TV series "Sex in The City" for these few weeks. I know, it's been out for quite sometime now, but only recently do I have the time to watch the DVD. After watching the complete 3 seasons, I have concluded that it has a lot of things I can learn from those 3 women characters. The message being conveyed is universal. It kept me thinking about the whole cruising thing.. either gay or straight. It opened my eye to a few things which I never thought before. As I put myself into Carrie's shoe and see my relationship with "Mr.Big". Now I know the reason why he left me and married the other girl. Am I too complicated ? Is he a straight acting gay or a gay straght acting ? Those I are the things I can relate to whatever happened to my life. Overall it's very entertaining.. and educational the very least.
Monday, April 05, 2004
wow my 1st post
TA-DAAAAA
peeky here
i know some of u all know me on the chat and im not that famous and stuff but this is my 1st post
heres a little things in live that i would like to share with everyone ... or i think its more like a frustration in life ya?
im in PJ area .... and im always in the sunway reagen cause im studying around there(cant tell u which college but if u happen to bump to me ... ur lucky... or better ... on the same college) well im always lingering in sunway area and i notice something ... lots of chubbies around ... i do mean lots and cute ones too ehhehehe
well heres the frustration part...
u get to see em but u cant touch em ... hate that ... adn u go to chat hoping that u'll meet ONE of them but u cant ... u get fresh faces instead(not to say its bad but ... i wanna meet em) plus ... i dont have a a working gaydar... that sucks even more
so tell me if ur one of the chubbies that always lingers around sunway pyramid area heheh email me and stuff im always near by or better still we get to have lunch and more yeah ?
hugs y'all
peeky
peeky here
i know some of u all know me on the chat and im not that famous and stuff but this is my 1st post
heres a little things in live that i would like to share with everyone ... or i think its more like a frustration in life ya?
im in PJ area .... and im always in the sunway reagen cause im studying around there(cant tell u which college but if u happen to bump to me ... ur lucky... or better ... on the same college) well im always lingering in sunway area and i notice something ... lots of chubbies around ... i do mean lots and cute ones too ehhehehe
well heres the frustration part...
u get to see em but u cant touch em ... hate that ... adn u go to chat hoping that u'll meet ONE of them but u cant ... u get fresh faces instead(not to say its bad but ... i wanna meet em) plus ... i dont have a a working gaydar... that sucks even more
so tell me if ur one of the chubbies that always lingers around sunway pyramid area heheh email me and stuff im always near by or better still we get to have lunch and more yeah ?
hugs y'all
peeky
Thursday, April 01, 2004
Bitching on April Fool's day
I am exhausted. I've been exhausted for the past 2-3 months. The workload. The stress. The problems. A sign that my monthly visits to the local masseur should be increased. I badly need one right now. And that's not April Fool.
Just got back from my hometown last weekend for a wedding. Not mine, mind you. Not yet, anyway. But will be, hopefully. Had a interesting and wonderful time, not to mention exhausting. Didn't meet anyone as a friend I planned to meet couldn't make it. But had some visitors from KL who decided to spend their weekend there instead of clubbing at Bleu. I'd say they had a more interesting time with a trip to the local masseur, a nite out by the seaside cafe, and lots of DVDs. Berudu is starting his own f.r.i.e.n.d.s collection and bought season 1, 2 and 3 altogether, including some 'berangan' movies like Legally Blonde 1 & 2 and others. Shook bought some 'berangan' movies also which I can't remember the titles. Harry bought LOTR: Fellowship of the Ring extended version. Somehow the people at my hometown look 'better' in every sense, especially the chubs. They look 'neat', clean-cut and not messy, and judging from the appearance, they could very well smell nice. Not that I went over and smelt them... But I could probably imagine the smell of Dolce & Gabbana on fat, and it's not that bad. Go figure! Perhaps the election result has got something to do with it.
Went to have dinner last nite with Eric and Teddy. The original plan was for us to go to the Baskin-Robbins outlet at Ampang Point, buy 1 pint of ice-cream each and have a steamboat dinner at Desa Pandan. But it was raining cats and dogs last evening, or rather it was rather raining angry hippos and horny bears. So the road was jammed, and I got to Desa Pandan around 8. Asked Teddy to buy for me a pint of Peanut Butter n' Chocolate and waited for them at Desa Pandan. The steamboat restaurant was no longer there, a mamak restaurant instead. Had a Japanese set dinner with them, bitched about life, and ate the ice-cream. Yum!! Gotta do this again. Went back to Ampang Point and had a late drink at the mamak stall in front of Ampang Puteri Hospital. Reza and RH joined later for a while. And suddenly I'm like the slimmest guy around. Heh!
Am autorepeating this playlist, more on the simple piano-based songs. They sound better the more I play, especially in the car. Btw, I'm looking for a cheap branded second-hand 4-channel car amplifier, preferably the established brands like Infinity, JBL or Rockford Fosgate. Yeah, like duhh!! Found out on e-bay that it's dirt cheap in the States but about 1000x more in Malaysia. Globalization hasn't reached here yet, I suppose?
Hasn't checked out Zouk KL yet. How's the scene? Any chubbies there?
Playlist:
Clay Aiken - Open Arms (couldn't beat Mariah, of course, but sounds 'achievable' tho not by me)
Ruben Stoddart - Sorry 2004 (chill out easy listening)
Kara - Beri Aku Waktu
Titi DJ & Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa(still listening to this)
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Ku Melepasmu(2-3 yr old song, but still nice)
Lingua - Bila Ku Ingat (2-3 yr old song, but still nice)
Reza - Cintakan Membawamu Kembali (original artist by Dewa, but heard another version on Red104.9 after midnite the other day by Siti Nurhaliza and it blew all versions!!! Apparently that's during her TV concert in Indonesia. Still looking for her version tho.)
Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
Warren G ft KRS-1 & Lil Ai - Lets Go (the girls sounds cute)
Kanye West - Through The Wire
Twista ft Jamie Foxx & Kanye West - Slow Jamz
Deep Dish vs Everything But The Girl - Future of the Future
Mandalay - Beautiful (7" Canny Mix from Cafe Del Mar vol 6, better than Sarah Brightman's)
Encounters? We'll see soon.... and it won't be April Fool.
Just got back from my hometown last weekend for a wedding. Not mine, mind you. Not yet, anyway. But will be, hopefully. Had a interesting and wonderful time, not to mention exhausting. Didn't meet anyone as a friend I planned to meet couldn't make it. But had some visitors from KL who decided to spend their weekend there instead of clubbing at Bleu. I'd say they had a more interesting time with a trip to the local masseur, a nite out by the seaside cafe, and lots of DVDs. Berudu is starting his own f.r.i.e.n.d.s collection and bought season 1, 2 and 3 altogether, including some 'berangan' movies like Legally Blonde 1 & 2 and others. Shook bought some 'berangan' movies also which I can't remember the titles. Harry bought LOTR: Fellowship of the Ring extended version. Somehow the people at my hometown look 'better' in every sense, especially the chubs. They look 'neat', clean-cut and not messy, and judging from the appearance, they could very well smell nice. Not that I went over and smelt them... But I could probably imagine the smell of Dolce & Gabbana on fat, and it's not that bad. Go figure! Perhaps the election result has got something to do with it.
Went to have dinner last nite with Eric and Teddy. The original plan was for us to go to the Baskin-Robbins outlet at Ampang Point, buy 1 pint of ice-cream each and have a steamboat dinner at Desa Pandan. But it was raining cats and dogs last evening, or rather it was rather raining angry hippos and horny bears. So the road was jammed, and I got to Desa Pandan around 8. Asked Teddy to buy for me a pint of Peanut Butter n' Chocolate and waited for them at Desa Pandan. The steamboat restaurant was no longer there, a mamak restaurant instead. Had a Japanese set dinner with them, bitched about life, and ate the ice-cream. Yum!! Gotta do this again. Went back to Ampang Point and had a late drink at the mamak stall in front of Ampang Puteri Hospital. Reza and RH joined later for a while. And suddenly I'm like the slimmest guy around. Heh!
Am autorepeating this playlist, more on the simple piano-based songs. They sound better the more I play, especially in the car. Btw, I'm looking for a cheap branded second-hand 4-channel car amplifier, preferably the established brands like Infinity, JBL or Rockford Fosgate. Yeah, like duhh!! Found out on e-bay that it's dirt cheap in the States but about 1000x more in Malaysia. Globalization hasn't reached here yet, I suppose?
Hasn't checked out Zouk KL yet. How's the scene? Any chubbies there?
Playlist:
Clay Aiken - Open Arms (couldn't beat Mariah, of course, but sounds 'achievable' tho not by me)
Ruben Stoddart - Sorry 2004 (chill out easy listening)
Kara - Beri Aku Waktu
Titi DJ & Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa(still listening to this)
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Ku Melepasmu(2-3 yr old song, but still nice)
Lingua - Bila Ku Ingat (2-3 yr old song, but still nice)
Reza - Cintakan Membawamu Kembali (original artist by Dewa, but heard another version on Red104.9 after midnite the other day by Siti Nurhaliza and it blew all versions!!! Apparently that's during her TV concert in Indonesia. Still looking for her version tho.)
Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
Warren G ft KRS-1 & Lil Ai - Lets Go (the girls sounds cute)
Kanye West - Through The Wire
Twista ft Jamie Foxx & Kanye West - Slow Jamz
Deep Dish vs Everything But The Girl - Future of the Future
Mandalay - Beautiful (7" Canny Mix from Cafe Del Mar vol 6, better than Sarah Brightman's)
Encounters? We'll see soon.... and it won't be April Fool.
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Priceless... Memories
Just something that might get you interested with the erection :) Oppp.. election
Friday, February 13, 2004
Virtual Beating - (Adapted from Fridae.com)
Have you ever been a victim of online gay bashing? As the Net becomes the new hunting ground for gay bashers, Here are some tips on defending yourself in the virtual world.
Many might be shocked by the idea that gay bashings still happen – but the truth is thousands of documented cases happen each year. But that’s only the physical bashing. The reality is, many bashers have chosen to take their crusades to a safer, more anonymous venue. The Internet, with its much debated virtues, ills, and undoubted freedom, is their new hunting ground. What could be more convenient, after all? You can even pop a few beers while you satisfy your hunger to assault some ‘sick’ queen.
Welcome new millennium. Hello, old hates.
True, the assault from online bashers isn’t likely to cause death or disfigurement. But it is just as much a violation as the first, if not possibly more dangerous. The possibilities and reach of the Net allows a basher to pretty much spew his acid wherever he chooses, with much greater impunity. He can let his inhumanity run free, until it bubbles to the surface, that much more concentrated. He can have the luxury of being several places at once, and even luring potential victims into dangerous situations, where they can be assaulted in their own homes, or in a ground of the basher’s choosing.
So what can one do about it? Much as in the real world, you fight back, with whatever you can. For the gay man in the Internet world, wit is probably the best weapon.
Many people believe that bashers are closet cases who cannot accept their own homosexuality, and thus try to push it away by attacking other gay people. With the relative anonymity that chatrooms and online communities provide, some feel that they intimidate and abuse with impunity. I remember another time someone came into a chatroom claiming to be a police officer, and exercise his ego by scaring off the people there. He beat a hasty retreat when the moderators told him that impersonating a policeman was a crime, and that his IP address was being noted down for the authorities. Two can play at the game of bluff, but it always pays to know your rights.
Another motivation bashers have, is vengeance. Maybe he was slighted by a gay classmate (I say he, because statistically, almost all bashers are men - women tend to be much more sensible.), or somehow "lost" to a gay competitor. For some, the idea that a strong, masculine MAN like him could be in any way inferior to a "limp-wristed freak" was intolerable. A friend told me about one incidence, when a would-be basher had his ego seriously bruised when his nasty messages on a yahoogroup elicited hordes of devastatingly witty replies. Unable to frame a suitable rejoinder, he retreated with his tail between his legs. But after a few days of nursing his humiliation, he thought to avenge himself by setting up an eyeball with one of the members of the group and physically "assert his superiority". To his regret and greater humiliation, the victim-to-be turned out to be a tae-kwon-do instructor. Some days, it just doesn't pay to be straight and stupid.
A third kind of basher is the (shudder) religious fundamentalist sort. There is no hope of reaching through the miasma of their religious fervour, and they're not even any fun to bait and toy with. Moderators should just ban their IPs or kick them from the group.
Ultimately, bashers are sad, insecure people who try to prove their manhood and machismo by trying to exert power over others. Don’t let them. Here are a few ways to defend yourself:
1. Take away their tools. Log IP addresses, note down emails addresses, forward hate email or forum postings to your ISP (Internet Service Provider) or to the basher’s ISP. Make sure the person knows that you’ve got his info and have taken steps to disseminate that info. Make sure he knows you’re covered, and that if something happens to you, it’ll be traced back to him easily. If you find a gay bashing site online, report it to site’s host, and make sure others see and hear of the site. With enough pressure, it’ll be taken down before it encourages some young fool about his “superiority”.
2. Don’t give them what they want. Don’t show fear, don’t react with hostility, don’t pander to their needs. Why give them any satisfaction? For some bashers, it only encourages them, because they feel that they’re succeeding in getting under your skin.
3. Don’t take risks. Just as you shouldn’t walk down a dark alley at night, sniffing a bouquet of flowers while yodelling “Be A Woman”, don’t meet anyone from the net who seems suspicious. Try to check on the person who’s inviting you to eyeball - talk to the person on the phone, or check his address isn’t some abandoned building somewhere. Write down any details you can get on the other person, and keep the info somewhere easy to find. Course, for those of us who like rougher trade, well, the line is hard to distinguish sometimes, so be sure to pack your Taser in your purse or buy one of those cellphones with cameras or recorders. Aside from obvious advantages, you can take a snap of anyone who tries to assault you. (For technologically challenged: a Taser is a hand-held remote stun system.)
4. The ignore function is your friend. If someone is getting tiresome, just tune them out. There is little point to talking to an empty room, and ideally, the basher will go away. Otherwise, see Number 1 above.
5. Take them seriously. One disadvantage of being online is that bashers become disassociated from you - you can’t see them or hear them. More often than not, you regard them as a nuisance rather than a threat. But they ARE threats, if not to you, then potentially to some sister in the community. Don’t give them the chance to try again with someone else, perhaps with better success.
Online bashing doesn’t cause real pain, true. But it potentially can cause real harm. Just as you wouldn’t allow anyone to physically attack you, don’t let them emotionally or verbally violate you either. The Internet is probably the one place where we can all stand proud as equals with the rest of the world. Let no one take that from us.
Original Text by:
Glenn Chua
Many might be shocked by the idea that gay bashings still happen – but the truth is thousands of documented cases happen each year. But that’s only the physical bashing. The reality is, many bashers have chosen to take their crusades to a safer, more anonymous venue. The Internet, with its much debated virtues, ills, and undoubted freedom, is their new hunting ground. What could be more convenient, after all? You can even pop a few beers while you satisfy your hunger to assault some ‘sick’ queen.
Welcome new millennium. Hello, old hates.
