i havent written for quite some time, not that i was bz or something like that (I am eternally bz with work, anyway) it's just that i found that writing for this blog proved to be quite a hard challenge, not everyday we experienced encounters and not every day we resort into slutness. Anyway, what Raden Putra @ istante wrote made me want to share my 2 cents worth. lately i have been questioning my gayness and my situation as a chub with homosexual tendency. True, history and environment play a major part in making me decide to be what i am as applicable to 'Zul's' friend who were unfortunate enough to be mishandled by his own uncle hence evoke his decision to be what he is today. What I am trying to get at is this: is it the whole truth? is it because of one particular or maybe a series of episodes that led us to resort to our own likings? Many people will gladly tell you his story of why he become gay in the first place, but then to me, the story were purely made up (not imposing that the story/ies wasnt true or anything, it just that it did happen but it's probably not the REAL reason) The episodes or the stories simply strengthening it but it wasnt the CAUSE. My theory : we (plu and the like) are afraid of women, or we respect women too much or women simply too fucking hard to handle. So we find comfort in men and embrace them whenever we can. i will let this linger on your mind and i welcome any feedback before i finally present my case with deliberation and arguments.
regards
rozman
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Friday, July 04, 2003
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