Heloo.. I meant to write everyday. But due to time contraints and other obligations.. I promise I will find some time to write this. Somehow I feel this is soo therapeutic. I've been under a lot of stress lately. Renovating the house.. arranging furniture and stuff. The weekends are a total chore. Call me workaholic... but I do look forward to weekdays rather than weekends. Anyway, back to the topic at hand... How would you react when someone returns a glance at you. It's been so long since I've got responses from my glances that i totally freaked out. This cute chub I saw at this restaurant. He must be 20 , 100kg, 44 waist, Tan Malay look, adoring lips, big butt and firm ripe nipple to go nicely wrapped in the tight executive looking shirt. I was having lunch. He was sitting and waiting for his order. I glance at him ( its now second nature to do that). And WHALLA!! he give the same glance to me and smiled. Unexpectedly, I panicked and looked away. Should I too be smilling at this moment ??? Remorse evidently follows.... the bowl of "Yong Tau Foo" did quite taste the same.. I tried to look at him for the whole eating session.. but he didn't gave me second glance. I always envy the yucky pickup lines in the popular gay series in the US "Queer As Folk".... "Hey! How issit goin". And the next minute they are in bed having raunchy sex. What is the correct pickup line in Malaysia ? From the mind "Apa khabar... ?" to the feisty "Saya taste kat awak".. down right to the dirty "Bang!.. isap konek". The weather is quite a good pickup line... but it's too cliche. ASL & Stats is too much of an IRC thing... Anyway, as I was going out of the restaurant and pass by him.. I used an old pickup line my friend taught me... "Macam kenal yea.. tapi kat mana kita jumpa ?"... YES it hits the spot!!! !!! And the rest is history in the making....

Hi.. actually this is a backlog of a previous encounter I had. It was too weeks ago when I was shopping at the MP Shopping Complex. I was hanging out with the guys.. cruising some guys. Some are adorable ones like this one young chub.. he must be at least 16 - 18 years old. 7" tall at least and weight around 120kg. Clean face... and a gorgeous face that can make you saliva drool. God! I was in 7th heaven... anyway. He had this little stubles of facial hair.. you know..like it's just grown on him. Wonder how good that feels when it brushes on one's skin. Yikes! I'm day dreaming again... I kept looking at him hoping for a response..a wink.. a smile.. a gaze.. but nahhh.. it didn't happen. Well.. he had that str8 looking face anyway. But then.. one can never know these days... after watching a lot of Japanese chubby porn... I realize that str8 looking face does not mean he is actually str8 at all. Some of the porn actors looks so cute and damn str8 that I just got a little shocked when he suck cock. Of course they suck cock.. this is porn we are talking about. But hey! certain thing needs assurance for me.. like this chub i saw earlier. Is he or is he not ? Should I go to him and ask him ? That also makes me wonder about myself. Are there any people watching at me and saying "He is damn str8.." Sometimes I just wish there is a device or something that would beeps if he is gay. Being flashy or obvious is not exactly what I had in mind. But cruising for chubs... most of the times are frustrating... you know that you are attracted to them but at the same time you are afraid of their reaction when you open up to them. Scary and frustrating... well this is an after thought...

Well.. this is my first entry.. Not much i can say... I went for a course and there i saw this beautiful chub named Zuhfri.. I sat beside him and pondering at this awsome girth. he was beautiful to look at.. he must be around 150kg 6"7' age around 30+. Fair skinned, cute smile and a boyish look with a hint of chinese blood. A little small on the thighs but MAN!!!.. what a massive upper-body this guy has. Wonder if that leg of his could support those fat-tastic body. Big round and flabby all in the right places. I think he has a small cock judging from the size of his feet. Everytime he breath, I could almost smell his warm wet air coming out of his cute red nostrils. If he was a bottom.. I'd know what i would do to his massive flabby butt. My eyes kept looking at him.. i desire him. Unfortunately.. he is married and have children. Anyway.. I've got his phone number.. but do I have the courage to call him. Hmm.. we have to wait and see...