True, the assault from online bashers isn’t likely to cause death or disfigurement. But it is just as much a violation as the first, if not possibly more dangerous. The possibilities and reach of the Net allows a basher to pretty much spew his acid wherever he chooses, with much greater impunity. He can let his inhumanity run free, until it bubbles to the surface, that much more concentrated. He can have the luxury of being several places at once, and even luring potential victims into dangerous situations, where they can be assaulted in their own homes, or in a ground of the basher’s choosing.
So what can one do about it? Much as in the real world, you fight back, with whatever you can. For the gay man in the Internet world, wit is probably the best weapon.
Many people believe that bashers are closet cases who cannot accept their own homosexuality, and thus try to push it away by attacking other gay people. With the relative anonymity that chatrooms and online communities provide, some feel that they intimidate and abuse with impunity. I remember another time someone came into a chatroom claiming to be a police officer, and exercise his ego by scaring off the people there. He beat a hasty retreat when the moderators told him that impersonating a policeman was a crime, and that his IP address was being noted down for the authorities. Two can play at the game of bluff, but it always pays to know your rights.
Another motivation bashers have, is vengeance. Maybe he was slighted by a gay classmate (I say he, because statistically, almost all bashers are men - women tend to be much more sensible.), or somehow "lost" to a gay competitor. For some, the idea that a strong, masculine MAN like him could be in any way inferior to a "limp-wristed freak" was intolerable. A friend told me about one incidence, when a would-be basher had his ego seriously bruised when his nasty messages on a yahoogroup elicited hordes of devastatingly witty replies. Unable to frame a suitable rejoinder, he retreated with his tail between his legs. But after a few days of nursing his humiliation, he thought to avenge himself by setting up an eyeball with one of the members of the group and physically "assert his superiority". To his regret and greater humiliation, the victim-to-be turned out to be a tae-kwon-do instructor. Some days, it just doesn't pay to be straight and stupid.
A third kind of basher is the (shudder) religious fundamentalist sort. There is no hope of reaching through the miasma of their religious fervour, and they're not even any fun to bait and toy with. Moderators should just ban their IPs or kick them from the group.
Ultimately, bashers are sad, insecure people who try to prove their manhood and machismo by trying to exert power over others. Don’t let them. Here are a few ways to defend yourself:
1. Take away their tools. Log IP addresses, note down emails addresses, forward hate email or forum postings to your ISP (Internet Service Provider) or to the basher’s ISP. Make sure the person knows that you’ve got his info and have taken steps to disseminate that info. Make sure he knows you’re covered, and that if something happens to you, it’ll be traced back to him easily. If you find a gay bashing site online, report it to site’s host, and make sure others see and hear of the site. With enough pressure, it’ll be taken down before it encourages some young fool about his “superiority”.
2. Don’t give them what they want. Don’t show fear, don’t react with hostility, don’t pander to their needs. Why give them any satisfaction? For some bashers, it only encourages them, because they feel that they’re succeeding in getting under your skin.
3. Don’t take risks. Just as you shouldn’t walk down a dark alley at night, sniffing a bouquet of flowers while yodelling “Be A Woman”, don’t meet anyone from the net who seems suspicious. Try to check on the person who’s inviting you to eyeball - talk to the person on the phone, or check his address isn’t some abandoned building somewhere. Write down any details you can get on the other person, and keep the info somewhere easy to find. Course, for those of us who like rougher trade, well, the line is hard to distinguish sometimes, so be sure to pack your Taser in your purse or buy one of those cellphones with cameras or recorders. Aside from obvious advantages, you can take a snap of anyone who tries to assault you. (For technologically challenged: a Taser is a hand-held remote stun system.)
4. The ignore function is your friend. If someone is getting tiresome, just tune them out. There is little point to talking to an empty room, and ideally, the basher will go away. Otherwise, see Number 1 above.
5. Take them seriously. One disadvantage of being online is that bashers become disassociated from you - you can’t see them or hear them. More often than not, you regard them as a nuisance rather than a threat. But they ARE threats, if not to you, then potentially to some sister in the community. Don’t give them the chance to try again with someone else, perhaps with better success.
Online bashing doesn’t cause real pain, true. But it potentially can cause real harm. Just as you wouldn’t allow anyone to physically attack you, don’t let them emotionally or verbally violate you either. The Internet is probably the one place where we can all stand proud as equals with the rest of the world. Let no one take that from us.
Original Text by:
Glenn Chua
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
Title change....
After much thought, and in view with the changing times, we are experimenting with a new name title change to our blog column.
"The Chubby Soup for the Seeking Soul"
Thus, we hope that more blog writers will come forth and write, not only about encounters but also about the expanding world of Malaysian chubs & chasers as we had originally intended this blog to be.
We value your comments and hope that this change will bring a positive turnaround.
If you have the skills... If you have the passion.. If you want to be a blog writer...
write an e-mail to: mychub@time.net.my
Introduce yourself to us...
We will reply with a confirmation invitation to the MyChub blog writers pool.
"The Chubby Soup for the Seeking Soul"
Thus, we hope that more blog writers will come forth and write, not only about encounters but also about the expanding world of Malaysian chubs & chasers as we had originally intended this blog to be.
We value your comments and hope that this change will bring a positive turnaround.
If you have the skills... If you have the passion.. If you want to be a blog writer...
write an e-mail to: mychub@time.net.my
Introduce yourself to us...
We will reply with a confirmation invitation to the MyChub blog writers pool.
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Alkisahnya...
Di zaman dahulu kala ada sorang chub bernama Samwise, dia takut buka mata tapi dia tak buta, dia suka kena pimpin.
Samwise kena pimpin dengan sorang ni dekat 7 tahun, nama dia Qui-Gonn Jinn, kalau Qui-Gonn nak lepaskan tangan dia nanti dia tarik balik tangan Qui-Gonn. Samwise takut jalan sorang2 dalam gelap, pesal dia taknak bukak mata, dia tak percaya suasana sebenarnya terang. Ada sekali tu Samwise jumpa sorang ni, nama dia Iori, Iori ni pimpin dia sekejap, dan tanya "Kenapa u tutup mata? Bukak la mata tu so boleh kita jalan sama2?". Samwise jawap "I tak nampak la, bukan i tutup mata. I nak org pimpin." Iori jawap "U nampak la, cuba bukak mata tu, jom jalan sama2. Tengah terang ni ha. Then kita boleh sama2 pergi mana2". Samwise jawap lagi "I tak nampakla! U taknak pimpin i sudah!". Dia suruh Iori pergi. So Iori pun pergi.
Si Samwise ni jalan2 teraba2 dlm terang, kekadang terjumpa tangan orang, ada yang tepis, ada yang sambut. Yang sambut tu pimpin tangan dia kejap. Samwise tu seronok kena pimpin, seronok kena tarik ke sana sini. "Apa guna buka mata kalau dah ada orang pimpin?" Mungkin tu yg dia pikirkan. Ada orang yang rimas asik tolong pimpin dia aja. Ada yang nak pujuk dia suruh dia bukak mata dan tengok keadaan sekeliling yang sebenarnya cantik, tapi dia halau. So Samwise pun meraba2 dalam terang lagi dan lagi dan lagi, minta orang pimpin tangan dia, sapa2 yg lalu depan dia yang sanggup pimpin dia pun dia tak kisah, asalkan orang tu sanggup pimpin. Tak kira orang tu nak bawak ke mana, asalkan kena pimpin. Takda arah tujuan, padahal Samwise boleh buka mata tengok sapa yang pimpin dia dan arah mana yang nak dituju dan pilih dia nak pergi tempat tu ke tak. Samwise tengok dengan tangan dia aja. Dia tak pernah kenal sapa Qui-Gonn, sapa Iori. Dia tau Iori pernah bercakap dgn dia, dia tau Iori pernah pimpin dia, tapi dia taktau camana rupa Iori tu. Semua tu tak penting, dia nak kena pimpin aja, dan sebagai balasan, dia akan pegang tangan org tu dan takkan lepaskan. Sekarang dia kena pimpin dengan orang baru dalam 5 bulan, orang tu pun nak lepaskan tangan, atas sebab2 yang tak diketahui.
Motif? Moral?
Anyway, playlist minggu ni:
Cokelat - Jauh
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Kumelepasmu
Lingua - Bila Kuingat
Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
Andien - Tentang Aku
Andien - Menjelma
Reza - Cintakan Membuatmu Kembali
ADA Band - Manja
Peter Pan - Sahabat
Anita Sarawak - Perasaan
Azalea - Gemawan
Gerhana Skacinta - Antara Anyir Dan Jakarta
Samwise kena pimpin dengan sorang ni dekat 7 tahun, nama dia Qui-Gonn Jinn, kalau Qui-Gonn nak lepaskan tangan dia nanti dia tarik balik tangan Qui-Gonn. Samwise takut jalan sorang2 dalam gelap, pesal dia taknak bukak mata, dia tak percaya suasana sebenarnya terang. Ada sekali tu Samwise jumpa sorang ni, nama dia Iori, Iori ni pimpin dia sekejap, dan tanya "Kenapa u tutup mata? Bukak la mata tu so boleh kita jalan sama2?". Samwise jawap "I tak nampak la, bukan i tutup mata. I nak org pimpin." Iori jawap "U nampak la, cuba bukak mata tu, jom jalan sama2. Tengah terang ni ha. Then kita boleh sama2 pergi mana2". Samwise jawap lagi "I tak nampakla! U taknak pimpin i sudah!". Dia suruh Iori pergi. So Iori pun pergi.
Si Samwise ni jalan2 teraba2 dlm terang, kekadang terjumpa tangan orang, ada yang tepis, ada yang sambut. Yang sambut tu pimpin tangan dia kejap. Samwise tu seronok kena pimpin, seronok kena tarik ke sana sini. "Apa guna buka mata kalau dah ada orang pimpin?" Mungkin tu yg dia pikirkan. Ada orang yang rimas asik tolong pimpin dia aja. Ada yang nak pujuk dia suruh dia bukak mata dan tengok keadaan sekeliling yang sebenarnya cantik, tapi dia halau. So Samwise pun meraba2 dalam terang lagi dan lagi dan lagi, minta orang pimpin tangan dia, sapa2 yg lalu depan dia yang sanggup pimpin dia pun dia tak kisah, asalkan orang tu sanggup pimpin. Tak kira orang tu nak bawak ke mana, asalkan kena pimpin. Takda arah tujuan, padahal Samwise boleh buka mata tengok sapa yang pimpin dia dan arah mana yang nak dituju dan pilih dia nak pergi tempat tu ke tak. Samwise tengok dengan tangan dia aja. Dia tak pernah kenal sapa Qui-Gonn, sapa Iori. Dia tau Iori pernah bercakap dgn dia, dia tau Iori pernah pimpin dia, tapi dia taktau camana rupa Iori tu. Semua tu tak penting, dia nak kena pimpin aja, dan sebagai balasan, dia akan pegang tangan org tu dan takkan lepaskan. Sekarang dia kena pimpin dengan orang baru dalam 5 bulan, orang tu pun nak lepaskan tangan, atas sebab2 yang tak diketahui.
Motif? Moral?
Anyway, playlist minggu ni:
Cokelat - Jauh
Dygta ft Andina - Tak Mungkin Kumelepasmu
Lingua - Bila Kuingat
Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
Andien - Tentang Aku
Andien - Menjelma
Reza - Cintakan Membuatmu Kembali
ADA Band - Manja
Peter Pan - Sahabat
Anita Sarawak - Perasaan
Azalea - Gemawan
Gerhana Skacinta - Antara Anyir Dan Jakarta
Monday, January 12, 2004
New MyChub Encounter Blog Feature !
Dear MyChub blog readers,
We have added a nifty commenting feature on the articles written in MyChub blogs so that you can also participate / join in the discussion !
Just click at the [comment] link, to express ur ideas about each blog post.
Remember! mychub blog is not just for telling ppl how great you are when meeting chubs or how good you are at flirting ! It is also a place to dicuss about the current issues about the chub & chaser community
Always be nice and respect others ! Lets us encourage rather than discourage !
Be positive and always look at the brighter side of life.
Coz gay in the dictionary means happy & joyfull, not sex occay!
Huggz
We have added a nifty commenting feature on the articles written in MyChub blogs so that you can also participate / join in the discussion !
Just click at the [comment] link, to express ur ideas about each blog post.
Remember! mychub blog is not just for telling ppl how great you are when meeting chubs or how good you are at flirting ! It is also a place to dicuss about the current issues about the chub & chaser community
Always be nice and respect others ! Lets us encourage rather than discourage !
Be positive and always look at the brighter side of life.
Coz gay in the dictionary means happy & joyfull, not sex occay!
Huggz
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
New Year
Went to Bukit Bintang around 4pm, to avoid the massive traffic jam I'd expect since they're closing some roads for the celebration. Called some that I know and got the expected answer "Errr... tak taulah lepak mana, tanya ". So I hanged out with BaronCaffeine, ate the famous Nasi Ayam Hailam, and went all over Bukit Bintang to look for budget hotel but couldn't find any (we're planning to go clubbing until morning, and concluded that we won't have the energy to drive back home).
Went to bleu. Less than 30 ppl before countdown (I think!). Apparently they all went to see the fireworks at KLCC before coming in. Then suddenly the place was packed. Cover charge was RM20 before 11pm, and RM25 afterwards. Last year I went to Nouvo to see Jakatta the DJ, cover charge was RM60 but worth every cent as he played really really nice stuff (American Dream, Ever So Lonely and others I dont know).
The mood at bleu was the same, except that I think everyone smiled more. The song playlist was the same, I expected more since it's New Year and probably the DJ would want to bring some changes. Oh well... one can only hope... No new chubs in sight, except for one from Belgium, I think. Contrary to popular belief, he DID NOT smell like chocolate.
Current playlist:
1. Missy Elliot - Pass That Dutch
2. Timbaland - Indian Flute
3. Baby Bash - Suga Suga
4. Mandalay - Beautiful
5. Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
6. Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
7. Josh Groban - You're Still You
8. Tori Amos - Love Song
Went to bleu. Less than 30 ppl before countdown (I think!). Apparently they all went to see the fireworks at KLCC before coming in. Then suddenly the place was packed. Cover charge was RM20 before 11pm, and RM25 afterwards. Last year I went to Nouvo to see Jakatta the DJ, cover charge was RM60 but worth every cent as he played really really nice stuff (American Dream, Ever So Lonely and others I dont know).
The mood at bleu was the same, except that I think everyone smiled more. The song playlist was the same, I expected more since it's New Year and probably the DJ would want to bring some changes. Oh well... one can only hope... No new chubs in sight, except for one from Belgium, I think. Contrary to popular belief, he DID NOT smell like chocolate.
Current playlist:
1. Missy Elliot - Pass That Dutch
2. Timbaland - Indian Flute
3. Baby Bash - Suga Suga
4. Mandalay - Beautiful
5. Titi DJ ft Agnes Monica - Hanya Cinta Yang Bisa
6. Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
7. Josh Groban - You're Still You
8. Tori Amos - Love Song
Thursday, January 01, 2004
Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year
Finally, MyChub has gone through another eventful year! We never thought that it would come this far. Without the help and support of you - our patrons, would would never thought that we would have done it either.
MyChub's new year resolution this year is to make our ever expanding services continues to cater to the chub & chasers throughout malaysia and beyond. And we shall continue to make ground breaking innovations / pioneering advancement to make your life better.
To all our beloved readers, have a merry little christmas and a joyous New Year!
May you all be blessed with happiness and prosperity !
Lets us give full support to this little chub club that dared to dream and make it happen!
Huggss
MyChub's new year resolution this year is to make our ever expanding services continues to cater to the chub & chasers throughout malaysia and beyond. And we shall continue to make ground breaking innovations / pioneering advancement to make your life better.
To all our beloved readers, have a merry little christmas and a joyous New Year!
May you all be blessed with happiness and prosperity !
Lets us give full support to this little chub club that dared to dream and make it happen!
Huggss
Friday, December 26, 2003
A MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!
Hi...Just a short note to say to all who celebrate Christmas I hope you had a great christmas celebration. Also to everybody out there, I hope you have a good and great new year and may all your dreams and wishes come true!
Friday, November 28, 2003
Some people tries to be cute.. but then, some people are born cute !!!
Beberapa hari sebelum Raya, moks telah dijemput ke rumah seorang kawan lama. Bukan apa, saja nak menziarah sebelum dia balik ke kampung. Moks pon dah lama tak pergi rumah dia.. dah dekat 2 tahun dah.
Actually, kawan moks ajak suruh tengok2 kan komputernya yang rosak. So, moks pon setuju aja tanpa banyak soal.
Sesampainya moks dirumah. Moks ternampaklah Abang iparnya yang sangattt cute. Chubby Daddy type.. siap kumis goatee yang nipis. Kulit putih melepak. Rambut ala2 beruban sikit. Muka senyum meleret. Dia memakai baju melayu dan kain pelikat. Isskk rasa macam nak terkam dan peluk je on the spot.
Lagi cair, daddy ni pulak ala2 manja.. ala2 childish. Very approachable and friendly. Entah camana, there is a chemistry. Abang Ipar dia ni plak tetiba jadi restless, asyik2 nak lepak ngan kita orang je. Dah ler tu.. asyik dok keluar-masuk bilik kawan moks...
"Nanti lepas you tengok komputer tu.. meh tengok komputer I pulak.. ada kat dalam bilik I"
"Err... bolehhh" (tapi.. apa motif daddy tu nak ajak masuk bilik dia.. angkat laptop tu datang sini tak leh ke ?)
"Laptop I ni banyak problem.. I nak pasang banyak barang"
Start dari situ, Daddy ni dah mula kasi hint. Ada beberapa pekara yang daddy ni kasi 'clue' yang amat mencurigakan. Antara hint yang dapat moks tangkap semasa perbualan kami adalah:-
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"Semenjak i pencen ni.. I ada banyak masa." (Dlm erti kata lain.. I'm always free and available)
"Kalau u free datang la lagi ke rumah.. kita leh main-main komputer" (dlm erti kata lain... nanti bila wife I pegi kerja, bole la kita main-main bersama) p/s: statement ini diulang beberapa kali sepanjang perbualan.
"Semenjak dua menjak ni, I banyak buka puasa kat hotel.. dua malam lepas kat Sheraton, lepas tu kat Istana then semalam kat Equitorial" (dlm erti kata lain... kalu you nak ajak I tido hotel 5 star pon bole juga.. i mampu spedoo you !)
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Moks pon cuba la korek skit info dengan kawan moks tu pasal abg ipar dia. Banyak maklumat berguna yang moks dapat...
1. Abang ipar dia tu kawin lambat.. umur 30-an baru kawin. Skrg umur 50-an anak baru 2.. kecik2 skolah lagi. (maybe PLU ni)
2. Bini dia plak chub.. (ader chance chub4chub ni)
3. Kawan moks cakap, dia kasi layanan special hanya untuk chub2 aje.. kalu kawan dia yg slim datang.. abg ipar dia buat tak layan (confirmmmm!!)
So malam besok, moks dapat invitation lagi berbuka puasa ngan diaorang. Tengok la camana daddy tu kasi respon lagi. Kalu berjaya.. tambah la lagi sorang sugar daddy moks.. hehehhehe.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
eid
budak gemuk pasang pelita,
terbakar tetek kena tutup dengan pinggan,
maaf zahir batin saya pinta,
selamat hari raya saya ucapkan.
wishing y'all happy eid mubarak.
terbakar tetek kena tutup dengan pinggan,
maaf zahir batin saya pinta,
selamat hari raya saya ucapkan.
wishing y'all happy eid mubarak.
Thursday, October 30, 2003
...of birthdays, bears & book of laws
Happy belated birthday to me. Damn! I'm into the Big Three Oh. Age ain't nothing but a number, Aaliyah said. But she's already gone!! She will always be 22!! Then again, I have to take her words for it, I like her THAT much. Oh yeah, happy belated birthday BaronCaffeine.
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Aku balik kampung minggu lepas pesal ada kenduri. Jumpa kawan chatter lama jap. Seorang manusia menyerupai beruang yg baru shaved, agak buncit tapi dada dia lagi besar, pinggang ala2 muat dipeluk, rambut pendek lurus sikat tepi, gigi putih kecik2, bulu roma tangan agak halus dalam 17-21 helai seinci persegi, punggung bulat, bau wangi melebihi bau lemak, cakap banyak. Just the way I like them. ARGHH!! Cutenya!!
Dia bawak jln2 kat bandar, pesal aku tak reti sgt jln2 ni. Lepak kat Singgah Selalu. Happening gak. Borak2 je dekat 2jam sambil perati org dan sekali-sekala main teka-teki 'Sapa PLU kat sini? Mamat rock dgn mamat pakai baju ketat tu couple ke? Wragghhhkahkahkah!!'. Dia dah ada boyfren. Ahh! The good ones are always taken, there are only leftovers. Hahahah, mesti aku kena laserz kalau ada org yg berkenaan baca statement tadi tu. Dia percayakan long distance relationship. Dia ingatkan aku kat Elaine dalam citer Ally McBeal, very der optimist. Dia buat aku enjoy makan banana split sejuk2 tgh malam kat restoran baru tu. Dia suka Ning Baizura. Dia suka Antara Mungkin Dan Curiga. Aku bagi dia dengar Hazami Keabadian Cinta pun dia suka gak. Tapi masa dah cukup, aku taknak balik lagi tapi ala2 terpaksa.
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Jumpa kawan lama gak minggu ni. Chub, smooth, misai dan goatee, suka diamond. Dia dah ada boyfren. Slim. Bagusle. Dia kata boyfren dia caring, sebab selalu telepon dan sms tanya khabar. Dan dia rasa boyfren dia serious nak rapat lepas boyfren dia selalu telepon dan tanya khabar masa dia demam 3 hari. Aku terpikir something yg dia cakap. Kalau dia tak demam dan boyfren dia tak telepon adake maknanya boyfren dia tak serius? So, dia cuma perasan boyfren dia serious pesal dia sakit, so kalau dia tak sakit dia tak perasan ke boyfren dia nak serious? So, pesal boyfren dia je yang tau dia sakit then adake maknanya orang yg tak tau dia sakit pesal diaorg tak telepon tu tak amik berat?
Sekali lagi, norma2 hidup yg tetiba jadik undang-undang ekk? Ala2 kalau dapat sms kena jawap cepat2, kalau tak orang marah... hehehe
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Aku balik kampung minggu lepas pesal ada kenduri. Jumpa kawan chatter lama jap. Seorang manusia menyerupai beruang yg baru shaved, agak buncit tapi dada dia lagi besar, pinggang ala2 muat dipeluk, rambut pendek lurus sikat tepi, gigi putih kecik2, bulu roma tangan agak halus dalam 17-21 helai seinci persegi, punggung bulat, bau wangi melebihi bau lemak, cakap banyak. Just the way I like them. ARGHH!! Cutenya!!
Dia bawak jln2 kat bandar, pesal aku tak reti sgt jln2 ni. Lepak kat Singgah Selalu. Happening gak. Borak2 je dekat 2jam sambil perati org dan sekali-sekala main teka-teki 'Sapa PLU kat sini? Mamat rock dgn mamat pakai baju ketat tu couple ke? Wragghhhkahkahkah!!'. Dia dah ada boyfren. Ahh! The good ones are always taken, there are only leftovers. Hahahah, mesti aku kena laserz kalau ada org yg berkenaan baca statement tadi tu. Dia percayakan long distance relationship. Dia ingatkan aku kat Elaine dalam citer Ally McBeal, very der optimist. Dia buat aku enjoy makan banana split sejuk2 tgh malam kat restoran baru tu. Dia suka Ning Baizura. Dia suka Antara Mungkin Dan Curiga. Aku bagi dia dengar Hazami Keabadian Cinta pun dia suka gak. Tapi masa dah cukup, aku taknak balik lagi tapi ala2 terpaksa.
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Jumpa kawan lama gak minggu ni. Chub, smooth, misai dan goatee, suka diamond. Dia dah ada boyfren. Slim. Bagusle. Dia kata boyfren dia caring, sebab selalu telepon dan sms tanya khabar. Dan dia rasa boyfren dia serious nak rapat lepas boyfren dia selalu telepon dan tanya khabar masa dia demam 3 hari. Aku terpikir something yg dia cakap. Kalau dia tak demam dan boyfren dia tak telepon adake maknanya boyfren dia tak serius? So, dia cuma perasan boyfren dia serious pesal dia sakit, so kalau dia tak sakit dia tak perasan ke boyfren dia nak serious? So, pesal boyfren dia je yang tau dia sakit then adake maknanya orang yg tak tau dia sakit pesal diaorg tak telepon tu tak amik berat?
Sekali lagi, norma2 hidup yg tetiba jadik undang-undang ekk? Ala2 kalau dapat sms kena jawap cepat2, kalau tak orang marah... hehehe
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
Pertemuan yang tak diduga...
Tadi masa moks tengah lepak2 kat opis. Ada orang ketuk pintu. Moks pon pandang la kearah pintu. Tetiba je jantung moks berdebar. Di muka pintu tu, terpancul susuk tubuh seorang chub. Tergamam sekejap... cutenyerrrr dierrrrrr. Very chub... entah chub mana pulak sesat kat opis moks ari ni. Dia muda lagi.. dalam lingkungan 25 keatas. Tinggi dalam 172cm berat dalam 120kg. Waist size dalam 44 - 48. Perghhh... dunia rasa macam berhenti kejap... macam ada chemistry.. terasa ada kejutan elektrik.
"Yer.. nak apa ?" .. dengan stail machonyer bertanya (tak boleh pechah lobang.. kena la gaya abang-abang). "Err.. saya dari Syarikat XYZ, ada kawan saya kata encik nak order quotation dari syarikat kami.
Dia pun menghulur business cardnya. Mata kami saling memandang... tak berkelip lansung. Moks mempersilakannya duduk dan pada masa yang sama, moks jeling-jeling la kat celah kangkangnya tu.. wow.. boleh tahan jugak ni. Perutnya memboyot ke depan. Rasanya dia perasan moks dok asyik pandang kearah perut, dia cuba membetulkan bajunya yang sememangnya ketat di bahagian pinggang tu. Kami pun memulakan perbualan dan moks mula perasan, matanya tak berganjak memandang tajam kearah moks. Business trick ni kot.. nak tengok response pelanggan.
"Macam ni. Saya nak order ... bla bla bla" Dekat 15 minit moks membebel. Herannya.. dia tak tulis pon apa moks nak.. Macam terkaku. Eye contact tak pernah putus. Hmm... ada respon agaknya.
"Ehh... awak tulis tak apa saya nak tadi...?"
"Tak apa.. saya boleh ingat." Barulah tangannya tergopoh-gapah nak mencari pen dan kertas.
"Err.. apa yang encik nak order tadi ?"
Moks pon ulang sekali lagi apa yang moks nak. Dia mula menulis dengan khuyuk. Kebetulan pulak, digital cam moks ada atas meja time tu. Apa lagi.. sambil rancak berbual. Tangan moks dok sebok memicit picu digi cam. Boleh la buat modal time-time kemaruk nanti.
Di tengah-tengah perbualan. Tiba.. tiba dia mengacukan soalan yang tak diduga.
"Maaf ya.. muka Encik ni memang nampak familar".. (Aiseh... ini macam ayat ayat budak all boys SBP nie)
"awak pun macam familiar.. tapi kat mana pernah jumpa ye"
"Rasa macam pernah nampak... encik ni grad dari UTM ke ?" (dlm hati moks... eleh kot kot dah ter-chat kat chennel #mychubs dan siap tukar-tukar face-pic lagie.. bole buat-buat tak kenal)
"Tak la... saya bukan dari sana"
"Tapi betul la.. muka encik ni very familar, sejak dari saya masuk tadi saya cuba nak ingat kat mana kita pernah jumpa."
"Hehhehe.. saya pun rasa kita pernah jumpa. Kalau nak berkenalan dengan lebih dekat pun tak apa." (hints .. hints)
"Encik ada business card tak .. atau contact number ke.. nanti kalau saya free boleh contact encik."
"Ehh.. tak de la.. card saya dah habis" moks sengaja tak kasi business card moks.. sebaliknya, moks capai kertas dan tulis my personal contacts. Moks dah paham.. ni musti nak ngayat ni.
"Ok lah, kalau encik moks perlukan apa-apa, jangan segan-segan nak contact saya..."
"Okay.. no problem"
"Kalau ada masa nanti.. saya nak belanja makan dinner ke.. bole kan?".. wahhh nak ajak dinner date ghietuu..
'Boleehhhhhhhhhh" kalu orang nak belanja moks.. mesti nak punyerr.. apatahlagi kalau chub.
Sambil salam tu.. moks genggam kuat-kuat tangannya. Nak kasi hint sket lagie.
Nanti weekend ni ingat nak call dia balik.. nak ajak keluar sambil mengenali dengan lebih dekat, pertemuan kat opis ni terlampau formal... tapi moks agak dia akan call moks dulu.. hehehhe.. it's just a gut feeling.
Hik hik hik.. seronok gaks ada encounter camni. Anyway utk pembaca sumer.. kena la pandai "read between the lines". Encounter bole terjadi dimana-mana sahaja.. pada waktu yang kita sendiri tak terduga.
Happy Deepavali !!!
P/S:(susulan dihari besoknya)
Dia call gak moks ari ni.. yahoooo.
Pastu siap kasi e-mail lagi:
> Maaf kerana tak dapat jumpa En. Moks (bukan nama sebenar ya) hari ini. Sebab petang ni
> saya ada meeting penting. Besok pula nak pergi out-station, jadi kemungkinan besar
> saya tak ada selama beberapa minggu. En. Moks masih bujang ke ? Kalau bujang, boleh
> ke jumpa malam ni ? Dinner ke ? Ada beberapa pekara penting yang saya nak finalize
> sebelum saya nak submit proposal ni.
> Call saya nanti untuk confirm.
"Yer.. nak apa ?" .. dengan stail machonyer bertanya (tak boleh pechah lobang.. kena la gaya abang-abang). "Err.. saya dari Syarikat XYZ, ada kawan saya kata encik nak order quotation dari syarikat kami.
Dia pun menghulur business cardnya. Mata kami saling memandang... tak berkelip lansung. Moks mempersilakannya duduk dan pada masa yang sama, moks jeling-jeling la kat celah kangkangnya tu.. wow.. boleh tahan jugak ni. Perutnya memboyot ke depan. Rasanya dia perasan moks dok asyik pandang kearah perut, dia cuba membetulkan bajunya yang sememangnya ketat di bahagian pinggang tu. Kami pun memulakan perbualan dan moks mula perasan, matanya tak berganjak memandang tajam kearah moks. Business trick ni kot.. nak tengok response pelanggan.
"Macam ni. Saya nak order ... bla bla bla" Dekat 15 minit moks membebel. Herannya.. dia tak tulis pon apa moks nak.. Macam terkaku. Eye contact tak pernah putus. Hmm... ada respon agaknya.
"Ehh... awak tulis tak apa saya nak tadi...?"
"Tak apa.. saya boleh ingat." Barulah tangannya tergopoh-gapah nak mencari pen dan kertas.
"Err.. apa yang encik nak order tadi ?"
Moks pon ulang sekali lagi apa yang moks nak. Dia mula menulis dengan khuyuk. Kebetulan pulak, digital cam moks ada atas meja time tu. Apa lagi.. sambil rancak berbual. Tangan moks dok sebok memicit picu digi cam. Boleh la buat modal time-time kemaruk nanti.
Di tengah-tengah perbualan. Tiba.. tiba dia mengacukan soalan yang tak diduga.
"Maaf ya.. muka Encik ni memang nampak familar".. (Aiseh... ini macam ayat ayat budak all boys SBP nie)
"awak pun macam familiar.. tapi kat mana pernah jumpa ye"
"Rasa macam pernah nampak... encik ni grad dari UTM ke ?" (dlm hati moks... eleh kot kot dah ter-chat kat chennel #mychubs dan siap tukar-tukar face-pic lagie.. bole buat-buat tak kenal)
"Tak la... saya bukan dari sana"
"Tapi betul la.. muka encik ni very familar, sejak dari saya masuk tadi saya cuba nak ingat kat mana kita pernah jumpa."
"Hehhehe.. saya pun rasa kita pernah jumpa. Kalau nak berkenalan dengan lebih dekat pun tak apa." (hints .. hints)
"Encik ada business card tak .. atau contact number ke.. nanti kalau saya free boleh contact encik."
"Ehh.. tak de la.. card saya dah habis" moks sengaja tak kasi business card moks.. sebaliknya, moks capai kertas dan tulis my personal contacts. Moks dah paham.. ni musti nak ngayat ni.
"Ok lah, kalau encik moks perlukan apa-apa, jangan segan-segan nak contact saya..."
"Okay.. no problem"
"Kalau ada masa nanti.. saya nak belanja makan dinner ke.. bole kan?".. wahhh nak ajak dinner date ghietuu..
'Boleehhhhhhhhhh" kalu orang nak belanja moks.. mesti nak punyerr.. apatahlagi kalau chub.
Sambil salam tu.. moks genggam kuat-kuat tangannya. Nak kasi hint sket lagie.
Nanti weekend ni ingat nak call dia balik.. nak ajak keluar sambil mengenali dengan lebih dekat, pertemuan kat opis ni terlampau formal... tapi moks agak dia akan call moks dulu.. hehehhe.. it's just a gut feeling.
Hik hik hik.. seronok gaks ada encounter camni. Anyway utk pembaca sumer.. kena la pandai "read between the lines". Encounter bole terjadi dimana-mana sahaja.. pada waktu yang kita sendiri tak terduga.
Happy Deepavali !!!
P/S:(susulan dihari besoknya)
Dia call gak moks ari ni.. yahoooo.
Pastu siap kasi e-mail lagi:
> Maaf kerana tak dapat jumpa En. Moks (bukan nama sebenar ya) hari ini. Sebab petang ni
> saya ada meeting penting. Besok pula nak pergi out-station, jadi kemungkinan besar
> saya tak ada selama beberapa minggu. En. Moks masih bujang ke ? Kalau bujang, boleh
> ke jumpa malam ni ? Dinner ke ? Ada beberapa pekara penting yang saya nak finalize
> sebelum saya nak submit proposal ni.
> Call saya nanti untuk confirm.
Friday, October 10, 2003
MyChub Latest Projects...
Hi Guys, kali ni moks tak der nak citer pasal encounter. Tapi nak citer pasal projek-projek terbaru kat mychub website. Kalu y'all nak tau, ada banyak inovasi yang sedang berjalan dibelakang tabir website mychub ni. (iskk .. jangan berfikiran kotor sedara2 sekalian). Apa yang moks maksudkan ialah internet services.
Yang paling baru ialah linking Internet Radio dengan Gaydar UK. So skrg y'all bole lah mendengar lagu berunsur PLU sesambil melawat website mychub atau meng-chat di chatroom MyChubs. Hasil kreatif Jaze_Ipoh.
Disamping itu, kami juga sedang berkerja keras untuk membina RSS newsfeed (amende tuh.. ?? ) Well, RSS nie macam berita terbaru ala2 website berita harian / the star tapi mengenai berita Chub & Chaser dan boleh diletakkan di laman web peribadi sedara2 sekalian - ianya diupdate secara otomatis. Diusahakan oleh GemuKChub
Selain itu, kami juga sedang dalam bergiat dalam pembinaan servis baru iaitu MyResipi - satu ruangan untuk berkongsi maklumat mengenai pemakanan yang sihat dan pada waktu yang sama boleh membina perut .. hehehe. Diusahakan oleh Mashimaro
Pada masa yang sama kami juga sedang membina skrip IRC untuk OP di channel MyChubs. Add-on terbaru skrip MyChub2003 bole didownload dari website. Hasil usaha Nightshiver.
Akhir sekali, terdapat beberapa projek Multimedia Flash yang sedang berjalan untuk Intro website dan juga MyCard Greetings dibawah pengawasan Ali-SetanKL.
So, kalau y'all berminat nak menyumbang idea/hasil kerja kreatif dalam bidang2 yang disebutkan tadi... sila lah e-mail kepada : mychub@time.net.my
"Bersama menyumbang untuk komuniti Chub & Chaser"
Peace Broder !!!!
Yang paling baru ialah linking Internet Radio dengan Gaydar UK. So skrg y'all bole lah mendengar lagu berunsur PLU sesambil melawat website mychub atau meng-chat di chatroom MyChubs. Hasil kreatif Jaze_Ipoh.
Disamping itu, kami juga sedang berkerja keras untuk membina RSS newsfeed (amende tuh.. ?? ) Well, RSS nie macam berita terbaru ala2 website berita harian / the star tapi mengenai berita Chub & Chaser dan boleh diletakkan di laman web peribadi sedara2 sekalian - ianya diupdate secara otomatis. Diusahakan oleh GemuKChub
Selain itu, kami juga sedang dalam bergiat dalam pembinaan servis baru iaitu MyResipi - satu ruangan untuk berkongsi maklumat mengenai pemakanan yang sihat dan pada waktu yang sama boleh membina perut .. hehehe. Diusahakan oleh Mashimaro
Pada masa yang sama kami juga sedang membina skrip IRC untuk OP di channel MyChubs. Add-on terbaru skrip MyChub2003 bole didownload dari website. Hasil usaha Nightshiver.
Akhir sekali, terdapat beberapa projek Multimedia Flash yang sedang berjalan untuk Intro website dan juga MyCard Greetings dibawah pengawasan Ali-SetanKL.
So, kalau y'all berminat nak menyumbang idea/hasil kerja kreatif dalam bidang2 yang disebutkan tadi... sila lah e-mail kepada : mychub@time.net.my
"Bersama menyumbang untuk komuniti Chub & Chaser"
Peace Broder !!!!
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
Salam Sayang...
Hi rakan-rakan dan adik-adik semua! mashimaro kembali lagi dalam rancangan…Joe Jambullllll!!! oppss…Ben jgn marah yerk…gurau jerk!ahaks.
Hi Semua…Buat pertama-tama kalinya saya diberi peluang utk menulis didalam ruangan Blogger Mychub ini. Terasa bosan pulak asyik berchatting jerk,nak jugak curahkan citer kat Blogger ni…ghituee…
Mungkin ada yg dah tahu kan yg saya masuk hospital aritu sebab buat pembedahan mata.Anyway saya dah semakin beransur pulih. Takder apa sangat pengalaman selama 2 minggu lebih kat wad cuma meluat jerk dgn gelagat beberapa orang Nurse yg agak 'getikz’ dan 'gedik’ ditahap maksima!Doktor2 semua ok dan friendly.
Terima kasihlah kepada teman-teman yg sudi dtg melawat saya kat hospital aritu Nanti kalau korang ‘termasuk’ hospital aku pi melawat pulak yerk…hehehe. Especially to my bf yg tersayang sbb really take care of me, love u kebabz! ahaks.
Hari ni saya nak ler citer sikit tentang hal ehwal memaki hamun orang! Adalah sekali tu gambar saya telah terpampang di front page website Mychub (ala2 jadik cover ghitue..). Semua ni hasil usaha kreatif GemukChub!hahaha.
Lepas pic tu kluar, adalah sorang dua umat ni yg ntah ler apsal tak puas hati dgn saya tetiba jerk send msg dan sms dlm website Mychub dan memaki hamun saya dgn kata2 yg agak kesat. Well,kalau tak puas hati dgn org toksah ler selindung2…ni tidak,dah ler letak nama palsu pastu dok maki2 saya pulak! Getikz sangat perbuatan tu! kalau berani tampilkan lah diri yg sebenar! Sesedap rasa jerk nak ngata org!Dasar penakut, ngata belakang jer buat per!!!
Oklah saya bukan marah pon, okjerk..no hal ler!nak pesan sikit kat org yg maki2 saya tu, pls ler cermin muka tu sikit sebelum nak ngata org! Sesungguhnya kita benci seseorang itu, tak perlulah memberitahu semua orang. Lets keep it to ourselves, tak payah membuka keaiban orang lain lah. Kalau dah rasa diri tu ‘gila’, pls jgn nak libatkan org lain! Dasar getikz & gedikz yg spastik!!! Kata pepatah orang putih, "All chubs are grey in the dark!", what goes around comes around....
Hmm..sorry yerk semua..ter’over’ emosi pulak, geram siott!!
Ok, tu saja utk kali ini, sampai ketemu di lain cerita. Bubyeee..
Vote for Nana!!!…………..hehe
Hi Semua…Buat pertama-tama kalinya saya diberi peluang utk menulis didalam ruangan Blogger Mychub ini. Terasa bosan pulak asyik berchatting jerk,nak jugak curahkan citer kat Blogger ni…ghituee…
Mungkin ada yg dah tahu kan yg saya masuk hospital aritu sebab buat pembedahan mata.Anyway saya dah semakin beransur pulih. Takder apa sangat pengalaman selama 2 minggu lebih kat wad cuma meluat jerk dgn gelagat beberapa orang Nurse yg agak 'getikz’ dan 'gedik’ ditahap maksima!Doktor2 semua ok dan friendly.
Terima kasihlah kepada teman-teman yg sudi dtg melawat saya kat hospital aritu Nanti kalau korang ‘termasuk’ hospital aku pi melawat pulak yerk…hehehe. Especially to my bf yg tersayang sbb really take care of me, love u kebabz! ahaks.
Hari ni saya nak ler citer sikit tentang hal ehwal memaki hamun orang! Adalah sekali tu gambar saya telah terpampang di front page website Mychub (ala2 jadik cover ghitue..). Semua ni hasil usaha kreatif GemukChub!hahaha.
Lepas pic tu kluar, adalah sorang dua umat ni yg ntah ler apsal tak puas hati dgn saya tetiba jerk send msg dan sms dlm website Mychub dan memaki hamun saya dgn kata2 yg agak kesat. Well,kalau tak puas hati dgn org toksah ler selindung2…ni tidak,dah ler letak nama palsu pastu dok maki2 saya pulak! Getikz sangat perbuatan tu! kalau berani tampilkan lah diri yg sebenar! Sesedap rasa jerk nak ngata org!Dasar penakut, ngata belakang jer buat per!!!
Oklah saya bukan marah pon, okjerk..no hal ler!nak pesan sikit kat org yg maki2 saya tu, pls ler cermin muka tu sikit sebelum nak ngata org! Sesungguhnya kita benci seseorang itu, tak perlulah memberitahu semua orang. Lets keep it to ourselves, tak payah membuka keaiban orang lain lah. Kalau dah rasa diri tu ‘gila’, pls jgn nak libatkan org lain! Dasar getikz & gedikz yg spastik!!! Kata pepatah orang putih, "All chubs are grey in the dark!", what goes around comes around....
Hmm..sorry yerk semua..ter’over’ emosi pulak, geram siott!!
Ok, tu saja utk kali ini, sampai ketemu di lain cerita. Bubyeee..
Vote for Nana!!!…………..hehe
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
AN ENCOUNTER!
Hi! Apa khabar semua? Harap semua baik. Well i chatted with this guy on gay.com/chat. He is pretty nice and from KL. We have been chatting and also SMS each other and sekali-sekali call. Well from his photo, you will not guess his real self.
I went to KL over the weekend and took the opportunity to meet him. We made appointment to meet Saturday. But last minute he was working as he had a dateline to meet for his work. So, I told him not to worry. He called me around 8 at night. He asked to meet for dinner. He even came to my hotel to meet me. Wow, I was shocked to see him as I entered his car! His picture showed me that he was not so big. But he was. My taste! Anyway, I act cool.
We had good dinner and long chat! He sent me back at about 11 or so. I understand kepenatan! I would say he is 1.7m, and weigh 120 kg. He asked me to call him again and hopefully things will be better when I go to KL the next time. Looking forward to that! And anotehr meeting!
I went to KL over the weekend and took the opportunity to meet him. We made appointment to meet Saturday. But last minute he was working as he had a dateline to meet for his work. So, I told him not to worry. He called me around 8 at night. He asked to meet for dinner. He even came to my hotel to meet me. Wow, I was shocked to see him as I entered his car! His picture showed me that he was not so big. But he was. My taste! Anyway, I act cool.
We had good dinner and long chat! He sent me back at about 11 or so. I understand kepenatan! I would say he is 1.7m, and weigh 120 kg. He asked me to call him again and hopefully things will be better when I go to KL the next time. Looking forward to that! And anotehr meeting!
Wednesday, September 03, 2003
The Handphone...
It took me the longest time to write to this blogger nowadays. Not because I ran out of encounters but due to lack of time on my hands. Well.. this little incident I must share with all you dearest readers. It occured when was I was strolling along the TESCO shopping complex the other day. It was squirming with people. Especially during this Merdeka holiday weekend. There were lots of chubbies too. Small chubbies.. BIG Chubbies.. Cute Chubbies... all came "out of their shell" to welcome this festive occasion. So there I was, sitting inside at a corner of the KFC Restaurant. Looking at people passing by and scooping my 3rd helping scoop of Sara Lee's Vanilla Ice-Cream. When a cute chubby guy with goatee and moustache caught my eye. He was 5'8" in height, 112kg at least and jaw dropping smile that you couldn't resist. He was wearing dark polo shirt and a white trouses which shaped his butt nicely. The tight shirt wraps around his body jingles at the belly as he walks towards me.
"Excuse me... Could I ask you a favour" he asked...
"Sure... how can I help" I replied with a little bit of shock.
"Well it seems that I had lost my handphone.. do you have a handphone so that you could call mine ?"
Defiantly, I took my handphone from my pocket.. "Sooo.. what's ur number please.. "
"It's 012-XXX XXXX ... give it a few minutes to ring."... So I pressed the number on to my phone and waited.
It gave a couple of rings but nobody answered. After it seems a minute or two he said thank you and went his way.
I did not gave it a thought afterwards but continued to eat my ice-cream.
Later that night, a familiar number flashed on my handphone.
"Helloo..."
"Hi... Remember me the guys at TESCO ?"
"Oh yes.. I still do" .. feeling the nervousness in his voice.
"I just wanna thank you for the call.. I managed to find my handphone at last.. I missplaced it in my car actually"
"Oh issit ? I glad that you found it"
"Err... do you mind if we go out sometime tomorrow ?.. err.. as a token of gratitude."
"Okay.. but it's your treat.. so where do you want to meet ?"
"How about TESCO... same time and same place ?
"Okay.. see you there then.. bye"
"Byee.."
Duhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Did a cute chubby guy just ask me out ? I never thought that the handphone missing was a trick. But i admit it works. Anyway... wish me luck on this date. Who knows.. we might be sharing Ice-Cream from the same cup. To you guys out there.... there is life out there.. there is hope out there... u just need to be a part of it.
Happy Merdeka Fun
GemuKChub
"Excuse me... Could I ask you a favour" he asked...
"Sure... how can I help" I replied with a little bit of shock.
"Well it seems that I had lost my handphone.. do you have a handphone so that you could call mine ?"
Defiantly, I took my handphone from my pocket.. "Sooo.. what's ur number please.. "
"It's 012-XXX XXXX ... give it a few minutes to ring."... So I pressed the number on to my phone and waited.
It gave a couple of rings but nobody answered. After it seems a minute or two he said thank you and went his way.
I did not gave it a thought afterwards but continued to eat my ice-cream.
Later that night, a familiar number flashed on my handphone.
"Helloo..."
"Hi... Remember me the guys at TESCO ?"
"Oh yes.. I still do" .. feeling the nervousness in his voice.
"I just wanna thank you for the call.. I managed to find my handphone at last.. I missplaced it in my car actually"
"Oh issit ? I glad that you found it"
"Err... do you mind if we go out sometime tomorrow ?.. err.. as a token of gratitude."
"Okay.. but it's your treat.. so where do you want to meet ?"
"How about TESCO... same time and same place ?
"Okay.. see you there then.. bye"
"Byee.."
Duhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Did a cute chubby guy just ask me out ? I never thought that the handphone missing was a trick. But i admit it works. Anyway... wish me luck on this date. Who knows.. we might be sharing Ice-Cream from the same cup. To you guys out there.... there is life out there.. there is hope out there... u just need to be a part of it.
Happy Merdeka Fun
GemuKChub
Friday, August 08, 2003
My 2 cent
Interesting comments. At least I knew there are people who read it. Me and friends had a heated argument about being gay about 7-8 years ago, about whether it's 'nature vs nurture'. It came out in TIME magazine if I'm not mistaken, some gay professor from Harvard found some 'differences between hetero and homo brains'. But, I pick nurture. The idea of blaming my genes somehow does not appeal to me, it sort of give me the idea that I do not have control over my choices. Probably the same crap about having worker genes and leader genes. That's the summary, the whole argument shit was a lot nastier, which in the end, no one really wins.
I would say I'm turned on by personality, intelligence, success. I would say Marlon Brando as Don Vito Corleone in 'the Godfather' very sexy. The idea of a small man, soft spoken, kinda bubbly, but in total control of the families in New York is very very interesting. Just his personality, not his organised crime activities. The same probably goes with Dr Hannibal Lecter, played by Sir Anthony Hopkins. The idea that he commands so much, able to delve into other people's mind, that's like "WHOOOOOAAAHHH!!!".
What have I been up to these days? Weekly trip to Bleubar, screamed happily when they play Beyonce's Crazy In Love, and cursed when they play 'The Number One Song In Bleubar for the fucking 4th month Shanty and Marcell's Hanya Memuji'. Oh my God! That song was like a year plus ago! Perhaps I kinda take it too seriously, but I do believe DJs have a social responsibility to educate the crowd, probably by playing up-to-date songs, with the intention of keeping abreast with the current hits, and guide the not-so-lucky clubbers who probably don't have fast ISDN/ADSL/T3 internet connections to download all the latest hits. Somehow the songs are better on Fridays than on Saturdays, apparently the crowd on Saturdays have more 'youngsters', and they prefer 'Chiki Girls' to 'Destiny's Child'. Really?
I would say I'm turned on by personality, intelligence, success. I would say Marlon Brando as Don Vito Corleone in 'the Godfather' very sexy. The idea of a small man, soft spoken, kinda bubbly, but in total control of the families in New York is very very interesting. Just his personality, not his organised crime activities. The same probably goes with Dr Hannibal Lecter, played by Sir Anthony Hopkins. The idea that he commands so much, able to delve into other people's mind, that's like "WHOOOOOAAAHHH!!!".
What have I been up to these days? Weekly trip to Bleubar, screamed happily when they play Beyonce's Crazy In Love, and cursed when they play 'The Number One Song In Bleubar for the fucking 4th month Shanty and Marcell's Hanya Memuji'. Oh my God! That song was like a year plus ago! Perhaps I kinda take it too seriously, but I do believe DJs have a social responsibility to educate the crowd, probably by playing up-to-date songs, with the intention of keeping abreast with the current hits, and guide the not-so-lucky clubbers who probably don't have fast ISDN/ADSL/T3 internet connections to download all the latest hits. Somehow the songs are better on Fridays than on Saturdays, apparently the crowd on Saturdays have more 'youngsters', and they prefer 'Chiki Girls' to 'Destiny's Child'. Really?
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
MY VIEW!
Hi there, I just got reading the previous articles. Well to me, I knew I was different from others at the age of 13 or so. I was attracted to guys then. I found certain types of men interesting to look at and would always look at them. But at that time, I did not know what this is about.
It is only about 3 to 4 years later that I used to use shopping centre toilets. Of course, keluar lepak dengan kawan-kawan sekolah. It is then that I became aware of messages behind toilet doors. I used to ead as many as I can and imagine what was happening. Actually at 17, there was a few times that I was approached but I chickened out. Only at 19, did I dare enter a toilet and try out a quickie! But was not a good experience. I promised would not do it again but somehow it happens again and again. At 20 I got a girl friend. Was long term but did not work out as I felt she having a university degree versus me who did not would not work well. After that I went all out cruising. Believe you me, in the 5 years of our friendship, I can count that the maximum number of men I cruised was 5.
But tastes change. Before I was not at all attracted to chub guys. It is only hen I met a guy about 1987 and I realised what it was. Until today he and I are good friends. But he is in KL now. I think he is the one who has made me see chub guys in a different way now.
It is only about 3 to 4 years later that I used to use shopping centre toilets. Of course, keluar lepak dengan kawan-kawan sekolah. It is then that I became aware of messages behind toilet doors. I used to ead as many as I can and imagine what was happening. Actually at 17, there was a few times that I was approached but I chickened out. Only at 19, did I dare enter a toilet and try out a quickie! But was not a good experience. I promised would not do it again but somehow it happens again and again. At 20 I got a girl friend. Was long term but did not work out as I felt she having a university degree versus me who did not would not work well. After that I went all out cruising. Believe you me, in the 5 years of our friendship, I can count that the maximum number of men I cruised was 5.
But tastes change. Before I was not at all attracted to chub guys. It is only hen I met a guy about 1987 and I realised what it was. Until today he and I are good friends. But he is in KL now. I think he is the one who has made me see chub guys in a different way now.
Sunday, July 06, 2003
Friday, July 04, 2003
i havent written for quite some time, not that i was bz or something like that (I am eternally bz with work, anyway) it's just that i found that writing for this blog proved to be quite a hard challenge, not everyday we experienced encounters and not every day we resort into slutness. Anyway, what Raden Putra @ istante wrote made me want to share my 2 cents worth. lately i have been questioning my gayness and my situation as a chub with homosexual tendency. True, history and environment play a major part in making me decide to be what i am as applicable to 'Zul's' friend who were unfortunate enough to be mishandled by his own uncle hence evoke his decision to be what he is today. What I am trying to get at is this: is it the whole truth? is it because of one particular or maybe a series of episodes that led us to resort to our own likings? Many people will gladly tell you his story of why he become gay in the first place, but then to me, the story were purely made up (not imposing that the story/ies wasnt true or anything, it just that it did happen but it's probably not the REAL reason) The episodes or the stories simply strengthening it but it wasnt the CAUSE. My theory : we (plu and the like) are afraid of women, or we respect women too much or women simply too fucking hard to handle. So we find comfort in men and embrace them whenever we can. i will let this linger on your mind and i welcome any feedback before i finally present my case with deliberation and arguments.
regards
rozman
www.deadjournal.com/users/tristrandoe
regards
rozman
www.deadjournal.com/users/tristrandoe
Thursday, July 03, 2003
Ada member minta tolong letak dialog ni... Kot2 sesapa nak bagi komen dipersilakan, topik mungkin agak heavy.
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Knock! Knock! Aku ketuk pintu.
“Jap!” terdengar suara kat dalam bilik.
“Hi!”
“Huh?! Eh… hi… so betul ke aku ni orang yang ko nampak aritu?”
Aku cuma senyum. “Camana bleh tertidur? Apa ko buat arini?”
Dia menguap sekali. “Aku baru sampai. Penat siutt! Err… panggil aku Hari”
“Ok, panggil aku Zul.”
“Jap ekk… aku nak mandi jap” Dia pakai tuala dgn baju melayu masuk bilik air.
Aku lepak je kat katil, perati dinding dengan siling, kot2 ada lubang dan kamera tersembunyi. Paranoid betul aku.
Dia dah habis mandi, dan masih pakai tuala dgn baju melayu. Dan masih bulat dan gebu.
………………………………………………………….
Dia tidur terlentang, aku baring atas dada dia, mengadap muka dia.
“So, bila ko nak balik Penang?”
Dia tak jawap. “Macamana ko tau aku aritu? Ko ngendap aku chatting yer?”
“Ha’a. Aku lalu kat PC kau, aku nampak nama2 channel yg kau masuk. Heheh”
“Ko tau, aku panik giler masa kau tegur aku tu, tangan aku siap menggigil! Masa aku jalan ke luar tu pun menggeletar lagi! Aku ingat aku dah cover abis dah…”
“Ala… org yg tau mesti tau punyer… ko ada bagi satu renungan yg boleh diagak. Hehehehe…”
“Hmmm…abih tadi kau tak lari lak masa aku bukak pintu tadi?”
“Err? Napa kau cakap camtu? Kau penah kena ada org lari bila kau bukak pintu ke?”
“Takle… saja tanya. Mesti ramai chubby-chubby kat KL kau dah jumpa kan?”
“Wahhh!! Molottttt! Takda le… aku buat member jek! Lebih2 pun takda! Kalau dah kenal sebagai kawan aku buat jadi kawan aja…”
“Abih aku ni?”
“Err… dalam hal ni aku ni kira mangsa, kau goda aku suruh datang bilik kau… Hahahahah”
“Siutttttttttt!”
“Takle camtu. Aku ada unwritten rule kot, nak explain pun susah. Lain2 kali aja le. Kau citer le pesal kau, biar je aku baring atas dada kau ni…. Citer le apa2…Err, kau takda kutu kan? Hehehhe”
“Siutttttt! Heheh…”
“Hehehe.. ko perasan tak? Bila ko bercakap tetek ko ikut bergerak sekali. Hahahahah…”
“Woii!! Merapu je ko nih! Hehhehe… Eh! Ko tau, aku terjebak dalam dunia ni masa kecik."
"Duhh!! Isn't everyone?!"
"Citer aku panjang. Aku kena dengan uncle aku. Confuse, siut. Sanggup dia buat camtu kat budak2 yang tak tau apa2. Sakit. Aku menangis. Aku memang dendam dengan dia sampai sekarang. Sampai mati aku takkan maafkan dia."
"....."
"Aku grew up confused, marah kat diri sendiri. Aku taktau nak cakap kat sapa. Taktau nak mintak tolong kat sapa. Org2 kampung aku kenal dia sapa, kira org yg baik2 jugak, so mesti diaorg tak percaya dia buat macam tu. Akal budak kecik aku ni suruh aku makan banyak2, supaya badan aku besar, nanti aku boleh lawan dia balik, nanti aku boleh jaga adik2 aku kalau diaorg pulak kena kacau."
"....."
"Aku taktau apa diaorg pikir sampai sanggup buat camtu kat budak2 yang tak berakal. Tapi aku macam kena sumpah lak. Aku jatuh cinta dgn lelaki. Buat aku lagi confuse. Untung bebudak sekarang, diaorg byk tmpt nak luahkan perasaan."
"Bukan salah kau, beb... tu aja yg boleh aku cakap. Bukan nak offer comfort, aku tak pandai, tapi mmg bukan salah kau..."
(bersambung bila rajin...)
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Knock! Knock! Aku ketuk pintu.
“Jap!” terdengar suara kat dalam bilik.
“Hi!”
“Huh?! Eh… hi… so betul ke aku ni orang yang ko nampak aritu?”
Aku cuma senyum. “Camana bleh tertidur? Apa ko buat arini?”
Dia menguap sekali. “Aku baru sampai. Penat siutt! Err… panggil aku Hari”
“Ok, panggil aku Zul.”
“Jap ekk… aku nak mandi jap” Dia pakai tuala dgn baju melayu masuk bilik air.
Aku lepak je kat katil, perati dinding dengan siling, kot2 ada lubang dan kamera tersembunyi. Paranoid betul aku.
Dia dah habis mandi, dan masih pakai tuala dgn baju melayu. Dan masih bulat dan gebu.
………………………………………………………….
Dia tidur terlentang, aku baring atas dada dia, mengadap muka dia.
“So, bila ko nak balik Penang?”
Dia tak jawap. “Macamana ko tau aku aritu? Ko ngendap aku chatting yer?”
“Ha’a. Aku lalu kat PC kau, aku nampak nama2 channel yg kau masuk. Heheh”
“Ko tau, aku panik giler masa kau tegur aku tu, tangan aku siap menggigil! Masa aku jalan ke luar tu pun menggeletar lagi! Aku ingat aku dah cover abis dah…”
“Ala… org yg tau mesti tau punyer… ko ada bagi satu renungan yg boleh diagak. Hehehehe…”
“Hmmm…abih tadi kau tak lari lak masa aku bukak pintu tadi?”
“Err? Napa kau cakap camtu? Kau penah kena ada org lari bila kau bukak pintu ke?”
“Takle… saja tanya. Mesti ramai chubby-chubby kat KL kau dah jumpa kan?”
“Wahhh!! Molottttt! Takda le… aku buat member jek! Lebih2 pun takda! Kalau dah kenal sebagai kawan aku buat jadi kawan aja…”
“Abih aku ni?”
“Err… dalam hal ni aku ni kira mangsa, kau goda aku suruh datang bilik kau… Hahahahah”
“Siutttttttttt!”
“Takle camtu. Aku ada unwritten rule kot, nak explain pun susah. Lain2 kali aja le. Kau citer le pesal kau, biar je aku baring atas dada kau ni…. Citer le apa2…Err, kau takda kutu kan? Hehehhe”
“Siutttttt! Heheh…”
“Hehehe.. ko perasan tak? Bila ko bercakap tetek ko ikut bergerak sekali. Hahahahah…”
“Woii!! Merapu je ko nih! Hehhehe… Eh! Ko tau, aku terjebak dalam dunia ni masa kecik."
"Duhh!! Isn't everyone?!"
"Citer aku panjang. Aku kena dengan uncle aku. Confuse, siut. Sanggup dia buat camtu kat budak2 yang tak tau apa2. Sakit. Aku menangis. Aku memang dendam dengan dia sampai sekarang. Sampai mati aku takkan maafkan dia."
"....."
"Aku grew up confused, marah kat diri sendiri. Aku taktau nak cakap kat sapa. Taktau nak mintak tolong kat sapa. Org2 kampung aku kenal dia sapa, kira org yg baik2 jugak, so mesti diaorg tak percaya dia buat macam tu. Akal budak kecik aku ni suruh aku makan banyak2, supaya badan aku besar, nanti aku boleh lawan dia balik, nanti aku boleh jaga adik2 aku kalau diaorg pulak kena kacau."
"....."
"Aku taktau apa diaorg pikir sampai sanggup buat camtu kat budak2 yang tak berakal. Tapi aku macam kena sumpah lak. Aku jatuh cinta dgn lelaki. Buat aku lagi confuse. Untung bebudak sekarang, diaorg byk tmpt nak luahkan perasaan."
"Bukan salah kau, beb... tu aja yg boleh aku cakap. Bukan nak offer comfort, aku tak pandai, tapi mmg bukan salah kau..."
(bersambung bila rajin...)
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
6am. I felt too fuckin' tired to drive home, so I went to Tasik Permaisuri (how convenient, eh?!). Twas a long day, 'lepak' at bleu, watched the glittering show by glitters dot com, bitched about how everyone danced on the podium, and secretly thought that I would look worse. My my, people must think I'm such a desperado, coming there at 6, when people are about to go jogging. Oh well, all I wanted to do was to get a short nap. And I really really hope the slim guy in Planet Hollywood t-shirt wouldn't be there. I got a major shock the last time I saw him where suddenly I saw a face smiling near my car. Opps, make that eyes and teeth.
But it's too stuffy in the car, and I have no idea what else to listen to, tho I have literally thousands of songs, so, I got out of the car, lit a cigarette. But it's too bright at the parking lot! I gotta go somewhere darker, so that my mind can relax, and perhaps saw some activities, so I walked slowly into the park. Yeah yeah, create a reason to go inside, eh? I'm like so telling the truth... hehe
Saw some enthusiasts trying to catch some Flower Horn in the lake. Err, that ugly hybrid that's supposed to be bred in Malaysia? Why? Whatever... as long as everyone's happy. Oh my! It's actually darker in here! I can actually relax my mind here!! And they have chairs too!! Now why don't I sit down, smoke a few cigarettes and just be quiet.
"Hi! Apa khabar?"
"Er? Ok, khabar baik!" I replied
"Panggil aku Wan. Nkau?"
"Ok. Panggil aku Zul" (why Zul? I've no God-damned fucking idea why, but the name's familiar, so I used that name)
"Tak balik lagi? Dah pukul 6 dah ni." (Pointing at his watch)
(Huh! Jam Cartier ke?! Hiskk, napa tetiba aku jadi judgmental ni?)"Dah balik dah, saja datang balik, tertinggal molot, ni yg nak cari ni"
"Hehehehahahahahhhehehehehehehehehe. Awak ni kelakar lah!"
(Hmm, the transition from 'engkau' to 'awak'. Sesuatuh!! Makin lama makin lembut nih!) "Dok mana?"
"Er... er... er.... Ampang!"
(Aisey! Did u just make that up? Trust me, pumpkin, I don't care.)"Ok. Bagus tempat tu. Kat situ banyak TV warna dan klip kertas."
"Huh?!?! Apadia? Tak faham lah!"
"Heheheh... takda apa2...aku tgh boring, tu yang merapu tu. Jom jalan2 jap sedut udara segar."
Lyndon:
Hmm, mesti ko ni peminat cerita Ally McBeal kan? Yang bagusnya ko ni optimistic pesal life. Aku tak kenal ko tapi I don't find any reason for you to change becoz someone asks you to. Sort of you wouldn't be you anymore. Kata kawan aku, ala2 ikut konsep programming, ko dah tau apa silap, so betulkan le algorythm tu. Tapi emosi masuk campur, kan? Ko bukan mesin, ko manusia yg ada perasaan. Senang cakap daripada buat. Tapi cam kata kawan ko ler..you tak serik lagi ker?? Would it be that somehow deep inside, you're hoping that they're not as manupulative leech as they appear to be? Or the thought of being alone kinda scary? You already know the problem, you know what needs to be done. Good luck! And I believe you, he's out there somewhere...
But it's too stuffy in the car, and I have no idea what else to listen to, tho I have literally thousands of songs, so, I got out of the car, lit a cigarette. But it's too bright at the parking lot! I gotta go somewhere darker, so that my mind can relax, and perhaps saw some activities, so I walked slowly into the park. Yeah yeah, create a reason to go inside, eh? I'm like so telling the truth... hehe
Saw some enthusiasts trying to catch some Flower Horn in the lake. Err, that ugly hybrid that's supposed to be bred in Malaysia? Why? Whatever... as long as everyone's happy. Oh my! It's actually darker in here! I can actually relax my mind here!! And they have chairs too!! Now why don't I sit down, smoke a few cigarettes and just be quiet.
"Hi! Apa khabar?"
"Er? Ok, khabar baik!" I replied
"Panggil aku Wan. Nkau?"
"Ok. Panggil aku Zul" (why Zul? I've no God-damned fucking idea why, but the name's familiar, so I used that name)
"Tak balik lagi? Dah pukul 6 dah ni." (Pointing at his watch)
(Huh! Jam Cartier ke?! Hiskk, napa tetiba aku jadi judgmental ni?)"Dah balik dah, saja datang balik, tertinggal molot, ni yg nak cari ni"
"Hehehehahahahahhhehehehehehehehehe. Awak ni kelakar lah!"
(Hmm, the transition from 'engkau' to 'awak'. Sesuatuh!! Makin lama makin lembut nih!) "Dok mana?"
"Er... er... er.... Ampang!"
(Aisey! Did u just make that up? Trust me, pumpkin, I don't care.)"Ok. Bagus tempat tu. Kat situ banyak TV warna dan klip kertas."
"Huh?!?! Apadia? Tak faham lah!"
"Heheheh... takda apa2...aku tgh boring, tu yang merapu tu. Jom jalan2 jap sedut udara segar."
Lyndon:
Hmm, mesti ko ni peminat cerita Ally McBeal kan? Yang bagusnya ko ni optimistic pesal life. Aku tak kenal ko tapi I don't find any reason for you to change becoz someone asks you to. Sort of you wouldn't be you anymore. Kata kawan aku, ala2 ikut konsep programming, ko dah tau apa silap, so betulkan le algorythm tu. Tapi emosi masuk campur, kan? Ko bukan mesin, ko manusia yg ada perasaan. Senang cakap daripada buat. Tapi cam kata kawan ko ler..you tak serik lagi ker?? Would it be that somehow deep inside, you're hoping that they're not as manupulative leech as they appear to be? Or the thought of being alone kinda scary? You already know the problem, you know what needs to be done. Good luck! And I believe you, he's out there somewhere...
Monday, May 19, 2003
Hi there, Sudah lama saya tidak tulis untuk blog ini. Firstly, congratulations...both of you....hope you have a long and lasting relationship that just gets better as the days go by!! Itu harapan saya!
For me life is pretty quiet. Since I last met that guy in KL, nothng much. But as all tales go in my life, it has come to an end! Well, that is life...tapi kita kena terus hidup kan?? But seriously I think I need to look into myself. Saya dapat rasa yang kebanyakan daripada orang yang saya jumpa, menganggap kebaikan saya sebagai satu kelemahan! Of course, nothing else counts! It is money.
Sebelum ini dia tu dah kata....abang tak boleh tulis untuk blog lagi....I had a whole list of demands. Never mind. Saya akan mematuhinya. But as usual, the rest of the story revolves around money. Saya tak tahu kenapalah......kebanyakan yang saya telah jumpa di KL akan minta wang dari saya! This one was a classic case. When I refused to give, plus masa tu I memang sakit. Mana boleh pergi bank nak hantar duit pada dia. Baik tu, he will call me often to check on my health. But bila saya tak hantar duit pada dia, terus dia senyap.
It has happened to me before....I think semuanya 3 dari KL! Sampai my good friend kata...you tak serik lagi ker??
I am sure that outside there, there is someone for me, but I have yet to discover him. In the meantime, I will carry on searching!!
For me life is pretty quiet. Since I last met that guy in KL, nothng much. But as all tales go in my life, it has come to an end! Well, that is life...tapi kita kena terus hidup kan?? But seriously I think I need to look into myself. Saya dapat rasa yang kebanyakan daripada orang yang saya jumpa, menganggap kebaikan saya sebagai satu kelemahan! Of course, nothing else counts! It is money.
Sebelum ini dia tu dah kata....abang tak boleh tulis untuk blog lagi....I had a whole list of demands. Never mind. Saya akan mematuhinya. But as usual, the rest of the story revolves around money. Saya tak tahu kenapalah......kebanyakan yang saya telah jumpa di KL akan minta wang dari saya! This one was a classic case. When I refused to give, plus masa tu I memang sakit. Mana boleh pergi bank nak hantar duit pada dia. Baik tu, he will call me often to check on my health. But bila saya tak hantar duit pada dia, terus dia senyap.
It has happened to me before....I think semuanya 3 dari KL! Sampai my good friend kata...you tak serik lagi ker??
I am sure that outside there, there is someone for me, but I have yet to discover him. In the meantime, I will carry on searching!!
Thursday, May 08, 2003
Hi, it's been quite some time since moks have written anything into this blogger. Sorry dearest readers, a lot has happened with my life and my present work continues to take more and more of my leisure time. Anyway, i'm back for now and I just want to share with you a story that I had encountered a few weeks ago. Well, I was sitting in a restaurant waiting for my ordered set lunch, when I noticed a cute daddy chub sitting in front of me. He was fair for a Malay, around the age of 40-ish, waist 42, around 168cm and 100kg. There was a cute little mole under his ear which makes him irresistable. He was wearing a white office shirt that hugs his huge belly and dark colored pants which curved nicely around his bubble butt. I tried NOT to stare at him... but one just cannot resist such temptations when one is presented with such delicacy. Starting from eye contact then down to the lips... I smiled. He smiled back at me. My heart just pumped with joy. Are my charms working today ? Rarely I would be this lucky. We continued to glace at each other and smiling silly all the way through lunch. He was really cute i tell you. After i ate my last morsel, I grabbed a pack of ciggarette. Then, nervously tries to look for a lighter in my tight pants. Out of the blue, he was standing beside me and offering me his lighter. He looks really good close-up, all the fats bulging at the right places. Belly tits and butts. His clean shaven face looks so adorable in the sunlight that it took a while for me to regain my composure in that situation.
"Mind if I join you ?"
"Sure lah.. have a sit", I replied in my broken english.
"You ni GemuKChub kan ?" Huh.. i was taken aback with his question. How did he know ?
"Err... uncle ni siapa?" The work uncle just jumped lovingly from my mouth. I did't have time to think... abang would have been more appropriate in this conversation.
To my amazement, he has been eyeing me for quite some time. More amazingly, he knows a lot about mychub and it's movement. He gave me the impression that he is an old passive member of mychub. Each of us tries to get more confortable and we even ordered our 2nd drink. Well, with a georgeous chub like that I'd even skipped work this afternoon.
"So what's happening to mychub lately", he asked
"Donno lah.. everybody bitching about each other.. not as fun as the old days" I sighed.
"Uncle tahu.. i have been keeping my interest in mychub for quite sometime now"
Feeling unconfortable, I dumbly ask the Trophy Question... "Uncle dah ada B/F ke ?"
He replied.. "Dah..!!" , My heart sunk. Seeing my sullen face he added "Kalau bukan kerana MyChub, uncle mungkin tak bertemu jodoh"
"Macammana pulak tu"
"Ye la, tanpa mychub, uncle tak akan tahu bahawa bukan uncle sorang sahaja yang memendam perasaan sebegini", "Dulu uncle ingat uncle sorang sahaja dalam dunia ni, bila uncle terjumpa website mychub barulah uncle sedar yang orang seperti uncle ni masih mempunyai harapan dan ramai lagi berperasaan seperti uncle"
"Perasaan macammana uncle", I asked knowing too well the answer.
'Alaaahh.. perasan suka kepada lelaki... terutama lelaki yang gemuk dan badan berisi macam uncle sendiri"
I nodded with approval....
"Uncle tak takut ke.. yer la.. expose ke"
"Dulu memang uncle cukup takut, terutama kalau orang lain tahu. Tapi sekarang ni uncle sedar bahawa selama ini uncle takut dengan diri sendiri. Takut untuk menerima kenyataan", "Terima kasihlah , kerana tanpa MyChub, dimana lagi uncle nak mengadu nasib"
"Uncle.. MyChub bukanlah kepunyaan saya akan tetapi hasil titik peluh semua ahli yang telah sukarela menolong untuk membangunkan kominiti ni"
"Uncle percaya, ada ramai lagi yang masih belum melihat itu semua, ramai lagi yang memerlukan khidmat Mychub untuk membuka mata mereka"
"Tapi uncle.. ada dah jadi kacang lupakan kulit, tidak menghargai apa yang mereka ada, malah mencaci maki kita bila ada yang tidak kena. Walhal kita cuma berniat hendak menolong"
"Itu adat lah... bila kita berjaya.. dan orang lain tidak.. hasad dengki tu akan berputik","Biarkan mereka dengan cara mereka... MyChub have it's own kind of style and class","Keep up the good work and don't let anybody make you think otherwise"
"Thank you uncle"
Suddenly, I felt proud, becauseI felt that something I did have helped someone. Eventhough not for my own benefit.. but at least I made people happy. Along the way I have made a few new friends. That is what the sprit of MyChub is all about. To all of you, Have a nice day... especially to all the LTR couples who have found their match in MyChub. We are glad that you have found your happiness here. Email us if you want to share you love story in mychub -- mychub@time.net.my
Friday, April 11, 2003
Hi there, all! How are things? For me, so far so good! I have recently met a guy in KL! Chub to say the least! But well, let me just tell you that I think it is starting correctly! So far I have been to KL a couple of times and to prove his sincerity, he has come to Singapore too. We met in chat on gay.com.
Anyway, wish me luck! But something actually saddens me! I have spoken to him about mychub and its activities! He said he used to attend some functions especiallly with his ex. Pergi juga ke CM on Sunday. But he told me that he has absolutely NO interest in attending any more functions of mychub! Of course, saya mesti tanya kenapa??? He said it is due to the huge amount of bitching around of mychub members! Nothing I can do will make him change his mind about going to any function!
But I think I am lucky! His answer to me, "Kalau abang nak pergi ke apa-apa function, abang pergi seorang! Saya tak boleh halang abang tapi jangan paksa saya pergi!"
That is a very sad statement! Well, you cannot get everything, right??
Anyway, wish me luck! But something actually saddens me! I have spoken to him about mychub and its activities! He said he used to attend some functions especiallly with his ex. Pergi juga ke CM on Sunday. But he told me that he has absolutely NO interest in attending any more functions of mychub! Of course, saya mesti tanya kenapa??? He said it is due to the huge amount of bitching around of mychub members! Nothing I can do will make him change his mind about going to any function!
But I think I am lucky! His answer to me, "Kalau abang nak pergi ke apa-apa function, abang pergi seorang! Saya tak boleh halang abang tapi jangan paksa saya pergi!"
That is a very sad statement! Well, you cannot get everything, right??
Thursday, April 10, 2003
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I wish as hell they were wrong... I'm much more nicer than this... hmmm...
Wednesday, April 09, 2003
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Wednesday, March 19, 2003
To Lyndon:
Pretense? I suppose everything is a bed of roses when you first met, then the 'attraction graph' goes down. I don't think he intended to play with your feelings, but more like 'having different goals'. To each his own, someone told me.
A bloody busy month, which was February and now, March. My free time was usually past 9pm, where I’d get myself dinner, and actually met other people from my workplace. Hardly go clubbing anymore, since there aren’t that many places I’d want to go to. Am hoping that Kings of Tomorrow or some house DJs would come over soon.
Went to Bleu a few weeks ago. Don’t really agree with the music they played, but the crowd seemed to love it. Somehow, the maths doesn’t add up. Loud speakers + 2am + Jln P Ramlee + PLUs = Dikir Puteri. To each his own, someone told me. But heard from some guys that the place was packed the recent Saturdays, and the playlist has improved.
Missed hanging out with the guys, really eases my stress and tense (a cheaper alternative than going to saunas and such!). I do drop in IRC once in a while, just to get latest updates.
Chatted with a guy over coffee the other day. Kinda chubby, he has a big frame. Round face, bout my height, fair skinned, Malay, smooth. Could pass for Afdlin with glasses if you look from behind.
Hanged out the Bangsar area these days to get glimpses of the F1 Grand Prix fever, and yes 'twas fun. Girls in minis (er?!), boys in shorts, bigger boys in shorts... the likes. Am expecting a much larger turnout over around Jln P Ramlee (12SI, Emporium, Nuovo, Backroom) area this weekend. Think Tequila on a furry chest. Okay, so I don't drink, but you get the idea.
Pretense? I suppose everything is a bed of roses when you first met, then the 'attraction graph' goes down. I don't think he intended to play with your feelings, but more like 'having different goals'. To each his own, someone told me.
A bloody busy month, which was February and now, March. My free time was usually past 9pm, where I’d get myself dinner, and actually met other people from my workplace. Hardly go clubbing anymore, since there aren’t that many places I’d want to go to. Am hoping that Kings of Tomorrow or some house DJs would come over soon.
Went to Bleu a few weeks ago. Don’t really agree with the music they played, but the crowd seemed to love it. Somehow, the maths doesn’t add up. Loud speakers + 2am + Jln P Ramlee + PLUs = Dikir Puteri. To each his own, someone told me. But heard from some guys that the place was packed the recent Saturdays, and the playlist has improved.
Missed hanging out with the guys, really eases my stress and tense (a cheaper alternative than going to saunas and such!). I do drop in IRC once in a while, just to get latest updates.
Chatted with a guy over coffee the other day. Kinda chubby, he has a big frame. Round face, bout my height, fair skinned, Malay, smooth. Could pass for Afdlin with glasses if you look from behind.
Hanged out the Bangsar area these days to get glimpses of the F1 Grand Prix fever, and yes 'twas fun. Girls in minis (er?!), boys in shorts, bigger boys in shorts... the likes. Am expecting a much larger turnout over around Jln P Ramlee (12SI, Emporium, Nuovo, Backroom) area this weekend. Think Tequila on a furry chest. Okay, so I don't drink, but you get the idea.
Tuesday, March 18, 2003
Hi there! Well tak ada banyak nak ceritakan! tetapi saya ingin tanya sesuatu. Why do so many people make a pretense of the situation? Ini bukan kali pertama yang saya mengalaminya! The guy I met in Penang! It was nice for a while. Tapi sebenarnya, dia tak berapa minat sangat pada saya! Selepas jumpa beberapa kali, dia terus nak menghilangkan diri. Cinta tak boleh dipaksa! Baru-baru ni, dia tak nak menjumpai saya. Dia tak nak terima pangillan saya! He is a big pretender!
Saya tak boeh buat apa-apa? Kenapa ada orang yang boleh memainkan perasaan seseorang? Kalau tak minat, cakap aja!
But I am lucky! Minggu lepas saya jumpa seorang lagi di gay.com channel. He is a chub, umur 27. He seems nice! Last weekend, saya berada di KL dan dia pun menemani saya! I hope it will strike off. Saya akan ke KL minggu depan. Just hope it goes well.
Saya tak boeh buat apa-apa? Kenapa ada orang yang boleh memainkan perasaan seseorang? Kalau tak minat, cakap aja!
But I am lucky! Minggu lepas saya jumpa seorang lagi di gay.com channel. He is a chub, umur 27. He seems nice! Last weekend, saya berada di KL dan dia pun menemani saya! I hope it will strike off. Saya akan ke KL minggu depan. Just hope it goes well.
Sunday, March 02, 2003
Hi Semua, Saya sekarang di Penang! Saya telah menjumpa seorang chub di gay.com. Kami saling hantar e-mail sampai ada kali, 3 kali sehari. Saya pun ambil keputusan untuk jumpa dia di KL. Maklum, orang Selangor. Saya telah buat reservation di Vistana Hotel, tempat saya selalu menginap di KL. Tetapi, tiba-tiba, saya dapat e-mail dari dia yang kita kena batal perjumpaan kita di KL. Last minute, dia kena di hantar ke Penang untuk kerja. Tak tahu apa saya nak buat! Rasa macam nak batal perjumpaan kita.
Dia pun ajak saya ke Penang. Dia menginap di hotel di Penang. Dia kata company dia dah bayar! OKlah tu. Saya pun ke Penang. Habis keje malam pada hari
Khamis dan terus ke JB. Naik bas pukul 12 ke KL dan sampai pada siang pagi. Saya pun ambil keputusan untuk naik ke Penang dengan bas. Dia tu kerja. So samnpai lewat tak per.
Saya sampai pada pukul 3 dan duduk di Komtar. Dia suruh saya beli makanan ringan dan minuman. OK! Habis tu naik teksi ke hotelnya di area Bayan Lepas. OK. Sampai saya di hotel. Talifon bilik dia, tak jawab. Mungkin belum balik tu! Tunggu bawa sampai 45 minit. Rasa ada yang tak kena. Talifon bilik dia lagi. Ada pulak. Dia minta saya naik.
Well he is chub. Melayu dan tinggi dekat 5'10". Umur 30+, dan berat badan dalam 95 kg. Saiz pinggang adalah 39 to 40. OK. Malam itu kami pun bercakap-cakap dan dapat tahu antara satu sama lain. It was good.
Saya tak buang masa. Hari Sabtu dia kena kerja. Maklumlah....keje private bukan kerajaan! Saya pun ke bandar dan membeli sebuah kad. Saya beli dia sekotak chocolate Ferrero Rocher dalam bentuk HEART! Saya pun dapat sebuah bunga ros! Tak lama selepas dia balik, saya pun buat proposal! I think I am in LOVE!
Malam itu, kami pun pergi tengok movie Jennifer Lopez, Maid in Manhattan! I tell you, it was so romantic! It was a good night!! Dia telah pulang ke KL petang ini. Saya balik esok.
I THINK I AM IN LOVE!!
Dia pun ajak saya ke Penang. Dia menginap di hotel di Penang. Dia kata company dia dah bayar! OKlah tu. Saya pun ke Penang. Habis keje malam pada hari
Khamis dan terus ke JB. Naik bas pukul 12 ke KL dan sampai pada siang pagi. Saya pun ambil keputusan untuk naik ke Penang dengan bas. Dia tu kerja. So samnpai lewat tak per.
Saya sampai pada pukul 3 dan duduk di Komtar. Dia suruh saya beli makanan ringan dan minuman. OK! Habis tu naik teksi ke hotelnya di area Bayan Lepas. OK. Sampai saya di hotel. Talifon bilik dia, tak jawab. Mungkin belum balik tu! Tunggu bawa sampai 45 minit. Rasa ada yang tak kena. Talifon bilik dia lagi. Ada pulak. Dia minta saya naik.
Well he is chub. Melayu dan tinggi dekat 5'10". Umur 30+, dan berat badan dalam 95 kg. Saiz pinggang adalah 39 to 40. OK. Malam itu kami pun bercakap-cakap dan dapat tahu antara satu sama lain. It was good.
Saya tak buang masa. Hari Sabtu dia kena kerja. Maklumlah....keje private bukan kerajaan! Saya pun ke bandar dan membeli sebuah kad. Saya beli dia sekotak chocolate Ferrero Rocher dalam bentuk HEART! Saya pun dapat sebuah bunga ros! Tak lama selepas dia balik, saya pun buat proposal! I think I am in LOVE!
Malam itu, kami pun pergi tengok movie Jennifer Lopez, Maid in Manhattan! I tell you, it was so romantic! It was a good night!! Dia telah pulang ke KL petang ini. Saya balik esok.
I THINK I AM IN LOVE!!
Friday, February 28, 2003
Thursday, February 27, 2003
"So apa kamu buat kat sini?" tanya pakcik tu.
(Err... membuat pasu bunga?) "Saja buang masa... dah lepas urut ni bagi keluar peluh pulak..."
"Ooo.. ye ke... hehehe. Kamu ni Melayu rupanya iyer? Camana urut tadi? OK? Kamu ambik sapa tadi? Dah lama sampai?" tanya pakcik tu lagi. Mid-40s, salt and pepper hair, plump without being too chubby, burly without being stocky, trying to look serious but his hands kept scratching the wooden panels... the nervous malu-tapi-mau type probably... I don't know whether he's trying to be friendly or actually interested to know my answers.
"OK, biasa aja. Kalau sakit badan bebetul saya ambik Salman atau Ah Kau, kalau sesaja nak releks badan nak tidur saya ambik Shahrin. So, arini ambik Shahrin."
"Oic, betul cakap kamu, I ambik Salman tadi, selalunya kalau nak ambik dia kena book awal2, kalau tak lambat le kena tunggu... lagipun dia urut semua sekali... semua sekali".
(Uh-huh... napa nak stress last sekali tu ekk? Nak suruh aku tanya ke? Koserss.. taula ko cute) "Oic, bagusla camtu... so, selain sini abang gi mana lagi ekk? Ada tempat2 bleh rekomen tak?"
"Ada tu ada, tapi jarang ke tempat lain. Rghupa kedai2 tu lain skit. Kedai nampak open sangat, lepas tu yg pergi semua muda2 lembut2, rasa tak selesa. Kat Subang ada, kat Selayang ada..."
(Rghupa? Rupa? Orang Perak ke ni? Jauh berjalan bang?! Hehehhe... Eh? Tak suka lembut2? Abang ke akak ni? Hiskk... ok gak akak ada misai nih... hmmm) "Oooo... paham2..."
"So Shahrin urut semua sekali jugak ke?"
(Ha'a... napa? Nak demo ke? Ke nak tolong bagi demo?) "Iyer, urut bebetul le, takla urut lebih2 yang lebih2... heheh". (Dia cakap dengan aku nih, tapi tgk tmpt arang batu tu pulak, bad eye contact tul, camana la nak jadik businessman?)
"Oooo.. so belum lagi la ni?"
(Belum? Belum apa la ni? Belum beli TV warna ke? Koserla soalan2 matematik nih) "Ha'a.. belum lagi..."
(Err... membuat pasu bunga?) "Saja buang masa... dah lepas urut ni bagi keluar peluh pulak..."
"Ooo.. ye ke... hehehe. Kamu ni Melayu rupanya iyer? Camana urut tadi? OK? Kamu ambik sapa tadi? Dah lama sampai?" tanya pakcik tu lagi. Mid-40s, salt and pepper hair, plump without being too chubby, burly without being stocky, trying to look serious but his hands kept scratching the wooden panels... the nervous malu-tapi-mau type probably... I don't know whether he's trying to be friendly or actually interested to know my answers.
"OK, biasa aja. Kalau sakit badan bebetul saya ambik Salman atau Ah Kau, kalau sesaja nak releks badan nak tidur saya ambik Shahrin. So, arini ambik Shahrin."
"Oic, betul cakap kamu, I ambik Salman tadi, selalunya kalau nak ambik dia kena book awal2, kalau tak lambat le kena tunggu... lagipun dia urut semua sekali... semua sekali".
(Uh-huh... napa nak stress last sekali tu ekk? Nak suruh aku tanya ke? Koserss.. taula ko cute) "Oic, bagusla camtu... so, selain sini abang gi mana lagi ekk? Ada tempat2 bleh rekomen tak?"
"Ada tu ada, tapi jarang ke tempat lain. Rghupa kedai2 tu lain skit. Kedai nampak open sangat, lepas tu yg pergi semua muda2 lembut2, rasa tak selesa. Kat Subang ada, kat Selayang ada..."
(Rghupa? Rupa? Orang Perak ke ni? Jauh berjalan bang?! Hehehhe... Eh? Tak suka lembut2? Abang ke akak ni? Hiskk... ok gak akak ada misai nih... hmmm) "Oooo... paham2..."
"So Shahrin urut semua sekali jugak ke?"
(Ha'a... napa? Nak demo ke? Ke nak tolong bagi demo?) "Iyer, urut bebetul le, takla urut lebih2 yang lebih2... heheh". (Dia cakap dengan aku nih, tapi tgk tmpt arang batu tu pulak, bad eye contact tul, camana la nak jadik businessman?)
"Oooo.. so belum lagi la ni?"
(Belum? Belum apa la ni? Belum beli TV warna ke? Koserla soalan2 matematik nih) "Ha'a.. belum lagi..."
Friday, February 21, 2003
yesterday was not a perfect day to begin with. Went for my 2nd parking test at Ulu Langat and had miserably failed. I went out and knocked down a pole, pretty smart eh?....anyway, feeling down like hell and everything seems very wrong in every way after that. So I went home and called everybody that I could think of and blabbered about my shortcomings, not that they care but I had to tell evryone so i can get it out from my system. I was a bit calm after the 8th call and proceeded to gay.com after a friend suggested to me on hooking up with anybody just for comfort and a little bit more. So there I was just parking my nick and playing trivia at mirc and after about half an hour somebody ping me, well..what can i say...this guy was really aggresive in his approach and somehow deep down i was quite intrigued. But after several lines, i detected something funny about his chat line, i noticed that he kept on saying dear this dear that as if it sounded so endearing, well not to me, thank you very much. He wanted a meeting over coffee and I told him that I wasnt interested in having mere coffee and I couldnt be bothered to go all the way to KL for that cuppa. He insisted and told me how he adored my pic and went on describing things which was so flattery to me that I eventually agreed but I told him the meeting should be at my house and not at some coffee joint or a hotel as he had proposed. He agreed immediately and told me to wait for him for apprixomately an hour. Before he log off he mentioned to me that he was good looking with mix parentage and have a VERY nice body for he often frequented Dynasty hotel gym facilities. I was obviously smitten with the fact (as he had presented to me) that I would be meeting a 37 year old good looking hunk. Before anything, I have warned him that I'm a chub and told him not be dissapointed if I wasnt something that he would have expected. He told me he's quite cool with chub guys and told me that my body size doesnt count, it was my demeanour that attracted him in the very first place. So it was settle then, we agreed to meet and I caution him that I wasnt up for any sex or it's equivalent, he said ok, he just want to be with me and have an eye to eye meeting with me. After we finished chatting, I felt quite ecstatic and the things i said about not having sex with him, well it was just pure puny lie, hell, who in this world would decline sex when a sex object is infront of him. I did my usual routine of cleaning myself up and stuff and smiling to myself silly. Well, he did arrived at the supposed time he promised and with just one look I could tell it was him for he was not as manly as he described he was and the best part was that he didnt have a great body (he told me more than seven times that he possess an envious body thx to his gym routine). Hell, what the feck should i do at that time? ask him to go back to his home and said goodbye? It was the lie about his appearance that gutted me the most, i dont fecking mind if you're fat or slim, just fecking tell me the truth about your self, dont make me live with false hope and false fantasy and how do you expect me to carry out the fantasy when the make-believe wasnt there. I greeted him and invited him inside my house, and he got the nerve to ask me this : you like my great body baby? This is over-confident to the max man, his tummy itself is as flabby as mine, and he was as melayu as melayu get, what with the chinese look claim? He proceeded to tell me that he was horny and ask me where the bedroom was. In my mind i was like saying to myself: do I have to deal with this? I told him that I'm not up for sex and just want to have conversation as he had earlier proposed during our chat session. He paused for a while, then he said ok, let's talk in your bedroom. I should have seen it coming, but me being me reluctantly agreed to enter my bedroom with him. and he told me that my room is quite hot and he needed to undress in order to make himself comfortable. Can I say no? so there he was half naked and on my bed and keep on saying, come on baby, come to me baby let's make love baby.......what the feck is that? I told him off and ask him to leave but he resisted, he then said to me; 'if you dont want to make love to me, the least you can do is suck my cock' the nerve! anyway, i told him nicely that I'm just not in the mood and instead I swiched on my computer and show him some gay movies that I have downloaded. So he just sat quietly and stroke while watching the movie while i dont know what to do sit at the end of one corner and just remain clueless. I thought to myself, i have to get rid of him fast, he will obviously leave whenever he managed to cum. But after the third movie, he was still strong and there was no sign of him cumming. So I did the unthinkable, I went to him and grab his cock and started to you know what until he cum. He's one clever bugger. He left after that and as soon as he left my house, suddenly i felt it, i felt really really horny....while i was doing him, i didnt feel much of anything, just like an obligatory things to do in order for an objective to be achieved. At that moment i was up for anything, then, i received a call...and this call really made up my day.....i'm out now maybe i would continue about the call and its eventful result tomorrow......bye
Wednesday, February 19, 2003
Hello. Apa khabar semua? Well, last weekend, minggu ketiga, cutikan? Saya telah pergi ke kuantan untuk jumpa seorang kawan saya. Sudah setahun setengah saya tak jumpa dia. Dia baru pindah ke Kuantan 6 bulan aja dari Melaka. Anyway, sejak saya masuk ke Pahang, mulalah hujan. Saya pun tak buat apa. Saya sampai pada hari Sabtu dan terus ke rumah kawan saya.
Saya betul marah kerana hujan tak berhenti! Hujan berhenti pada petang hari Sabtu tu dan kita pun pergi ke telok chempedek. Tak der apa pun! Kami nak pergi Cherating pada hari Ahad tapi tak boleh kerana hujan turun lagi! Satu hari pulak. Anyway, hujan pun berhenti pada malam Ahad. Kami makan malam di sebuah restoran ditebing sungai Pahang. Dari tempat kami berdua duduk, saya nampak ada 4 kawan. 3 daripada mereka biasa. Ada yang pakai shorts, seorang pakai jeans. Tapi satu daripada mereka adalah chub. Dia tu mungkin 168 cm dan berat badan dalam 110 kg. Handsome betul. Dan yang best punya, dia tu memakai kain pelikat dan t-shirt! Betul handsome pulak. Saya asyik tengok dia aja. Ada kali dia bangun dan tengok saya. Rasanya dia suka saya tapi dia dengan kawan dia dan saya pulak dengan kawan saya. Saya dan kawan saya bangun dulu untuk balik. Dia pun lambai tangan. That makes my day!!
Saya betul marah kerana hujan tak berhenti! Hujan berhenti pada petang hari Sabtu tu dan kita pun pergi ke telok chempedek. Tak der apa pun! Kami nak pergi Cherating pada hari Ahad tapi tak boleh kerana hujan turun lagi! Satu hari pulak. Anyway, hujan pun berhenti pada malam Ahad. Kami makan malam di sebuah restoran ditebing sungai Pahang. Dari tempat kami berdua duduk, saya nampak ada 4 kawan. 3 daripada mereka biasa. Ada yang pakai shorts, seorang pakai jeans. Tapi satu daripada mereka adalah chub. Dia tu mungkin 168 cm dan berat badan dalam 110 kg. Handsome betul. Dan yang best punya, dia tu memakai kain pelikat dan t-shirt! Betul handsome pulak. Saya asyik tengok dia aja. Ada kali dia bangun dan tengok saya. Rasanya dia suka saya tapi dia dengan kawan dia dan saya pulak dengan kawan saya. Saya dan kawan saya bangun dulu untuk balik. Dia pun lambai tangan. That makes my day!!
Tuesday, February 18, 2003
My Chub webteam, particularly Gemuk Chub, thank you for inviting me to somehow write my two cents worth in this blog, though i doubt that it would amount to anything but at least hmmmm...why do we like to say at least this, at least that, is it something heriditary or we r just being too freaking polite and doesn't want to sound too show offy when the real emphasise is obviously on the at least thingie and it seems we simply settle for the 'at least' when we didnt manage to achieve anything, how contradictory!. God, i'm rambling.....ok so back to business of writing this blog, allow me to introduce myself (at the same time advertise my slutty ass) and pohon restu from the seniors for i am just a budak baru berjinak ngan this community, i was a chub in denial(maybe i'm still am, i dunno) and still thinks that I'm a babelicious babe but reality hits hard when the amount of rejections (we can know from the eyes and the silent or akward treatment especially when courting unless the guy really appreciate chubs and the like) surpassing my ability even to say ello! But then, it didnt get the better of me, no fecking way, our demeanor is our saving grace and our endurance are priceless, a make believe reality. Anyway, I'm 26 and love having encounters with strangers but seldom will it last two dates or sessions, whatever u want to call it. Never had the privillege to acquire bf/s or maybe lacking the skills in maintaining a relationship, i dunno but it's as fickled as fickle get. Mostly I would assume the agressive passive role and would try ever so hard to please my many one time lover (touch and go). But I think i have ceased to be sooo a housewife, being assertive is quite a difficult thing to practise when you were like before this; when the guy you were with couldnt get it up after so much bragging and boasting from his side, and you smile instead and said takpe....i dont mind saying it if the person was a nice guy but when he was like too demanding in every way, where he sets precautions and rules in everything and you abide to that, and in returns, he freaking couldnt deliver, well...what is tHAT! just remember guys body contact between two people means two people working it to make it work not a literally sleeping partner who just laze around and make you do all the work. Hey aint nothin a free ride anymore, we have way passed that. Honestly I have to admit that I'm rather a shy person outside in the real world but can be pretty daring when i'm in the net, I have never hit anybody off the streets even if he was like this drop dead gorgeous being, i just took a disinterested glance and pretend that nothing happens when deep inside me it's like a Krakatoa ever ready to erupt again. My last encounter was with this guy who responded to my personal message in the mychubs personal ad or something, i coudnt feckin remember and yeah we did have some good jackin off session together (god i dunno whether i'm allowed to share explicit moments in this blog, i know zilch of the rules in here, so if i was way overboard with my anything, pls advise ok) but then it stops there, i's an ok encounter, not that great but ok and he doesnt mind kissing either. I've been like Julia Roberts in pretty woman who inferred that kissing is more for affectionate relationship and not for ons but then this guy started it, so i kissed him back and right at that moment i realised that i'm not a good lay....simply because i have forgotten how to really kiss and it affects my performance as well. Not affecting it completely but slightly affected. And that was like i dunno a week ago, and after that I couldnt be bothered to have anymore meetups, i used to have meetups at least 3 or 4 times a week, a full fledge meetups mind u, but now..hmmmm....maybe i'm getting older. Or maybe LOVE has become something of a requited necessity. I dunno.
Saturday, January 25, 2003
Hi there. Well yesterday, Thursday I was in one of the chat rooms of gay.com. Anyway, I was talking a few people, and I had a message from a guy. We got talking. I was impressed to hear he was about 1.8 m and weighed about 120 kg. After chatting some time, he gave me his handphone number. He was going on his coffee break so asked me to call him. I called him. He sounded very nice. He asked me if I could meet him after work.
We arranged a place. i was skeptical. Would I be able to recognise him and he me? The time came and well yes that was him. It was raining heavily. He recognised me too.
As it was raining very havily, he was caught in the rain. So was I. Not much later he said he was feeling unwell, and there was a slight fever coming up. Anyway, as we had already arranged to meet, we took a cab to a shopping centre and sat down at a Coffee Bean for coffee. It was a sort of get to know you session. I enjoyed it. He wants to get togethr again next week for further action. I am quite amazed that I managed to get a chub in a chat room.
We arranged a place. i was skeptical. Would I be able to recognise him and he me? The time came and well yes that was him. It was raining heavily. He recognised me too.
As it was raining very havily, he was caught in the rain. So was I. Not much later he said he was feeling unwell, and there was a slight fever coming up. Anyway, as we had already arranged to meet, we took a cab to a shopping centre and sat down at a Coffee Bean for coffee. It was a sort of get to know you session. I enjoyed it. He wants to get togethr again next week for further action. I am quite amazed that I managed to get a chub in a chat room.
Thursday, January 09, 2003
It's not too late to wish everyone 'Happy New Year', I hope. May all your wishes will come true, and may u have already fulfilled last year's resolution. I celebrated new year at Nuovo, Kuala Lumpur becoz a DJ was there (Joey Negro aka Jakatta) who played creme and 'house'-y music. Cover charge was RM60 per person with 2 drinks. Twas almost full house, and Jalan P Ramlee outside was full of people also. Across the road over at Emporium there's this drag show on podium, which I later found out was 'Mardi Gras 2002/2003'. Apparently glitters.com performed somewhere on the the streets as well....
Met a new friend a few weeks before through the net. Decided to meet up for a drink and more real-time face-to-face chat. A bloody nice guy, I would say, almost too good to be true (well, that's what I always said when I get to know new people, but this one is the best so far). A Malay bear (woof!), 170, no idea about his weight, has more than 18 hairs per square inch on his arm, wears glasses, short hair, great smile, stuble. Or try to picture Santa Claus minus 40 years. We chatted about everything from music to movies over a cuppa coffe and a plate of 'nasi lemak' (which he finished in about 2.30 min, I like people who enjoy food!).
"Errr, why do you like chubbies?"
"Dunno, I must have f**ked-up my brain or something. No-lah, may be I like what the images of chubs represent, sort of like a happy personality"
"But not all chubbies are happy all the time"
"I know, maybe I like what they represent. Confident funny witty chubs turn me on, especially those in Armani business suits and BMW M5s. Hahaha. Ok, so that one is a joke. My point is, attraction to physical is one thing, but personality or intelligence is another."
"But why chubs?"
"Uhhh, why not chubs? If I wanted a slim,might as well I jack-off in front of the mirror or something. Hehehe. Maybe I'm attracted to something different from me. Maybe. Beauty lies on the eye of the beholder, dear. It's not like I don't find Brad Pitt, or Antonio Sabato or Marcus Schenken-whatever not attractive. I do. But I don't find them desirable. At most, I would want to be like them, but I don't want them. At least, I would picture them as rivals. But I CAN identify a good-looking guy. I believe I'm not a psycho or a fetish."
"Hmm.. ok... whatever. Err, where do you wanna go after this?"
Met a new friend a few weeks before through the net. Decided to meet up for a drink and more real-time face-to-face chat. A bloody nice guy, I would say, almost too good to be true (well, that's what I always said when I get to know new people, but this one is the best so far). A Malay bear (woof!), 170, no idea about his weight, has more than 18 hairs per square inch on his arm, wears glasses, short hair, great smile, stuble. Or try to picture Santa Claus minus 40 years. We chatted about everything from music to movies over a cuppa coffe and a plate of 'nasi lemak' (which he finished in about 2.30 min, I like people who enjoy food!).
"Errr, why do you like chubbies?"
"Dunno, I must have f**ked-up my brain or something. No-lah, may be I like what the images of chubs represent, sort of like a happy personality"
"But not all chubbies are happy all the time"
"I know, maybe I like what they represent. Confident funny witty chubs turn me on, especially those in Armani business suits and BMW M5s. Hahaha. Ok, so that one is a joke. My point is, attraction to physical is one thing, but personality or intelligence is another."
"But why chubs?"
"Uhhh, why not chubs? If I wanted a slim,might as well I jack-off in front of the mirror or something. Hehehe. Maybe I'm attracted to something different from me. Maybe. Beauty lies on the eye of the beholder, dear. It's not like I don't find Brad Pitt, or Antonio Sabato or Marcus Schenken-whatever not attractive. I do. But I don't find them desirable. At most, I would want to be like them, but I don't want them. At least, I would picture them as rivals. But I CAN identify a good-looking guy. I believe I'm not a psycho or a fetish."
"Hmm.. ok... whatever. Err, where do you wanna go after this?"
Hi! Apa khabar semua? Mashimaro seems to be having a good time! Well, for me not much to report. I met a guy whom I used to know a few years ago in Singapore. I was walking around looking for a cinema. I suddenly saw this guy. I knew him about 4 yeas ago. He was the boyfriend of one of my girl friends. He was tall then, and did not look very chub then. But on Tuesday when I saw him I was so shocked. He had put on a lot of weight. Now, he would be 175 cm, weigh about 120 kg, waist 42 inches. Last time his waist was about 36 inches. Anyway, we started talking. Talked about old times. I discovered he was no longer with my friend.
As I had my friends waiting for me, I told him I would have to meet him another day. We exchanged numbers. I discovered he has recently been retrenched. He is a malay guy. I told him I would try to meet him for lunch next week. But on second tthoughts, I think I will make it dinner.If he agrees. Let us see what happens later!
Catch you later!
As I had my friends waiting for me, I told him I would have to meet him another day. We exchanged numbers. I discovered he has recently been retrenched. He is a malay guy. I told him I would try to meet him for lunch next week. But on second tthoughts, I think I will make it dinner.If he agrees. Let us see what happens later!
Catch you later!
Wednesday, January 01, 2003
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